Wen Liang suddenly felt a little aggrieved, a very big grievance.
She has been holding back many emotions in her heart over the past year and wants to talk to someone, but perhaps no one in this world can really understand her.
However, the grievance was great, and she did not feel bitter.
If He Tianran hadn't suddenly mentioned it, she would have almost forgotten this feeling during this year.
The cause and effect of the past life will return in this life, and if we owe each other, we will meet again. If it is long, it will last the rest of our lives, if it is short, it will be short-lived. In this life, a person always has to face it a few times before it is complete.
"Can you tell me something? About you, about me, in the past and in the future."
He Tianran put down his hand and said gently.
"I don't know where to start..."
Wen Liang was a little at a loss.
"Just say whatever comes to your mind. Even if it's nonsense, I'll listen to it."
After listening to his words, the girl calmed down unconsciously. She showed a look of reminiscing as she thought about it. At this moment, the moonlight shone on her face, both in the sky and in front of her eyes, looking extremely bright.
"I didn't quite understand why 'I' fell in love with you..."
Wen Liang spoke softly and thought while saying:
"You are really weird and vindictive. That prank on the new year was definitely my fault. I didn't know it would hurt you so much. It's right for you to hold a grudge against me. Later, your help in my career made me I feel guilty, and this help is based on the premise that you hurt yourself, so I have to feel close and compassionate towards you, but I feel that these feelings...should not belong to the category of love."
He Tianran listened calmly and asked, "Is this the reason why you have never accepted another self?"
Wen Liang nodded, "Yes, think about it, what kind of girl am I, Wen Liang? I used to imagine that my partner should be an outstanding boy who is cheerful and sunny, handsome in appearance and funny. I hope that he will be proactive in everything." , it is best to be like my dad, act resolutely, be decisive, have a sense of responsibility, and not be too procrastinating and coy.
what about you? Before September last year, He Tianran was the opposite of what I mean. He was withdrawn and weird. Sometimes even girls would hesitate for a long time when talking to you. To be honest, I can’t say I hate you, but I really despise you. Upper eyes. "
He Tianran covered his chest, pretending to be sad, and said: "Wow, what you said makes me so sad. Is there a twist later? For example, your next sentence will start with 'but' or something like that. "
"No!"
Wen Liang shook his head decisively.
He Tianran was speechless.
Wen Liang continued: "Later, another me appeared, and I also saw the clumsy and sensitive, curious and sober He Tianran in September. Do you know what I hate most about you? It's those people who 'as long as there are no expectations' , I had this little thought that I would be immune to all poisons. At that time, I thought to myself that you are really boring. How can there be any fun in such a life?
But there is no way. The other me seems to like this kind of you very much. You seem to be a blank piece of paper in her eyes. It seems that she is waiting for someone who loves you to add a few strokes to you and draw out some pleasing pictures. Pattern comes.
I can feel the sincere and indescribable joy in my heart every time I see your changes, but as I said, when I have this memory of the future, I still can’t figure out why. 'I' will love you so much.
If what I just said was Wen Liang's longing for the other half in love when he was seventeen, then when I was thirty, my standards should be higher...
I can see clearly all your methods. You have created my career. I have many ways to repay you and repay you, but it should not be love..."
He Tianran looked at her quietly, "But you finally accepted this memory. When did you figure it out?"
Wen Liang frowned, imitated He Tianran's posture, put his hands behind his back, and said with a smile:
"When you tell me soberly that you want me to be myself, when you meet the conditions I mentioned little by little, and even better, when you appear in the future in your best appearance... . It took me nearly half a year to digest and realize all these bits and pieces. It turns out that those actions in the name of love in the future cannot be measured by the word 'love' in a narrow sense.
You have lived such a bad life, and I am your original sin. Materialistic compensation cannot buy back your youth, but no one can force me to like another person, including you.
do i love you? I love you because I want to love you. I am willing to use my love to pull you up again after you have been pushed down the abyss with my own hands.
And you are my everything?
no.
I believe that even without your help, I will still choose to act. It may be in an unknown drama troupe, or it may be on a stage with few audiences. I will definitely find someone who I like enough and who is good enough. Love my man, then we will get married, have children, trust each other for the rest of our lives, and grow old together.
But in the future, I heard another story. You and Ai Qing were just like what was written in your book. The day you disappeared was the day you got married.
The story should be very complete here.
Just to be honest, I really couldn't let go at that time, not because you got together with someone else, but because it was a matter between you and me. This was my own knot, so it wasn't just for you, I gave up. It's for my own sake, I should solve it myself.
The reason why I can enter reincarnation with a clear conscience is actually to add a touch of color to the darkest part of our lives. If we can fall in love, then we should be the happiest couple in the world.
However, for the young 'me', as you said, the tragedy has not continued, so I should have a new story of my own.
So, I slowly accepted everything about myself and this memory.
In the end, I became the unwritten part of you, and I finally understood why the young you said that you loved me thirteen years ago, because we have long become each other's 'cause and consequence' .
Now, I remember to love you, but you don't belong to me, and that's okay.
We don’t have to be together. Although I’m still very sorry, seeing you getting better and better, I know that what I want to do most and what I can’t let go of the most are almost coming to fruition..."
Wen Liang spoke carefully, speaking out as much as she thought about it. Between these words, her every move and smile revealed the long-lost confidence and charm.
She seemed to have poured out everything she wanted to say, and He Tianran listened intently. He was silent in his heart, not daring to miss a word.
"Naturally, thank you for listening to me."
Wen Liang stood up and patted the gravel on her body. She was very happy after her mood was expressed. She lowered her head and said to He Tianran:
"now you!"
"What's my turn?"
"Um--"
Wen Liang squinted his eyes and said:
"I know that you won't appear suddenly."
"Hey..." He Tianran sneered and said, "I don't have any problem..."
As he spoke, he tapped his heart.
"Mainly, something went wrong here."
Wen Liang asked in confusion: "What do you mean?"
He Tianran smacked his lips and said, "Tsk, that's how I feel. It feels like what I said to you last year has no meaning anymore."
"It makes sense. How could it be meaningless? I remember it so well! If it weren't for what you said, I might still be confused for a long time."
He Tianran scratched his head: "Really? But I feel that you didn't deliberately distinguish the relationship between you now and the you in the future. This made me very confused, thinking that you two are the same person."
Wen Liang stared at him narrowly and raised a finger: "There has always been only one He Tianran...that's what you said."
"Really? Ah~ I'm not sure." The boy pretended to be confused.
Then, the girl raised another finger: "But, there are indeed two Wenliangs, or in other words, every girl has two sides."
"I don't understand. I hate the Riddler the most. He talks nonsense and is self-righteous." He Tianran said it loudly on purpose.
Wen Liang's eyes widened, thinking that he was ridiculing her, and said dissatisfiedly: "Are you pretending to be stupid on purpose? A girl must be two people when she loves you and doesn't love you!
(End of chapter)
