Just like what the Bodhisattva said in his dream.
In fact, Cao Aiqing already knew the answers to some questions, but only when He Tianran said it himself could everything be settled.
Now, Cao Aiqing finally got the answer she wanted, and she was not as sad as she imagined.
Because He Tianran still chose to be honest with her, he did not go against his own heart, let alone lie to himself.
Cao Aiqing's eyes crossed the calm lake, staring at something unconsciously. He Tianran looked at those eyes and couldn't guess what she was thinking.
Then, the girl murmured and asked:
"Tianran, tell me...why is this?"
"...It's because the order of appearances in life is wrong." He Tianran endured the pain in his heart and hit the nail on the head: "Ai Qing, if I fell in love with you first, then if Wen Liang asked me this question today, I would answer the same way. ."
"What if I could do it all over again?"
"What?"
Cao Aiqing slowly took out the string of Buddhist beads, with a slightly tired look on his face.
He Tianran's heart tightened. He stared at the string of Buddhist beads, his expression changing from uneasy and entangled to calm and stable.
He was struggling in his heart. After experiencing two time travels, He Tianran knew that their lives might have more opportunities to start over than ordinary people. This was certainly something that others dreamed of and longed for.
However, every thought and every action after time travel will continue to create new problems. Just like the string of Buddhist beads, although the meaning is perfect, each of them also constitutes the greed, anger, ignorance, and pride of the world. , Doubts and troubles.
He didn't want Cao Aiqing to use the power of this string of Buddhist beads. He finally got a clue about the so-called "reincarnation". He didn't want to waste all his previous efforts, and he didn't want Cao Aiqing to make the same mistakes he made. But it was just like that. He was also the least qualified. The person who went to dissuade Cao Aiqing.
I can let September come back again because of the warmth and coolness, so why can't Cao Aiqing?
He Tianran hesitated to speak, but finally regained his composure. He was waiting for Cao Aiqing to speak again, just like a prisoner on trial, waiting for the moment when the gavel came down.
"Tranquility, do you know much about the future me?"
Suddenly, He Tianran heard the girl ask this unexpectedly.
"She had a... very bad life."
"What do you think of me?"
He Tianran felt like a lump in his throat, speechless.
Cao Aiqing continued to ask: "Tranquility, did you ever use it when we were not together?"
He Tianran shook his head and said decisively, "No."
"I knew it, otherwise you wouldn't have let me face Xia Qiao's coercion alone."
"Of course I won't!"
After the man said this, he was stunned for a moment.
He suddenly thought that in fact, that time, Cao Aiqing did not need Guo Huai's or his own help at all, because she had the courage to risk everything.
Instead, one of them became a burden for her future, and became helpless out of gratitude; while the other protected her under his wings, but always covered up her own dazzling brilliance.
Cao Aiqing stared at the beads in his hand and smiled gently:
"Naturally, you are actually wrong. The order of appearances between Wen Liang and I is correct.
If I really go back, I may not be able to do the things Wenliang did for you. At this point, I am not as good as her...
If I really replace her position in your heart, even if I still love you, I may lead you to another path. By then, you may not discover your talent in art, nor I won’t be able to do what I really want to do as I do now.
And in that case, wouldn’t it be considered too early for us to meet?
I met Guo Huai just now. He was worried about changing his major. He said that he envied us because we are the kind of people who are independent and have plans for the future.
I think that for you, this impression must be due to Wenliang! I am really lucky to meet such a person like you...
By the way, do you remember the correction fluid we use when we make a typo in our homework? "
He Tianran listened to her words with mixed feelings in his heart. He recalled:
"Of course I remember. At that time, we, Bai Tingting and Xue Yong, often studied together. At that time, you praised me for my good composition and asked me to explain the techniques to you. Hey, whenever I brag to you about this When I was gifted, you looked at me with admiration. In the end, I felt a little swollen...
In fact, I also envy you. You write very well and never make typos. You said that a bottle of correction fluid can be used for three years. But when it comes to me, it can’t last for three months. I have to use it all. It's over. "
Cao Aiqing stood up with his hands behind his back and turned to look at the lake:
"Do you know why you used it so fast?"
"Why?"
The girl glanced at him, raised the corners of her mouth, and said reproachfully:
"You, you always like to write wrong words, and you don't check them. Sometimes you don't know the difference between the word and the word. When I first told you, you like to state what you want to say when writing, and you still say it in an old-fashioned way. What, the wording is wrong, the writing is good, that’s enough.
But the teacher doesn’t think so. The paper points that should be deducted will still be deducted. The details of 60 points for essay, 55 points and 58 points are here.
I told you that you didn't listen, which made me angry, so I had to change my strategy and just praise you. I changed your sentence with typos into your sentence. You wrote so well. I didn't expect you to do this. , showing off that you discovered some mistakes and could write better, and then used my correction fluid to correct them. Unexpectedly, this time, the paper points were deducted even more, and I regretted it to death... "
He Tianran laughed as he listened to his girlfriend's memories, but as he smiled, he felt that this was not a good feeling.
Cao Aiqing was also smiling, but her smile at the moment made He Tianran feel a hundred times more uncomfortable than seeing her cry.
After the girl finished speaking, she looked away. She turned around, stretched out her hand, opened her palm to reveal the Buddhist beads, and said softly with the autumn wind of Pinghu in her voice:
"Naturally, you know, this thing is like a correction fluid in our lives. We all want to correct those typos one by one...
But...I'm not you...I'm not Wenliang...I can't brew some soul-stirring and unforgettable sentences based on the original...I can only write according to my own ideas...It's time How many points is it, how many points it is...
Naturally, during the time we spent together, I wrote seriously and happily. What I wrote was also written with sincerity and God's will...
I don't know how to use this correction fluid, and I can't use it. Maybe I'm stupid, or maybe I'm stubborn, just because until now, I firmly believe that there will be no mistakes in my youth with you! "
After saying that, Cao Aiqing turned around without any nostalgia. She raised her hand, and under He Tianran's shocked eyes, she resolutely threw the string of treasures in her hand that countless people could not pray for in their dreams, like a broken rope, into the lake. Heart!
If you could start your life over again, would it be better?
The girl's answer is that she already has the best, even if she has ever had it.
She didn't need any better.
Just like when she cut off her long hair, now she once again made a desperate decision and chose to save herself.
Extraordinary Buddha beads entered the water, and lotuses bloomed in the ordinary world.
There were still tears in the corners of Cao Aiqing's eyes, but there was a smile on his face and he said slowly:
"Natural, thank you..."
He Tianran staggered to his feet, staring blankly at the circles of ripples in the middle of the water, and then at the girl beside him. His heart was cut with a knife, and he was ashamed...
The girl by the lake walked up to the helpless boy, slowly put her head on his chest, and once again hugged He Tianran, whom she still admired, with both hands.
She whispered: "Let's break up."
In the lake, the reflection of their embrace became fragmented with the sparkling waves.
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." He Tianran opened his mouth, his chin trembled, and wanted to say a lot, but at this moment, all the thousands of words were turned into three words that were repeated over and over again through his gradually hoarse and obscure voice: " sorry Sorry sorry……"
His hands hugged the girl tightly, as if he could hold the last flashback of their love. Tears finally burst out of his eyes, and fell in big drops on the girl's shoulders...
He finally cried.
It's just that girls now don't need tears anymore.
"He Tianran...you have to be in as much pain as me...to be considered an apology..."
A word that sounded like a sigh or babble reached He Tianran's ears. Those "I'm sorry" that he kept repeating came to an abrupt end and he was defeated.
Cao Aiqing put down her arms, gently pushed the boy away, took two steps back, and took a deep look at him.
Finally, with a face as determined as when he discarded the beads, he turned around and left.
That delicate and independent back figure just drifted away until it disappeared within the range of He Tianran's eyes.
He stood there for a long time.
The sun in the distance had only a little bit of its afterglow left.
The man fell back on the stone bench and looked at the afterglow, but the setting sun had already lost its temperature.
He unconsciously fumbled for a shriveled cigarette case from his pocket, and struggled to pour out the only crumpled cigarette. He flattened his fingers and put it in his mouth, lit the fire, and took a deep breath. His body felt like it was being smoked. As if his strength had gone, he slowly collapsed on the stone bench. He raised his head feebly and sprayed out a cloud of white mist.
Then, with moist eyes, he watched the fog dissipate bit by bit before his eyes.
(End of chapter)
