Wen Liang stood under the moonlight, his smile swaying in the evening breeze. He Tianran's heart rang with a bang. He turned his head silently and stopped looking. He didn't know whether it was true disappointment or fear that a prairie fire would ignite again in his heart.
Even if Wen Liang wants to cry, she won't cry, and she won't kidnap He Tianran's sympathy.
If they now use the soft side of human nature to gain feelings again, then what is the difference between them and them before reincarnation?
Deception and charity, as long as they are contaminated in love, will become stains.
Some people don't take it seriously, and even make a living from it. They regard the four words "it's rare to be confused" as their standard, and feel that they are comfortable and can live a good life without being dirty.
And Wen Liang is someone who has been here before. She once fell and rolled in the world of mortals. She was covered in mud and was pulled by someone. So in this life, she wants to be more decent. This is the biggest thing for He Tianran. respect.
"Naturally, since our lives can come back, then we shouldn't repeat the same mistakes again. You know, I don't like to see you like this..."
Wen Liang finally found herself as she said.
She couldn't bear to harm He Tianran and violate her true feelings. When it came to love, she didn't need the other person's kindness.
He Tianran said that he would not retreat this time, but is this enough?
If you don't want to take this step in the first place, then what's the point of me stepping forward?
"I'm so brave, it shouldn't be me who should be sorry..."
There was still a gentle smile on her face. She stubbornly retained the last bit of dignity in her heart and spoke slowly.
If you make me cry, I won’t cry.
If you ask me to step forward, I will not step forward.
Now it's your turn, He Tianran.
Wen Liang raised his face proudly, his eyes full of tears and his smile bright at the same time.
If you take a step towards me, then I will put aside all my worries and run towards you.
If you want to stay where you are, then I will be truly open-minded for once, and we will not owe each other anything.
The two of them just looked at each other from a distance of ten meters, and no one could tell whether they were waiting for the other to come forward, or whether they were waiting for the other to give up.
It seems that they have lost their courage at this time and have to be the bravest one.
In the night, Wen Liang's eyes flickered like stars. It was the uneasiness of secretly doing bad things and the expectation of breaking the barrier between the two repeatedly intertwined. It was the stubborn determination to turn around and end everything.
It is true that in the eyes of the world, she is not worthy of pity.
But, she is cute.
She was someone who was willing to bury her youth together for the sake of love.
To He Tianran, her eyes were like wildfire on the meadow. One look at her made her heart burn with fire every second.
He Tianran lowered his eyes, clenched his fists, and moved his lips silently, as if silently shouting to the young man in his heart:
"What are you hesitating about? Even if you don't want to, you can't even take a step forward now?!"
"If you don't move, she will really leave this time! The person you have been looking for, the person you love, she will really leave!"
"You coward! Coward! No matter how many times you do it again, you haven't changed at all!!"
He Tianran cursed the other self in his heart crazily. His body began to tremble little by little, and his legs seemed to have been filled with mercury, and he did not dare to move even half a inch.
"At the end of the story, did you kill the six-eared macaque?"
Finally, a long response from deep in his heart instantly made He Tianran lose his mind...
This was the echo after he sighed in the pavilion when he faced the warmth and coolness, the disappearance of the young man himself, and the reincarnation he was about to fall into.
"You...you have remembered it? Come out, I will give my body to you, she is right in front of you, go over there!"
"Why must 'I' face her?"
In an instant, the young man seemed to have changed into a different one. He Tianran slowly bent down, his hands supporting his trembling knees, and cold sweat pouring down his forehead.
"You're blocking me...I...can't move..."
"I didn't hinder you, you were just afraid."
"you are lying……"
"You are lying to yourself."
"What am I afraid of?!!!!!!"
He Tianran bowed and asked himself, his eyes widened, and he roared out. But in fact, the answer... had been settling in his heart for a long time.
For the young He Tianran, the life he is currently experiencing is undoubtedly "sad and happy". Wen Liang accepted him. Although the two could not be together in the end, it was such a regretful baptism that made him break. The cocoon becomes a butterfly, ushering in a new life.
So, what happens after this new life?
It was "joyful yet sad". He traveled through time and space, made up for that regret, and gave Wenliang a complete cause and effect. But what about him? This time the butterfly became an ugly moth chasing the fire. He chose to start over and forgot everything. Wen Liang's rejection left him covered in wounds. When he remembered everything, his love with Wen Liang also became a flower. The flower of evil that grows in mud and dirt.
Moths chase light, but are born in darkness.
Wenliang is the fire of He Tianran.
The repeated reversal of sadness and joy runs through He Tianran's entire life. He is naturally close to Wen Liang, but he no longer dares to embrace Wen Liang like a moth, even now he has become a ball of flame. .
The memory of this moth flying into a flame was like a mantra that gave him a splitting headache. Even though the tight grip was no longer tight, it still made him complain incessantly.
However, this He Tianran had long since lost the courage he had when he was young, even though he knew the outcome would be like this, but still wanted to break through the south wall, so he watched Wen Liang find relief from the gloom seventy-two times, and saw the fire in her eyes extinguished. , saw her turn and walk away.
Wen Liang got rid of reincarnation, but what about his?
Even now, all he can think of and do is to leave his lover's qualifications to his youth.
This is his, phase.
Warmth and coolness are He Tianran's tight grip.
Therefore, he is afraid.
The sadness shown by He Tianran in front of her made Wen Liang, who seemed familiar with this scene, a little intolerable. After all, she couldn't help but speak out and said something that she knew she was asking:
"Of course...who are you talking to?"
Who am I talking to?
He Tianran was dazed for a moment. He couldn't help but think back. Although his memories were different, were there really two different souls in his body, the so-called "young man" and the "young man"?
Human beings are complex animals, and the temptations of human nature are numerous and critical. It is not possible to rely on just one belief to carry it through.
In fact, when Cao Aiqing took out the string of Buddhist beads, something called "desire" was already aroused in He Tianran's heart. Those tempting thoughts, instigations, and pathos were all his real thoughts. Now, I want to do it, but I can’t.
He likes warmth and coolness, so a part of his heart tells him, "You should do this. This is undesirable."
He was loyal to Ai Qing, so a heart in his heart told him, you can't cross the line, this is long-term love.
With a thousand people on one side and two hearts competing, the string of beads is just the key to reincarnation, and it only gives him a chance to talk to himself. So even if the string of beads is gone now, in the face of the hurdle where he can choose the future again, he will gradually... In his awakening memory, there would naturally be two voices lingering in his ears, one ebbing and the other ebbing.
Now, take a step forward and accept all of yourself.
Or, take a step back and become a new you.
Therefore, Wen Liang's knowing question became a wake-up call. He Tianran was like an enlightenment, and all the sounds in his heart suddenly stopped.
No matter how he chooses, he is still He Tianran.
He Tianran thought of the Buddha's cry in the future tense, "Know sentient beings in the impermanent place, and know all living beings in the sentient place." The old monk asked him which period he was in. Now that He Tianran saw the warmth and coolness in front of him, he felt, He should be at this point.
Then, he remembered the two words the old monk sent to him in the past tense——
Move!
Scenes of life flew through He Tianran's mind in a chaotic manner, including the sunset outside the classroom window, the fifteenth moon, and even the sun in the water on the roadside after the rain cleared.
In his ears, there seemed to be a whistle coming from the sea, interrupting his memories.
He turned slightly and looked sideways. Under the silver moonlight, on the gentle sea, a train was slowly moving between the sea and the sky. Whales were swimming under the starry sky, and the whistle was accompanied by the whale's call, which was ethereal and sentimental.
Knowing that this magnificent scene was just a figment of his imagination, the young man did not dare to rub his eyes for fear of wiping away the long-lost brilliance in his heart.
He has thoughts far away.
Do you have to go to the snowy mountains?
Perhaps, what is persistent is not the snow-capped mountains, but the foot of the snow-capped mountains, the wind in the wilderness, the miscellaneous peanut trees, and the flying orioles and grass growing.
A young man can be a fish in the lake, a grass at the foot of the mountain, or a flower on the tree, but he does not want to be himself standing still.
So, he withdrew his gaze and looked at the only reality in front of him, his eyes becoming clear and firm.
He took a step forward, as if he had crossed the mountains and seas in time and came to Wen Liang.
He slowly held the warmth that had shed tears without realizing it into his arms.
The girl was in his arms, sobbing softly: "I'm making a mistake..."
He Tianran responded gently: "It was us who made the mistake."
Wen Liang raised her head. She thought it was a child who had done something wrong. After snatching someone else's beloved thing, she looked uneasy and cowardly:
"Don't blame me..."
"Do not blame you."
He Tianran gently stroked her head and said softly: "I'm just weird... why every time we meet again... I fall in love with you as if I'm stuck in an endless loop..."
The two hugged each other tightly again.
He Tianran knew that the relationship between him and Wen Liang was destined to be on this wrong road, never to return, and unable to turn back.
Maybe, reincarnations are not over, they are just beginning.
Just like that sentence——
No one is unjust, and all sentient beings are guilty.
But, so what?
This world is bustling, and few people polish their souls.
So among all living beings, girls only love nature.
It doesn't matter if he behaves politely and is beautiful inside, and it's hard to distinguish between pure and dirty. Although he lost his luster when he walked in a sea of people, she only loved that dim light.
I have finished writing this chapter. Although this chapter is not many words, only 3,000 words, it has been revised many times. I write 500 words and delete 300 words every day. I don’t know if you like it or not, but this is indeed what I want. This is something I have done in the last dozen or so photos. I will be more restrained in the future, and I probably won’t be so willful.
By the way, the book has been signed and is now on the shelves. It’s a good thing. I will write a chapter of my thoughts later. Thank you all!
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