It is obviously not a pleasant experience to be talked about by a man on such an ambiguous topic of life in the middle of the night.
Even though Kotomine Kirei didn't have any special hobbies, Roland still felt his scalp numb and moved unconsciously.
"Kotomine-kun, what do you mean by this?"
"I want to know the answer."
Faced with Roland's perfunctory attitude, Kotomine Kirei remained straightforward as always.
"After these days of observation, I am convinced, Roland, that you are the person I am looking for."
Although he was not sure at the beginning, after observing these days, Roland's performance was too in line with Kotomine Kirei's taste.
Extreme self-discipline, he obviously has extraordinary abilities but enjoys a peaceful life, as if he has no pursuits. He is obviously his own kind, an anomaly who cannot be satisfied by ordinary people's happiness. So, why can he show so much happiness? What about the relaxed expression?
"I want to know what nature you are seeking and what answer you have found."
The priest in black cassock said solemnly and bowed deeply towards Roland.
"I would give anything for this answer, please, please guide me."
Broken, I became golden.
Roland silently calculated the situation in front of him in his mind. Although he didn't know whether it was the so-called strong luck at work, strictly speaking, Kira Yoshikage and Kotomine Kirei did have many similarities in their natures, but one of them had already accepted it calmly. One's own desires will become perverted due to long-term suppression and go to the other extreme.
"Well, this is not something that cannot be said. However, as you said, Kotomine-kun, I can only give you guidance. Only you know what your nature is."
Kotomine Kirei raised his head in confusion. What he wanted was a more definite answer, not this vague chicken soup.
"However, no matter how hard I practice, fill up all the free time in my life with various studies and work, and pray devoutly every day, the emptiness in my heart still cannot be alleviated."
"That's because you are going in the wrong direction. Self-discipline is of course meaningful. It not only shapes our personality, but also shackles us to control our desires. But in the end, self-discipline is just a means, not the result. It is a way to suppress nature. It’s a painful process.”
Roland asserted that things had gotten out of control a lot anyway, so it would be okay to let Kotomine Kirei get the answer in advance.
"And since these processes are painful, then the nature we pursue naturally brings about the opposite feeling. What do you think this feeling is?"
"Is it...pleasure?"
Kotomine Kirei said the answer in a rather hesitant tone, but with a bit of taboo expectation, just like a primary school student who expected to be praised by the teacher.
"Yes, it is pleasure. Everything that makes us feel happy is what our nature will pursue. No matter what means we use, no matter how sinful the thing we pursue is, human beings will do it for this kind of thing. And keep falling into the abyss.”
Roland subconsciously moved his fingers. While digesting the spirit, the spirit was also changing him. Although he still couldn't accept his fetish for hands, Roland knew that some of his inner concepts had been quietly changed. In other words, released.
"This is something that is not allowed. If you do this, you will not get salvation."
The most secret things in his heart were exposed by Roland, which made Kotomine Kirei immediately spit out words of rejection, but his eyes were like a magnet that was attracted, firmly locked on On Roland's body.
"Of course there is no redemption, but the prerequisite for redemption is that you must be a human being."
Roland's voice was as sweet as a poppy, surrounding Kotomine Kirei's ears, and like a devil's whisper.
"Blindly suppressing your own nature and using pain to deny pleasure is equivalent to your inability to love a complete person, let alone love others. I ask, how can such a incomplete existence be qualified to be redeemed?"
"Even if the pleasure is malicious?"
As if seeking confirmation, Kotomine Kirei's voice became louder, but Roland's tone remained calm.
"Even if this pleasure is malicious, I said it before you learn to love others, fall in love with yourself first."
"After becoming a complete self, even a born evil person is qualified for redemption and happiness. I am the best proof."
"ah……"
Kotomine Kirei agreed with Roland's words and nodded gently. Sadness and joy seeped out of his heart at the same time. This was a feeling that Kotomine Kirei had never felt before in his more than thirty years of life.
He was indeed right, this man would definitely be able to give him the right guidance.
It should be concealed, it should be rejected, but Kotomine Kirei stretched out the hand with the command spell without any scruples, living up to the teachings of his master and father, and seeking Roland's affirmation and support.
"If I'm still confused, can I come back to you?"
"Of course," Roland smiled and stretched out his hand to shake hands with Kotomine Kirei, completing the ceremony of establishing friendship.
"After all, we are friends."
"Friend..." Kotomine Kirei chewed on this word that was very new to him and nodded solemnly.
"Yes, then, farewell, my friend, Roland."
After Kotomine Kirei left again, Roland frowned and thought about an important matter.
"It seems that the guys who get stuck on me for no reason are all scum. Could it be that I'm not a good person either?"
Roland looked shocked. Even with the help of good luck, he could adapt so easily to Yoshikage Kira's spirit and serve as a life mentor to Kirei Kotomine, which seemed to have negated his own integrity.
More than ten days after arriving in Fuyuki City, Roland finally had a certain degree of self-awareness about himself.
"However," Roland walked out from behind the counter and looked at the night outside the window, "Although it is an inevitable result, the time has been advanced a lot. From this point of view, the bloody disaster of Tokiomi Tohsaka is very close."
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It was already late at night, but the lights were still brightly lit in the underground workshop of the Tohsaka family.
"Kirei, has the summoning been completed?"
"Yes, master, I have confirmed that there are currently no surveillance familiars or props near the Tohsaka family."
Kotomine Kirei, who was wearing a black cassock, reported respectfully to the middle-aged man who was wearing a luxurious red suit and looked as elegant as an aristocrat.
"After all, no one would have thought that Assassin would be the first one to be summoned. So, taking advantage of this opportunity, I will leave it to you to collect information on other Masters."
"Yes, master."
Kotomine Kirei was still very respectful, and then issued an order in the tone of Furui Mubo to the unwavering void beside him.
"Then I leave this to you, Assassin."
"As you command, Master."
A low and sinister male voice came from the void, but Kotomine Kirei was not satisfied.
"There is no need to hide your figure in front of the master, he is someone who does not need to be on guard."
Without making any excuses, along with the surging spirit son, the full picture of Assassin was revealed in front of Tohsaka Tokiomi.
He looks very tall. Even with his stooped body, he is taller than Kotomine Kirei. He is estimated to be at least two meters tall. He wears Hassan's iconic skull mask and is wrapped in a black robe. The most eye-catching thing is that Only his right hand, which was also wrapped in a black bandage, looked extremely thick.
Tosaka Tokiomi looked at his disciple with satisfaction. He not only summoned the weakest assassin, but also exposed the true face of the heroic spirit without any scruples, giving up the greatest advantage of the assassin. Even though he knew not to be proud, Tokiomi's My heart is still full of pride.
With such a perfect disciple as his support, how could the Holy Grail not be in his possession?
However, Tohsaka Tokiomi, who was in the excitement, did not notice that for the first time, feelings similar to longing arose in Kotomine Kirei's eyes as he looked at him.
If the viciousness that should not be pursued is his instinct, then can a betrayal at a critical moment satisfy his hungry heart?
