After another hard night last night, my overall mental state was very poor. I have been asking for leave one after another these days. Some readers may think that Beibei is looking for an excuse to be sick to ask for leave, but in fact his physical condition is very poor.
Especially since the last time I had a fever, my body has been very strange. I can't sleep every night and am flustered. I don't know how to describe that mood. At midnight, people's psychological defenses are very fragile.
I tend to have random thoughts, and all these negative emotions have come up. I want to sleep but can't fall asleep, which really makes me collapse. I have been restless, vomiting, and have a low fever for several nights in a row.
I feel better during the day, but I still get headaches and dizziness after sitting for a long time, so I’m really sorry, dear readers, Beibei would like to take three days off to recuperate his physical condition.
I originally thought that I would get better after just sleeping, but then I fell into a vicious cycle. I thought about it for a long time today. I really didn’t want to take leave, but for the sake of my life and body, I decided to take a leave.
Because I love writing so much, I will be afraid at night. If I can't write, Bailian's story and Ling Tiansu's story will not have a perfect ending. Thinking about it is very regretful and scary.
Unconsciously, writing has become an integral part of life. Beibei does not expect to become a god and get rich overnight. I sincerely hope to continue on this path. I hope that everyone will not abandon the useless Beibei.
These three days give myself a space to adjust. The long-term pain really makes me collapse every night. I hope that after three days, Beibei can be resurrected with full energy.
Finally, I have to say that the story written by Beibei may be delayed, but it will never be missed.
Thank you to every reader who loves Beibei.
