"I'm sorry, sister Keiko, I'm sorry..."
In the rain late at night, in Hatoyama Keiko's ward, Kokarasuma lay in her arms, hugging her tightly, repeating these words in her mouth.
Failure after failure has long since destroyed her original confidence and broken her will.
Until tonight, when the experiment failed again, the string in her mind that had been stretched to the limit was finally completely broken. She lost control and destroyed all her research in the past few years, sitting there alone. I cried for a long time in the pile of rubble.
Then, she thought of Sister Keiko.
That brief moment of mental breakdown had disrupted her thinking at the moment. She didn't know why she came to see Sister Keiko and what she was going to say to her. She only knew that she had to go find her now...
She can only go to Sister Keiko, because Sister Keiko...is the sun.
On that rainy night, accompanied by the constant splashing outside the window, Karasuma lay in Keiko Hatoyama's arms, and she said a lot.
From when she decided to study medicine, to when the boy secretly came to her to discuss the matter in private; from being unaccustomed to it at the beginning of school, to striving to catch up and surpass all her classmates and even her own teacher; from getting a doctorate in pharmacology, to the first experiment; from the first failure, to self-encouragement after every failure; from inviting classmates and teachers to participate in the research, to them gradually giving up and leaving; from being full of confidence a year ago, to being on the verge of it now collapse……
Xiao Karasuma told Hatoyama Keiko all her experiences in the past three years. She told her how she constantly encouraged herself to stand up again from failure after failure, and also apologized to her for what she said a year ago. How was Hatoyama Keiko's words pierced her heart, and she became angry and angry at her...
During the whole process, Hatoyama Keiko listened quietly and did not interrupt her.
In fact, Karasuma knew it, or no one knew it better than her.
Hatoyama Keiko's current physical condition is very bad. She has very little waking time every day. It is unacceptable for her to receive a large amount of information for such a long time and cause her mood swings...
However, she just couldn't help it. She just wanted to tell her all the words that had been suppressed in her heart for three years, and then say something serious to Sister Keiko...
Sorry, I failed.
"Little Karasuma."
During the whole process, Hatoyama Keiko had been listening quietly. She raised her hand and touched Xiao Karasuma's long silver hair, and waited until she finished speaking before finally speaking.
Her voice was gentle, still like the sun in Xiao Karasuma's memory. She did not mention Xiao Karasuma's experience in the past three years, but asked her a question.
"If you want to debut as an actor, have you thought about what stage name you want to give yourself?"
This seemingly unrelated sentence once again touched the deepest part of Karasuma's heart.
This is Hatoyama Keiko's unique way of comforting her.
Okay, everything happened before, don’t waste any more energy on me.
Now, it's time for you to move on.
"Woo...wow!"
The corners of his eyes were moist again, and Karasuma hugged Hatoyama Keiko tightly, buried his face deeply in her arms, and cried loudly again.
"..."
[I believe that there are only two things in this world that are the hardest, one is time, and the other is the bond between people. 】
[The former possesses nearly infinite power. Almost everything in the world that is said to be indestructible will eventually be annihilated under its constant erosion. 】
[And the latter may be one of the very few exceptions. 】
[The bonds between most people will quickly collapse under the erosion of time, but there are still a few people whose bonds are stronger than rocks and can withstand the erosion of time for an extremely long time until The moment when the lives of both parties come to an end. 】
[There is no doubt that Xiaoqing and I have such a bond. 】
[But I hope that besides me, Xiao Karasuma can also establish such a bond with Xiao Qing. 】
Picking up a pen, Keiko Hatoyama wrote these words in her diary.
The time at this time was three years ago, the afternoon after Hatoyama Keiko suddenly fainted and was admitted to the hospital for the first time. After the boy received the news, he rushed to see her.
The boy didn't have any extra temptation. He asked her that question very directly.
"Keiko, you're going to be fine, right?"
His words completely broke through all the disguises Hatoyama Keiko had made so far. After all, she did not have the courage to deceive him again.
That afternoon, Karasuma, who had been hiding outside the door, worried that they would quarrel, seemed to be unable to bear the oppressive atmosphere and escaped from here first.
Since then, Xiao Karasuma has been curious about what she and Xiao Qing said after that.
That child...
In fact, they didn't say much, and they didn't say anything too complicated. It could even be said that the two of them only said one sentence since then.
Hatoyama Keiko remembered clearly that it was also a rainy day. Because of the rush back, many parts of Xiaoqing's clothes were wet.
After crying and apologizing repeatedly, Hatoyama Keiko quickly adjusted her emotions. She is such a person. She will also be affected by her own emotions, but this influence has never interfered with her judgment. This has always been the case.
That day, after she wiped away her tears, she turned to look at the rain outside the window, and in a calm tone, she said something that made her feel a little numb.
"Xiao Qing, look at the rain outside the window. Every drop is a different scenery."
Ah, now that I think about it, this sentence is really disgusting and very silly. It was obviously such a sad and serious occasion, but she said such words as if she was trying to be cool. It really ruined the atmosphere...
But actually, at the moment when she said these words, Hatoyama Keiko still had a little hope in her heart...
She hoped that Xiaoqing didn't understand what she meant. Then, maybe she could tell him in a joking tone like a selfish coward, "Don't worry, I just read too much recently, and I'm a bit like a literary girl." Just getting closer...
But this didn't happen.
Because Xiao Qing understood the words the moment she said them.
He was indeed the Xiao Qing she knew, smart, sharp, but obedient. He knew everything but said nothing.
Really, with such a personality, it is easy to be deceived by those bad women outside...
I really don’t know what Xiaoqing would do in the future without me...
The moment she said these words, her tears slid down her smiling face again.
Look at the rain outside the window, every drop is a different scenery.
There are many other "rains" around you that are worth cherishing, so... from now on, don't focus your attention on me, this "drop of rain", okay?
She answered Xiaoqing's question.
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(End of chapter)
