The first cigarette he smoked after his rebirth was actually tasteless, and Zhou Yan even wanted to throw it away for a while. Well.
How could I like to smoke this kind of thing in my previous life? It’s also very choking. But should I say it or not, this cigarette has achieved its purpose, and it can be considered the end of its life.
The senior sister has already walked in front of him. Because he is squatting, if he looks straight, he can only see her two slender and well-proportioned legs.
Perhaps because of the dim light, the pair of beautiful legs wrapped in white knee-high socks seemed to have no flaws, and the curves were quite attractive.
Of course, Zhou Yan couldn't keep staring at Zhou Wan's legs. Now he plays the role of a frustrated young man who is ignored by his favorite senior. Although his acting skills are not perfect, the melancholy that spreads from his bones to his eyes is also sincere.
Zhou Yan looked up and saw that his senior sister had been looking at him. Many things can be read in the eyes, such as disappointment, self-blame, regret, blame... these things together should be called concern.
"If you're in a bad mood, just smoke." Zhou Yan simply broke the jar and said nonchalantly. Originally, Zhou Wan didn't chase after him. He might have been more melancholy, thinking that the two of them would not really break up or something. It was strange that a man in his thirties would still worry about such a thing. It was his first time to deal with it. The junior high school girl felt unconfident, but now that Zhou Wan has followed, Zhou Yan naturally has to operate it well.
Learn about emotional charges.
"Mood..." Zhou Wan felt that Zhou Yan's tone was a bit unfamiliar, as if he was talking to a stranger.
No, speaking to strangers is polite and courteous, but Zhou Yan's indifferent look now is simply treating her as an unrelated person.
A sense of loss spread in her heart, and this unfamiliar attitude made her a little at a loss.
"Smoking is bad." Zhou Wan said subconsciously. Zhou Yan had already thrown away his cigarette butt, stood up and patted his butt without saying anything.
Zhou Wan pursed her lips. She felt uncomfortable being ignored. She couldn't help but said, "Zhou Yan, please speak."
"Well, it feels like it's not interesting, and it's even less interesting after smoking." Zhou Yan said with a smile.
It was strange. Zhou Yan was obviously saying that smoking was boring, and she could breathe a sigh of relief. However, hearing what he said, Zhou Wan felt like he was saying that she and he were boring.
But it's obvious that the two people have nothing to do with each other.
"Then don't smoke next time." Zhou Wan didn't know what to say, so she just whispered.
"Don't you have something else to do, Sister Wan? You can leave first and let me be quiet here." Zhou Yan said in a low voice.
Zhou Wan was silent. Compared to Zhou Yan's attitude, work matters didn't seem to be too important. But it was obviously what she expected.
The two of you should keep your distance and just focus on work matters. But now, she feels that this is really childish and innocent.
She thought about leaving and leaving Zhou Yan here, but if she did this today, how would she face Zhou Yan tomorrow?
She didn't think about it, and she didn't want to think about it. This was the first time Zhou Yan saw Zhou Wan looking hesitant and lost. Originally, the senior sister was supposed to be confident, generous and gentle, but now she rarely showed the attitude of a little woman.
Emotions triumph over reason. This feeling is amazing. Especially when facing Zhou Wan.
"It's getting late, let's go back and rest." Zhou Yan said.
"Let's make it clear first." Zhou Wan said subconsciously.
"Is there anything to explain?" Zhou Yan asked.
"Sister Wan, we are all adults, don't act like children." Zhou Wan was stunned for a moment and retorted: "You are the child." It seemed that the atmosphere between the two people had eased, Zhou Wan felt in her heart The tight strings also relaxed slightly.
"Whatever Sister Wan wants to tell me, just say it directly." Zhou Yan said.
"We...we..." Zhou Wan was a little embarrassed. She really didn't know what to say. She had nothing to say, but she cared about it very much. When it was time to say something, she was very confused about what to say. Same.
"How about going to that place?" Zhou Yan asked.
"Where?"
"The place behind the entrepreneurial base." Zhou Yan might as well go into more detail. Zhou Wan immediately understood what Zhou Yan was talking about.
Grove. That was the place where she and Zhou Yan had a heart-to-heart talk. It was also the first time that Zhou Yan called her Xiaowan, and she called Zhou Yan Xiaoyan.
Zhou Yan even asked her if she wanted to be his sister, but she didn't agree.
"But now..." Zhou Wan didn't say the word 'night', so she rarely said: "Okay." Maybe it could ease the relationship between the two.
It's really not something she wants to see develop like this. Zhou Wan agreed, but Zhou Yan was still a little surprised.
After all, would you go into the woods with him at night? Um? Of course he tried to act as natural as possible.
"Then let's go." Zhou Yan said. The teacher's sister hummed softly. ....The first time I came here was in the afternoon, and it was beautiful when the sun was setting.
The creek is gurgling and the willow trees are leaning against each other, making it rare to be secluded. It's almost evening now, and there are far fewer couples in the woods.
Of course... there are. The occasional light emerging among the trees said it all. The woods don't look a little spooky and dark at night. Maybe it's because of the street lights on the edge of the woods. The bright yellow lights add a bit of warmth to the woods on winter nights.
Zhou Yan and Zhou Wan were speechless all the way, maybe it was not time to speak. The two people walked side by side into the woods.
This time, I did not enter through the entrance of the entrepreneurial base, but borrowed a path on the bank of Runxin Lake.
The night was dim, and as it got deeper and deeper, the passionate young couple could no longer be seen. Running water bites in the winter. It was the sweet sound of a stream flowing over pebbles.
On the stone bridge is a separate and open piece of sky, with few stars and bright moon. This is the small world that Zhou Yan and Zhou Wan spent together, and it may have special meaning to both of them.
"We had a good relationship at that time." Zhou Yan said to the senior sister next to him. Zhou Wan nodded gently, her eyes attracted by the sky that was not obscured by the woods.
The clean and clear night sky can always arouse girls' expectations for beauty.
"Is it impossible to go back?" Zhou Yan asked.
"What...why can't you go back?" Seeing Zhou Yan's extremely serious look, Zhou Wan asked subconsciously.
"It's our relationship." Zhou Yan said with a smile.
"What does it have to do with it?" the senior sister said with some duplicity.
"Go and sit there." Zhou Yan pointed to the stone platform where the two of them had sat, and after saying that, he took care of that place and sat down.
Zhou Wan was a little hesitant, but after a second or two, she moved forward. She was wearing a knee-length brown skirt and white sneakers, which was not easy to sit on. After gathering the skirt, Zhou Wan adjusted her position and sat down.
The senior's white knee-high socks are very conspicuous in the moonlight. The slender legs wrapped around each other were slightly pressed together, and because they were not yet firmly seated, they were swaying slightly above the stream.
Of course, it is not ruled out that it is a little nervous.
"I remember telling Sister Wan that I would come here to sit when I was in a bad mood," Zhou Yan said. Zhou Wan responded softly, and did not look up at the moonlight again, but lowered her eyes to observe the little hands intertwined for unknown reasons.
"Both of us don't seem to be in a very good mood right now." Zhou Yan added. The senior sister's eyelashes trembled slightly and she didn't speak, which was regarded as her acquiescence.
She didn't know why she agreed to Zhou Yan coming here, but there was no reason. She still felt that this was the place to talk.
"Sister Wan, don't you have anything to say?" Zhou Yan looked at Zhou Wan beside him. At this time, she was quite far away from him, and she felt so damn unfamiliar.
"Don't smoke anymore." Zhou Wan said.
"I think it's boring too." Zhou Yan curled his lips and said. Zhou Wan thought Zhou Yan had agreed, so she supported him and said in a humorous tone: "But this cigarette is a good thing. If you want to smoke, just smoke one and all the worries will be gone." It was obviously the next time. I still want to make excuses.
"Stop smoking, okay?" Zhou Wan didn't know why she cared so much. Zhou Yan didn't make any guarantee or rejection, but said with a smile: "I can smoke if I want." Knowing that Zhou Yan did it on purpose, Zhou Wan rolled her eyes at him.
Suddenly realizing that this was a bit ambiguous, Zhou Wan looked away unnaturally.
"The competition is about to begin." Zhou Yan suddenly said.
"Yeah" Zhou Wan responded. The game is about to begin. Zhou Yan leads the team.
"Actually, I don't want us to only talk about the company or projects." Zhou Yan said. This was a bit of a blunt turn. Zhou Wan was also going to talk about the scanning project, but Zhou Yan didn't mean to talk about it at all.
Don't play by the rules.
"Senior."
"Huh?" This was the first time Zhou Yan called her senior in a strange way. For some reason, Zhou Wan suddenly felt a little afraid of what Zhou Yan would say next.
"The moonlight is so beautiful tonight." Zhou Yan said a little casually. Zhou Wan was stunned for a moment, the breeze caressed her, and her broken hair fluttered in front of her forehead, confusing her vision and heart.
Tonight is a quarter moon, not a full moon, but what really concerns Zhou Wan is not the unclear moon, but what Zhou Yan said.
Did he think he didn't know? The love words that appeared in The Tale of Genji were even excerpted in her diary.
Zhou Wan had never heard anyone say such things in such a way. Is it a misunderstanding? Still... Zhou Wan's heart had never been disturbed, but at this time, it was disturbed by the moonlight that fluttered on the broken leaves.
Whenever I think of the joys and sorrows we spent together in the past, I will shed tears inexplicably because of the passage of time. From now on, everything with you will become a beautiful memory that comforts me throughout my life. In the remaining years of my life, I We will all miss seeing the moon with you tonight.
These are Natsume Soseki's original words in the book. It is also the most romantic love story. Zhou Yan said he didn't care, but it made her feel confused.
So....did he do it on purpose or....don't know. Zhou Wan subconsciously looked at Zhou Yan, only to see that this big boy was really looking at the moon seriously.
on purpose. It must be intentional. Zhou Wan thought firmly in her heart. But no matter how much she pretended to be calm, her face felt a little hot. She pretended to be careless and pushed the fine hair that was blown by the wind behind her ears, and even repeated this action twice before she calmed down a little.
Then just pretend not to know.
"It's beautiful." She raised her eyes slightly, her long eyelashes trembled twice in the night, and said words that were against her will but sincerely.
Zhou Yan actually didn't know whether the senior knew the meaning of this sentence, and he didn't care whether she knew or not. When the atmosphere was up, he just expressed it and that was it.
Just like what he said, everyone is an adult and knows what is appropriate. So what if you know, so what if you don’t know.
Zhou Yan couldn't figure out Zhou Wan's emotions, and he didn't need to figure it out. He just felt that this shouldn't be the case with Zhou Wan.
It was deliberate but also a little embarrassing. The night is very cold, chilling my heart. It was very quiet, so quiet that only the sound of running water and the rustling of leaves could be heard.
It's not pleasant to say, but it can definitely calm those turbulent emotions.
"Sister Wan."
"Um?"
"Am I a little greedy?" Zhou Yan's voice was calm, but it had a different meaning to Zhou Wan.
So does he like himself? Zhou Wan is not an emotional idiot, she just can't think calmly when she encounters this kind of thing.
Zhou Yan held her hand, hugged her, put his pillow on her legs, picked her up while she was sleeping, and even took off her shoes and socks.
It turns out that if I think about it carefully, I have unknowingly taken advantage of this bad boy.
"Then you don't have to be greedy." Zhou Wan said softly. She pretended that she didn't know that Zhou Yan was not confessing his love.
"But I can't do it." Zhou Yan said softly, as if he was asking for help, but also as if he was showing an attitude.
"But some things are just inappropriate if they are not suitable." Zhou Wan did not look at Zhou Yan, and seemed to be talking to herself.
Perhaps this is the best way to alleviate this situation, and no one will point it out.
"But there are some things that don't seem to matter whether they are appropriate or not." Zhou Yan said. Zhou Wan's mood fluctuated for a moment. She pursed her lips and tried not to be too nervous. She said softly:
"Then you are forcing it."
"What kind of compulsion?" Zhou Yan asked.
"There are some things that cannot be forced, and it is impossible for everything to be perfect." Zhou Wan said slightly calmly. Zhou Yan smiled in his heart, he already knew what Zhou Wan was thinking.
The little girl pretended not to understand what he said and was playing Riddler here. But Zhou Yan didn’t point it out. At least now there is a reason to talk, instead of like just now, the two of them obviously have a lot to say but can't find a suitable opportunity.
This feeling is quite subtle.
"But I'm just a little unwilling." Zhou Yan said with a sigh. You are my unwillingness.
Before he finished speaking, Zhou Yan believed that the senior sister could understand.
"I'm not willing to give in..." Zhou Wan's right hand that she was holding tightly trembled slightly. Even she didn't realize that her palm was sweating a lot.
"So what if you don't give in, there is nothing you can do." Zhou Wan said softly, but for a moment she couldn't tell that she was talking about Zhou Yan.
Maybe he's talking about himself, or maybe he's talking about Zhou Yan. This emotion is common. She hid it in her heart, but Zhou Yan deliberately brought it out.
"So you can only watch it slipping away from your eyes, unable to catch it, unable to get it, watching helplessly, and then unwilling to leave it to yourself?" Zhou Yan asked.
"if not."
"But you can obviously catch it from the beginning." Zhou Yan said half-jokingly.
"Then why didn't you catch it at the beginning and regret it later?" Zhou Wan asked softly. She didn't know what kind of state she was in. Maybe it was just an argument, if she gave up all thoughts of testing.
"Because I think it's just a matter of one person. If we catch it, it's two people." Zhou Yan looked at Zhou Wan, his eyes were clear, and he said seriously.
