Cao Aiqing seemed to be able to hear the calmness in He Tianran's words, and this calmness suddenly made the girl feel a little at a loss...
In the past, when facing He Tianran, the other party always showed deep guilt towards him. No matter whether he was angry or begging, or he was calm like that when he invited me to the family dinner, he had never been as calm as this.
Is this a good state of affairs?
At the moment, Cao Aiqing was unable to make an accurate judgment.
She just felt that He Tianran was in a delicate stage now, just like Cao Aiqing was a victim. Of course she didn't want He Tianran to live well, and it turned out that everything he had with Wen Liang before seemed beautiful, and in the end All gone.
Logically speaking, Cao Aiqing should be happy because the "lovers" who had harmed her all her life were finally separated from each other, and they were separated into two worlds, never to see each other again.
There can be no ending more satisfying than this!
But unfortunately, this ending was caused by He Tianran himself under known circumstances.
This is the root cause of Cao Aiqing's confusion...
It was like the girl was holding a knife in her hand. He Tianran made a mistake. He should have the final say whether to kill or behead him. But when he appeared in front of her again, his body was already covered with bloody knife wounds. He was so miserable that he He even smiled and seemed to say:
"I'm here to atone for my sins. Insert your knife here, so it will hurt me more..."
He Tianran's punishment for himself was far more brutal than the revenge Cao Aiqing could have imagined...
Even in front of him, he could use sentences from some books and say some arguments that were like epitaphs.
Even though Cao Aiqing and He Tianran are the same kind of people, after thinking about it, she could only say one sentence based on her feelings:
"He Tianran, you really...have no energy at all now."
No energy left.
Cao Aiqing's choice of words is quite accurate.
He Tianran laughed, pretending to be fine and said: "Ai Qing, I don't think we should discuss this now, and I don't think this is a bad thing for me. People, sometimes they have experienced too much, and they really have to ask questions about some things. I have no interest in it anymore. I can only tell you about these things. If I do this to others, they will probably think that I am being pretentious."
In the past, He Tianran's smile, whether he was happy, angry or sad, always had the freshness of a young man. Even though he later had memories of the future, the emotion in his eyebrows was still there.
But now, in Cao Aiqing's eyes, his smile looked so lifeless and strange.
Even if he dyed his hair black again and tried his best to look like a young man, he still couldn't change the fact that this young body contained an aging soul.
"It seems that I'm overthinking this time. I really shouldn't have let Guo Huai test you. You can't do such a thing now, He Tianran."
Cao Aiqing stood up and prepared to leave.
She didn't know whether she felt more disappointed or happy when facing the current He Tianran.
The girl turned around and heard He Tianran respond to what she just said from behind.
"It's okay. I hope you can resolve this matter smoothly. I believe you."
Cao Aiqing's departure suddenly paused.
She turned around again and asked the last question of this trip:
"He Tianran, is there anything else in this world that you care about now?"
The calm man was stunned when he heard this. He frowned and thought hard, and then asked in a deep voice:
"...Ai Qing, how are you doing now?"
"What?"
"It's the other 'her' in your body. How is it going?"
Cao Aiqing raised her eyebrows calmly. She finally found some fun in the conversation with He Tianran. She asked playfully:
"Now you finally admit that 'she' and I are not the same person?"
He Tianran also made a rare joke on Cao Aiqing and said in riddle:
"If you see all appearances but no appearance, you will see the Tathagata."
"What's the meaning?"
"Diamond Sutra, you are so pious when you worship Buddha, you should be able to understand what I am talking about."
"You, a person who can't even cross the threshold of a Buddhist temple, are now interested in Buddhist scriptures?"
"Turn it over once in a while."
"If you continue like this, I think becoming a monk is your only way out."
He Tianran, who was accidentally picked up by Cao Aiqing, remained silent, but the girl thought he was waiting for her answer and said narrowly:
"She's still here, watching you even now, just like me."
He Tianran said bluntly: "I want to talk to 'her'."
Cao Aiqing flatly refused: "It's impossible, but according to what you said before, you tell me the same thing."
The man and woman looked at each other, and after sighing, He Tianran said softly: "Do you think this is okay? You don't need to come to greet me about this cyber violence incident. I will take the initiative to help you find out. After it is completed, I will beg you." You, let me talk to 'her'."
He Tianran in this state is what Cao Aiqing wants to see most. She joked:
"Didn't you just say that you believed you could solve it yourself?"
Cao Aiqing flipped the hair around her ears. She looked condescendingly at He Tianran, who was sitting in his original position and looking pleading to her. She seemed to have caught the man who seemed invulnerable to all kinds of evil and had no desires. , what exactly do you want.
That's what makes it interesting.
The girl's mouth outlines a graceful arc that is different from ever before, pure and charming, cold and sharp with a slight smile.
"I believe it, but it doesn't conflict with what I want, if you still need me."
"I don't need you..." Cao Aiqing, who was standing, slowly leaned forward, put her hands on the table, and slowly stretched out her upper body. She looked directly at He Tianran, tilted her head slightly, and said word by word: "But you are now You’re begging me, right?”
If you look at the two of them from the side at this time, Cao Aiqing's upper body from hip to waist, from back to neck, is like a swan bending down, pulling out an undulating and attractive curve.
But He Tianran, who was facing Cao Aiqing, had no time to appreciate the beautiful scenery that the other party unconsciously revealed. He just stared at Cao Aiqing's moving and familiar face and said:
"That's right."
"Speak clearly, are you begging me?"
"……I beg you."
When Cao Aiqing heard these three words, he immediately withdrew.
"Okay, as long as you can solve this matter, then I will let you..."
"Ai Qing——"
At this moment, when Cao Aiqing was about to agree to He Tianran's request, a male voice suddenly came from behind her. He Tianran also tilted his head slightly, looking past Cao Aiqing's body and looking behind her.
He was a man who was slightly more mature than the average college student. He looked to be in his twenties or seventies. He had a handsome appearance and a tall figure. He seemed to have the charm of a mature urban man. He knew that he was in the library now, so When the other party called out the girl's name, he had already lowered his voice and walked very close to her.
Cao Aiqing looked a little surprised.
"Brother Qiuxu, why did you come in?"
The man smiled and explained: "I didn't wait for you and Guo Huai to come out outside, so I came in to take a look. You guys..."
His eyes swept back and forth between He Tianran and Cao Aiqing.
"It's okay, we're done talking."
Cao Aiqing replied, and the man named "Qiu Xu" took the initiative to extend his hand to He Tianran.
"Hello, Shen Qiuxu, a graduate student in the Department of Architecture."
"Ah, hello senior, He Tianran, a junior in the Department of Finance."
He Tianran also stood up politely at this time.
"Of course I've heard of you. Ai Qing mentioned it to me before. You and Guo Huai are both her friends since high school."
Shen Qiuxi was polite and polite. When he saw him entering the venue, Guo Huai, who had been waiting from a distance just now, also came over.
When He Tianran heard the name Shen Qiuxu, it seemed a little familiar, but he couldn't remember it for a moment. He could only smile and said: "Yes, we and Ai Qing are both old classmates. Senior Shen, you and Ai Qing..."
"It's like this. My mentor is helping me do things now, and Ai Qing sometimes comes over to help us. She has been having this kind of thing in the past two days, so a few of our friends helped her and figured out a way. , return her innocence..."
As Shen Qiuxu explained, Cao Aiqing might not like talking about these things in front of He Tianran, so she interrupted:
"Okay, brother Qiu Xu, Tianran and I have finished talking about everything we need to talk about. Guo Huai, let's go back. Keeping chatting in the library will also disturb Tianran's work."
After that, she planned to ask the two of them to leave. Shen Qiuxu nodded slightly and smiled apologetically at He Tianran as an apology for this abrupt meeting.
"Guo Huai, please wait a moment. I have something to tell you."
He Tianran stopped Guo Huai who was about to leave, and the latter followed him and waved to Cao and Shen as a farewell.
Looking at the two people leaving, Guo Huai asked He Tianran beside him:
"Tianran, what's going on?"
"Come, come out with me and have a cigarette."
"OK."
Guo Huai agreed immediately, and the two of them left the side door of the library and entered a secluded path on campus.
Near the trail, you can occasionally see some students walking by, either carrying English on their backs and muttering something in their mouths; or they are in small groups, chatting and laughing with their arms around each other. In this kind of night with bright moon and sparse stars, it is natural that couples can interact with each other. date for a walk.
On the way to the trail, a cluster of flames lit up, and then two sparks flew in the air like fireflies.
"Huh~Tranquility, what do you want to say to me?"
Guo Huai asked as he exhaled smoke from his mouth.
He Tianran said: "Smoking, it's nothing. By the way, last time you told me that the person who was close to Ai Qing was that Senior Shen just now, right?"
"Yes, that's him!"
"Why, you are a student union cadre and you still have a sense of crisis?"
"This is not the same thing..."
"I feel like to you, it's the same thing."
"...Oops, tut." Guo Huai said with some frustration: "Of course, if I succeed in being elected as the president of the student union this time, do you think I can catch up with Ai Qing?"
He Tianran didn't even think about it and uttered one word: "Hanging."
"Why?"
He Tianran stared at the cigarette butt in his hand and said casually: "People who can be the president of the Hong Kong University Student Union will not think about this kind of problem."
"I mean seriously..."
"I mean what I said."
He Tianran looked at Guo Huai, who was embarrassed and hesitant to speak, and urged: "Tell me what you want to say, I'll give you a cigarette."
This honest kid from the countryside hesitated for a moment. Even though he had found his own value through hard work on campus, he still couldn't help but feel submissive when he thought of the girl he loved.
"I...I have always felt that I am not worthy of Ai Qing."
"Why do you feel unworthy?"
"Because there are many... In fact, I also discovered that when the three of us were chatting in the past, I could only stand there blankly, unable to answer anything, so I could only listen to what you said...
I found that we played different things when we were young. Of course, you said video games, playgrounds, etc. When we were young, we were forced to practice piano, and our parents forced us to train in this and that.
Ai Qing learned to draw and write when she was a child, and went on trips with her elders during holidays...
As for me, when I was a child, I played wildly among the fields in the countryside. I didn’t know any video games, and I didn’t know what Song, Kai and Cao Li were for writing. My mother told me to study hard, so I studied hard, and when she told me to go out and play, I I just went out to play. Even hamburgers were the first time I ate them after arriving in Hong Kong City in high school...
Naturally, I like Ai Qing, but... I don't have the confidence to get close to her. I have been trying to get closer to her, but I find that I... I still can't make up the gap between me and her, so, you You're right, the appearance of Senior Shen this time brought me a great sense of crisis. "
He Tianran listened silently, without sarcasm or comfort, he just said:
"These are not reasons, Guo Huai. You keep saying that you have never experienced this or that. It is important to have common preferences, but on the day we were born, didn't we all know each other? You said you wanted to be Will Ai Qing love you after becoming the student union president? This is ridiculous, Lao Guo.
Ai Qing might not even care if the person she loves is the student council president, so what's the use of keeping your head down and working hard to impress yourself?
Yes, there can be gaps between you, and there can be differences between you, but aren't you friends now? Haven't you ever thought that you can create some common memories and experiences side by side together?
Do you still feel like you have nothing to talk about at that time? "
After hearing this, Guo Huai was deeply moved and was about to speak again, but He Tianran threw away the butt of the cigarette in his hand, clapped his hands, and said first:
"Okay, it's time for a cigarette, now let's get down to business."
"Ah? What's going on?"
He Tianran turned around. He, who was as calm as water just now, now looked at Guo Huai with burning eyes and asked:
"Guo Huai, it was because your phone was always on and you knew Cao Aiqing was listening, so you chose to reject my proposals, right?"
Guo Huai never expected that He Tianran, who had been talking to him just now, would actually talk about this...
"I, of course I'm not..."
His steps subconsciously stepped back.
"Then why were you hesitating then?"
"I……"
"You know, Guo Huai, Ai Qing asked me just now that she couldn't see your expression clearly on the phone. I also said that you loved her. Do you know what this means?"
Guo Huai's Adam's apple twitched slightly.
"What does it mean..."
boom--
Before he could finish his words, a gust of wind suddenly sounded in his ears, and then he felt a huge force on his cheek, causing him to lose his balance on his feet, let out a scream, and suddenly fell to the ground with a "thud". land.
Huge pain came from the right side of his face. Guo Huai's eyes were filled with stars and he was dizzy. He wanted to shout, question, or get angry, but before that, He Tianran's words brought him back -
"Guo Huai, you said how much you like Ai Qing, how much you love him, but in the end you resort to such crooked ways? Is this love!! Do you want to hurt her, or do you want to love her?! Wake up, Guo Huai! !
The gap between your inferiority complex and your own self-esteem is the biggest obstacle that prevents you from loving someone, not the Senior Shen who appears now! "
(End of chapter)
