"So... don't become so respectful and afraid of me, don't become like them... okay?"
As Keiko Hatoyama said these words, a chill as if the hairs on the hair were standing on end instantly swept through Xiao Karasuma's body.
She raised her head suddenly and looked in shock at Keiko Hatoyama, who had his back to her and said these words.
It was as if she had suddenly glimpsed a truth she had never discovered before.
Little Karasuma never imagined that sister Keiko, who was like the sun in her eyes, would have such deep-rooted fear in her heart.
It’s the fear of loneliness.
Since childhood, Keiko Hatoyama has lost too many people around her due to her poor physical condition.
This "loss" does not mean that they left her or died.
Rather, it means that they gradually no longer regard her as a normal "person" or friend. These people begin to respectfully distance themselves from her and treat her as a "fragile piece of porcelain."
They protected her carefully and regarded her as some kind of "treasure" that needed careful maintenance, but this was not because of their deep friendship with her, but just because they were afraid, afraid that she would accidentally "break" "After that, they will suffer the wrath of Mr. Hatoyama.
Fine fragile china.
Almost everyone around Hatoyama Keiko looks at her with this look.
Because of this, it seems that getting too close to her has become some kind of unspeakable taboo since I don't know when.
Keep a respectful distance.
Keiko Hatoyama has a keen nature. She can naturally detect the attitudes of the people around her and understand the reasons why they do what they do. Therefore, she has never expressed her anger or blamed these people, and she has no reason to do so.
Some are just sad about themselves.
That's why she has been yearning for the outside world since she was a child. After all, in Hatoyama's family, everyone knows her, everyone is respectful but distant from her, and their active approach to her is always accompanied by the fear of wanting to run away.
This heavy atmosphere was so depressing that Hatoyama Keiko almost despaired.
But it's different outside. As long as she doesn't speak, no one knows who she is. At least at that moment, those people are willing to talk to her normally, communicate with her normally, and won't look at her like they want her to leave quickly. Look at her.
Many people around her believe that Hatoyama Keiko is the boy's salvation, but for her, how can the boy not be her salvation?
The boy was the first person Hatoyama Keiko met outside in her life who didn't care about her physical condition at all, didn't dislike or reject her closeness at all, and even took the initiative to move closer to her.
Perhaps in the boy's mind, he was the one who was captured by Hatoyama Keiko, but from Hatoyama Keiko's perspective, she always believed that she was actually the one who was captured first, but the boy did not Just realize it.
No matter at any time, Hatoyama Keiko will never regret that she was the one with infinite courage who rushed out to stop the boy that evening.
That was definitely the greatest luck in her life.
What makes Keiko Hatoyama even more happy is that she has had this kind of luck more than once.
A few years after she met the boy, she met someone who was willing to be her friend without any distractions.
That is Karasuma.
This little sister who is four years younger than her is lively and cheerful, and is willing to get close to her. Although he knows her situation, he doesn't care at all, and he has never looked at her like she is looking at a "fragile item". This sincerity undoubtedly touched Keiko Hatoyama's heart.
This is why, even though Hatoyama Keiko and Karasuma Renye have been incompatible with each other for a long time, she has never angered Karasuma in the slightest because of this. She even gently comforted her main character when Karasuma was in a dilemma. reason.
Kokarasuma, like the boy, is also a very important presence in Hatoyama Keiko's life.
Therefore, when Karasuma wanted to invite her to visit the university this morning, Hatoyama Keiko was very happy. She had no reluctance, nor did she mean to force herself to agree. It was her own idea. .
Therefore, when Keiko Hatoyama just woke up, she saw Karasuma looking at her with the look that she was very familiar with when looking at some kind of "fragile goods", and saying "I'm sorry" full of guilt and apology. "At this moment, an extreme fear instantly arose in Hatoyama Keiko's heart.
Deep in the hearts of people, there are things that they are unwilling to face, even Keiko Hatoyama is no exception. She is not an invulnerable person.
Everyone has fear, the key is whether you have the courage to fight against it.
She was indeed afraid. She was afraid that Karasuma would become one of those people who "kept her away" in her memory.
But she also has courage that is far beyond ordinary people's imagination, because she did not choose to succumb to the fear in her heart. She seriously and forcefully rejected Xiao Karasuma's wrong idea of taking everything into her own hands, and then , she told Karasumaru the fear in her heart without any concealment.
Even if she didn't dare to look into Karasuma's eyes, even if there was a hint of pleading in her tone, she did say it.
And Karasumaru completely understood what Keiko Hatoyama wanted to express.
She sat there, completely stunned at first. After all, before today, she had never thought that there was something in Sister Keiko's heart that scared her.
She also didn't expect that she would have such an important position in sister Keiko's heart...
His eyes were suddenly moist. Xiao Karasuma was stunned in place for a long time, and then he seemed to suddenly come back to his senses. He reached into the quilt, held Hatoyama Keiko's hand, and said warmly:
"Idiot sister Keiko, how could I be like that... People who are so smart can sometimes be stupid and worry all day long.
Okay, hurry up and wipe your tears away, otherwise the wooden man will come over later and he may think that I bullied you..."
Karasumaru had already noticed that Hatoyama Keiko's eyes that turned away were already moist. She seemed to be mentally prepared to lose Karasuma as a friend when she said those words.
"Turn around first, and I'll wipe it..." Keiko Hatoyama was still on the hospital bed with her back to her, shrank into the quilt, and whispered.
Yes, some people seem to be unable to let go of their elder sister status.
Afraid of embarrassment?
Why weren't you afraid when you cried just now?
"Cut~"
After deliberately smacking his lips loudly, Karasuma raised his hand and quickly wiped the moist corners of his eyes and said:
"Then someone needs to hurry up?"
After saying that, she turned around and left.
She also needs to go out and calm down, otherwise, if sister Keiko finds out that she is almost crying, she will actually be a little shy...
"call……"
After gently closing the door to the ward, Karasuma stood in the corridor with his back to the door and let out a long sigh of relief.
Immediately, her eyebrows, which were originally relaxed, frowned again.
Yes, the problem between Keiko's sister and her has been resolved.
However, the other most important problem still exists.
Sister Keiko's body... what should I do?
"Da da!"
At this moment, hurried footsteps sounded in the corridor. Xiao Karasuma turned around and saw that it was the wooden man who was rushing in.
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(End of chapter)
