Karasuma and Keiko Hatoyama had a fight.
The point that triggered the quarrel between the two was actually not that complicated.
Two years later, Hatoyama Keiko thought that Karasumaru could give up and there was no need to waste energy on her anymore.
As for Karasuma, what made her lose control was not that Keiko Hatoyama despised her efforts in the past two years, but that Keiko Hatoyama didn't care about her own life at all.
She couldn't understand. She was obviously working hard for Hatoyama Keiko, and she was obviously trying to save her. Why could she give up on herself so lightly?
She couldn't understand.
Of course, a quarrel was a quarrel. That night, Xiao Karasuma still took the time to go to Hatoyama Keiko's ward with the medicine.
After all, quarreling is actually a normal thing between friends, and they are not children anymore. After the quarrel, regardless of whether there is reconciliation or not, she will do what she needs to do.
In the ward, Hatoyama Keiko did not mention the topic of letting her give up.
She was very quiet and cooperated in taking the medicine sent by Xiao Wu Wan without any tricks.
It seems that this matter has just passed...
But Karasuma knew that it didn't.
Sister Keiko is not such a weak person. She is someone who will not waver in her decision just because of a simple quarrel.
She's just waiting.
Just like when Kokarasuma announced that he was going to Tokyo University Medical School two years ago, he waited quietly.
Two years ago, Sister Keiko believed that her efforts were absolutely impossible to succeed, but Sister Keiko also knew that she could not convince her high-spirited self at that time, so she could only choose to wait until she could see the "reality" for herself. Then give up.
The same is true today two years later. After another attempt at persuasion failed, Sister Keiko chose to wait again, waiting for Karasuma to give up on her own.
And it was her extremely determined attitude, her attitude of "Yes, I am definitely going to die soon, so please stop working hard for me, okay?" that made Kokarasuma feel even more angry. The ground is hard to control.
Is it just because you are short-lived that you can despise your own life casually? How can you be worthy of the people around you who always care about you and work hard for you? How can he be worthy of the police officer Baihe who is still thinking about coming back as soon as possible while abroad?
But Karasuma couldn't even ask these words.
She really wanted to know how Keiko Hatoyama thought about these issues, but she still didn't have such a hard heart after all, and she didn't dare to ask.
She was afraid that these words would hurt her.
Time passed little by little in the cowardly calmness of Xiao Karasuma.
A few days later, the boy came back from London. He looked the same as before. Only after taking off his clothes could you see the gunshot wound on his chest near the heart.
Neither Hatoyama Keiko nor Kokarasuma told him about the quarrel they had a few days ago.
After the boy came back, the lives of the three people once again passed quickly in peace, and another year passed quickly.
Karasumaru was still running between taking care of Keiko Hatoyama and the laboratory. As before, the boy was either busy handling various complex cases or attending various meetings as a representative of Mr. Hatoyama.
As for Keiko Hatoyama, her physical condition became more and more serious, and her body functions declined rapidly, causing her to become lethargic. She lay in bed most of the day, unable to stay awake.
Ah, there is also the lean and lean Japanese police officer. He is still the same as before. He always visits Keiko Hatoyama every once in a while. However, since Keiko Hatoyama's waking hours are no longer fixed recently, he has a lot of Sometimes I have to wait outside the ward for a while.
Yes, just like a year ago, or even two or three years ago, everything is normal and everything is calm.
But this peaceful daily life was something Xiao Karasuma couldn't accept.
Because this also means that for more than a year, all her efforts have continued to fail and fail again, without any miracle happening...
Therefore, time is peaceful, so the lives of the three of them are not at all turbulent...
As for Keiko Hatoyama, who was at the center of all the problems, she had already anticipated this scene. She did not cry, roll around, have a nervous breakdown, did not anger the people around her, and did not take revenge on society.
She didn't even ask about Karasuma's research progress, nor did she try to persuade her to give up. Instead, she accepted it all calmly and quietly waited for her final outcome to come.
Everything was still moving in the direction she had predicted. All of Karasumaru's efforts in the past three years had not shaken this result in the slightest.
"ah--"
With a sudden force, all the bottles and jars on the experimental table were pushed down. Xiao Karasuma grabbed the small hammer on the side and smashed them all to pieces.
"Go to hell! Go to hell! Go to hell!!"
Her research has made no progress - this is something she has never dared to say to Keiko Hatoyama in the past three years.
No matter how much relevant knowledge she has absorbed in the past three years, no matter how many times she has had flashes of inspiration, but there is no progress, that is, there is no progress.
In the past three years, the less progress she made, the harder she worked. The harder she worked, the less progress she seemed to make. In this repeated cycle, her inner anxiety continued to accumulate, and she had already reached the limit she could bear. critical point.
A year ago, Sister Keiko might have noticed this about her, so she persuaded her to give up, so...she was like a powder keg, and suddenly exploded...
In fact, it was not just her anger at Keiko Hatoyama for despising her own life, but more... her anger at her own powerlessness.
Kokarasuma didn't care that she had spent three years on this. What she really cared about was that she had spent three years but couldn't do anything for Hatoyama Keiko. It was clear that...she had sworn it and she would do it. Will save her...
[That’s why you told me then so that I don’t feel guilty or indebted, right...]
"ah……"
His throat suddenly hurt. After a moment of venting, Karasuma grabbed his neck and sat down weakly at his experimental table.
Around her, there were broken experimental bottles and torn experimental notes everywhere.
"Woo..."
She slowly closed her legs, hugged her knees, buried her face in them, and sobbed softly.
She might have really failed...
"..."
That night, Hatoyama Keiko sat alone in the ward, staring blankly out of the dark window.
It rained tonight, and the raindrops outside pattered on the windows, like evil spirits coming to seek life.
"Click."
Behind her, there seemed to be a sound of opening the door. Hatoyama Keiko woke up from her dazed state and turned around to look.
Standing at the door was Karasuma.
A little black ball that was so gray that it seemed like it would completely shatter at the slightest touch.
Looking at her, Hatoyama Keiko's eyes showed a hint of distress and helplessness.
This scene had come much later than she expected.
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(End of chapter)
