"To me, human life is like the clothes we wear. If you like it, wear it. If you don't like it, throw it away. At worst, just change it...
The first person to notice this change in me was my then fiancée..."
In the car, Shirakawa Kiyoshi was still slowly telling about his past, while Miyano Shiho was sitting aside, listening quietly.
"Obviously, she didn't want to see this change in me continue to happen, but she couldn't do anything about it, so she finally had to say to me that she hoped I could become a good police officer.
Shiho, have you heard the story of Journey to the West?
In the story, Sun Xingzhe wears a golden hoop on his head that he cannot take off. As long as the eminent monk from the Tang Dynasty chants a spell, the golden hoop will tighten, causing Sun Xingzhe to wreak havoc on his life.
To me, her words are equivalent to a golden hoop on Sun Walker's head. The only difference is that she doesn't have to recite the spell repeatedly, because her 'spell' is her very first sentence. And I won't be as miserable as Sun Xingzhe, because she knows that I will always listen to her.
It was through this method that was almost a coercion that she made me become an excellent police officer.
If I follow the normal script, there shouldn't be any major changes in the rest of my life, because as long as she is alive, I will fulfill my duty as a police officer.
Of course, this does not mean that I hate doing this. As I said just now, I have never felt anything about good and evil, justice and evil, killing and saving people, no matter which side it is. What special feedback will it give me?
To me, they are all the same.
However, if someone I care about wants me to choose one of them, then I will naturally choose that way.
So when I think about it carefully, what I care about is not saving others, nor is it the layer of policeman skin I have.
What I really care about is actually the person who hopes that I can become an excellent police officer. The reason why I do that is just to meet her expectations... So what if one day, she suddenly dies?
Shiho, do you think that if one day the person I really want to satisfy is suddenly gone, is there any point in doing these things? "
Bai Heqing suddenly looked at Miyano Shiho. Even Miyano Shiho could feel that Bai Heqing was talking about something extremely sad for him, but his tone at this moment was extremely calm. It's unsettling.
"I spent a long time thinking about this."
Seemingly not wanting Miyano Shiho to answer, Shirakawa Kiyoshi withdrew his gaze and continued to talk to himself:
"I don't think it makes sense."
"Perhaps for other people, this is meaningful. After all, it is the last hope and hope of the deceased for the living. How could it become meaningless just because of the death of the deceased?
But to me, this is a meaningless behavior, because death is death. No matter how much you do, the dead will never come back to life, let alone look at you again. The so-called sustenance , it’s just the inner self-comfort of the living.
After figuring this out, I originally planned to end my life like this, but before that, I still had one more thing I wanted to do. "
Having said this, Bai Heqing was silent again. He parked the car on the side of the road and lowered his head. After a long time, he spoke again:
"At the last moment of her life, she once told Sharon that she regretted it... That happened many years ago, and it involved the Karasuma family and the Hatoyama family at that time. It was about a special research, Karasuma. Maru Renye hopes to bring the Hatoyama family into the game."
【Research? Could it be? ! 】
"This research later got a definite name. Speaking of which, this is the name that Shiho's mother came up with - Silver Bullet."
Looking at the shocked Miyano Shiho with a smile, Shirakawa Kiyoshi continued:
"Renya Karasuma knew that she was in poor health, which was not a secret among the big families in Tokyo at that time. Therefore, he thought that the Hatoyama family would not refuse his invitation, and this was indeed the case.
Mr. Hatoyama had indeed been persuaded by Karasuma Renye, but she, who was the core of the problem, refused.
She was clearly aware at that time that once the research on the silver bullet was successfully completed, what horrific changes it would bring to the world.
After all, no matter what the angle, this research is unlikely to be disclosed to the public, and the results it brings will inevitably only be passed on to a very small number of people.
So, what conditions do people need to meet to get it? And what harm will these people do to the world? What about those who don’t get it? I think these don't require any further explanation from me.
She realizes the terrifying future that the silver bullet will inevitably bring.
Even if these futures will not actually happen to her, even if she herself will become a vested interest in this research, she still chooses to stand for the voiceless people who will never benefit from this research.
Not only did she reject Karasuma Renye's invitation, she even suggested to Mr. Hatoyama at that time that she must find a way to arrest Karasuma Renye and control her.
She said that she had already seen the bottomless desire in Karasuma Renye's eyes at that time. Even without the help of the Hatoyama family, that person would definitely try his best to promote the progress of this research. If not If stopped, his desires will eventually engulf the world.
Now from the perspective of hindsight, her speculation at the time was not wrong. In order to maintain the research of silver bullets, the organization has indeed done too much evil in this world.
But it is a pity that Mr. Hatoyama, who had power spanning the Japanese police and public security circles at that time, did not do this. Although he rejected Karasuma Renye's invitation, he also acquiesced to his actions.
After all, as I said, once the research on the silver bullet is completed, the Hatoyama family will also become vested interests, and Mr. Hatoyama, he wants to save his granddaughter... who was my fiancée at the time.
Later, as death pressed closer and closer, her heart began to waver. This was not because she was afraid of death, but because she was afraid of the established fact that she was destined to go before me.
Unlike when she dared to directly reject Karasuma Renye, at that time, she already had too many concerns in her heart.
Of course, she never said these words to me, and even to Sharon, she only mentioned it once. If I hadn't happened to be outside the door at that time, I'm afraid I would never have known that she actually had such thoughts in her heart. kind of idea.
In fact, I still can’t figure out whether this was her truth or a lie she deliberately told to get Sharon to agree to her request...
But no matter what the truth is, as time goes by, it has now become an obsession in my heart that I can’t let go of. "
Saying this, Shirakawa Kiyoshi looked at Miyano Shiho again.
"Shiho, I want to see the success of Silver Bullet with my own eyes."
It's not over yet, continue tomorrow...
By the way, I would like to ask, is what Shirakawa Kiyo said to Miyano Shiho true or false?
(End of chapter)
