"Love is not simple, but it is not everything in life."
Orange Cat Bodhisattva said so.
The starlight at night shed a sadness, and at the same time as He Tianran sighed in her bedroom, in Cao Aiqing's dream, she once again saw her "Bodhisattva".
Ever since she went to Chuanling Temple to fulfill her vows during the summer vacation, Cao Aiqing would occasionally dream about the orange cat at home. At first, the little girl didn't take it to heart. After all, she had had the cat for nine years, from elementary school to high school. "Bodhisattva" has always been her closest companion. Now that she is going to college, she is suddenly separated. It is normal for her to think about her every day and to dream about her at night.
But as the words spoken by the cat in the dream became more and more real, Cao Aiqing gradually realized that something was wrong...
Especially what happened today.
"Love is not simple, but Ai Qing is very simple..."
Cao Aiqing, a letter girl, replied like this.
It was raining lightly in her dream. The little girl was squatting in a corner, half-burying her face under her knees. She showed her eyes helplessly, just like she was hiding under the eaves last year, waiting for someone to come to her. .
Only this time, can anyone find her?
The orange cat lay at her feet, its tail swept back and forth twice. It raised its head slightly, and her eighteen-year-old face was reflected in the cat's eyes.
What kind of melancholy makes a young girl cry even in her dreams?
"It's not good to cry too much. The more you cry, the less valuable your tears are. In this way, others may comfort you on the surface, but in their hearts they will still feel that you are pretending and being very pretentious."
The orange cat said calmly.
Cao Aiqing listened. She quickly wiped away her tears with her sleeves, but her eyes soon became moist again. She asked innocently:
"Will you cry too?"
"Won't."
The cat answered succinctly.
"You are also lying..."
What Cao Aiqing originally wanted to say was, can cats also cry? She has actually experienced her own cat crying. Although she doesn’t know why, she is sure that cats shed tears.
But this cat once told her that it was her future self, so when the words came to her lips, Cao Aiqing changed her words and replaced "cat" with "you". Since she can cry, then this "Bodhisattva" in the dream , I must have shed tears...
Cao Aiqing felt even more sad when she thought that she would lie to herself in the future.
"Since you already know the answer to some things, will it change if you ask? No, it will only make you more sad."
The orange cat hit the nail on the head.
Cao Aiqing buried his head, "Then I will definitely not have a good life in the future..."
She spoke in a hushed tone, but her words hit the mark.
The crybaby doesn't like to cry anymore, and Cao Aiqing, who is sensitive, knows what this means.
For a moment, both the man and the cat were silent.
After a while, the little girl sniffed and asked, "Why don't you ever tell me about the future?"
The cat lowered his head, leaned down, and said slowly:
"After the future Cao Aiqing graduates from the University of Hong Kong, she will continue her studies at the Tritt School of Architecture in London. Her favorite architect Tadao Ando also gave her lessons. Although it was only a few hours, it was enough for her to The aftertaste is intoxicating for a long time.
Those years abroad were her happiest time, because no one knew her, and she didn't have to go out of her way to get to know anyone.
After returning to China, in order not to be called a vase, she drew pictures and worked on projects. She worked as a coordinator and a marketer. Although these were very hard, she also enjoyed it. After all, in her paranoid life creed, dreams always come first..."
"Then...did we realize our dream in the end?" Cao Aiqing asked softly, but before the orange cat could say anything, the little girl already regretted asking this question. She said: "Don't say it, I'm afraid if you say it No more motivation..."
The orange cat shook its tail and really stopped talking.
"But...I never thought about going abroad..."
"There will always come a day when your abilities will hit a bottleneck, and you will naturally want to make a breakthrough."
"But why... why would you say that if no one knows me, I will be happy? I don't hate social interaction."
"Because you prefer peace and quiet to socializing."
The girl couldn't help but ask, "What about Tianran? What about him? Will he miss me? Will he... still be with me in the future?"
Cat was quite critical of her question, "Didn't I tell you that if you know the answer, you have to ask it again. It will only make you more sad. Stop imagining it! Everything that happened today was not a dream. He Tianran had someone else in his heart. , he can't let go of Wen Liang, I gave him a chance, but this pair of idiots and resentful women want to commit evil, so why don't you just let them fend for themselves?"
"..."
These straightforward words completely shattered Cao Aiqing's luck. She didn't know how to face this situation. She even said that she never thought that this kind of thing would happen to her.
"You seem to be... all talking about dreams, so what about my life? Will I get married in the future? What kind of person is the other person?"
"...He is a person who loves you very much."
"Really? That's...very good..."
Cao Aiqing murmured to himself that if his future partner loves him very much, then he should be very happy.
This answer allowed her to find a little satisfaction in her depression. If someone loves her very much, then she will also love him very much, right? After all, He Tianran often talked about caring about each other. The boy taught himself that love is never a one-sided effort, it is mutual. Two people can firmly enter the palace of marriage and spend the rest of their lives together. In the little girl's understanding , which is more like a proof of inner determination.
Just like with dreams, Cao Aiqing also paranoidly believes that this is what love should be like.
Therefore, this kind of spiritual fit made her so happy when she was with He Tianran.
But now, she still can't accept it for the time being. The person who will follow her in the future is not He Tianran.
The reason why first love is beautiful is that it entrusts countless ignorant wishes in youth, and the reason why reality is cruel is because in front of it, these wishes are like the bubble wrap played in childhood. It will "pop" one after another. Press down one by one, and never tire of it.
This all happened so suddenly. How come it only took more than half a month for everything to change?
Obviously before the military training, she and He Tianran were both fine. They had planned many things, and among these plans, they were the only two...
The girl's body began to tremble slightly. She first thought about whether she had done something wrong. Was she usually too weak, which made her boyfriend feel tired?
But it was because of love that she relied on him with all her heart...
Cao Aiqing was really sad.
The rain in the dream was getting heavier and heavier, hitting the ground with patter, like a kind of choking.
However, no matter how sad this girl is, her kindness from the heart, her delicate and sensitive nature still urges her to say this sentence about everything that happened today:
"You shouldn't test humanity...this...isn't right..."
The cat's tail stood up immediately, as if someone had stepped on it, and it said angrily:
"Is it right to wait until he cheats on you in the future, wait until nothing can be undone, wait until you are bruised and disheartened by him?"
Cao Aiqing shook his head in a low voice, hesitating with stubbornness, and said softly:
"It's not like this... This is different... I just simply think... it's wrong for you to test a person like this."
Regarding the girl's familiar paranoia, the orange cat quickly calmed down. After a few breaths, it asked in a different way:
"Okay, let me ask you, if I don't test He Tianran, but he will fall in love with someone else in the future, and the problem is not you, will you still be with him?"
This question made Cao Aiqing fall into deep thought again, but this time the answer came quickly and decisively.
"I won't."
(End of chapter)
