[My parents’ love has no reason or purpose. I finally joined this family.
In other words, I have always been a part of this family, but I just didn't realize it.
I began to try to reciprocate this love and truly realize the close connection between my parents and me that blood is thicker than water.
As my father said, in this life, they are my parents. This is an undoubted fact.
I feel so lucky to be a new member of this family.
Finally, I am no longer alone in this world, and my closest parents are with me. That restless heart finally has a peaceful soul. 】
"yes."
Hongli nodded and sighed: "I am so happy to be my parents' child."
【……】
[Time flies so fast. In the blink of an eye, I am already three years old. 】
【……】
[It’s the Chinese New Year again, and many relatives come to the house. I’m like a moving little toy, being sent from the arms of one elder to the arms of that elder, making all kinds of fun, wow, it’s really hard.
New Year's Eve? I think he has passed through the gate of hell! 】
"It's true that when I encountered this kind of thing when I was a child, I always stayed away from it in advance."
Hong Li felt the same way: "Seven aunts and eight aunts, that's a real nightmare."
But unfortunately, when she grew up, for the sake of "politeness", she couldn't run away early. She could only sit aside "demurely" and "quietly" and listen to the laughter of her elders. From time to time, she would show an embarrassed rather than polite smile. This shows that you are listening carefully.
In fact, her soul had flown away long ago and was hiding in a small corner with Hei Yang!
[However, as I grow older, my parents still have some headaches about my personality. 】
"That's for sure. Hei Yang, you are a big burden and a big trouble."
Hongli curled her lips and complained about her boyfriend.
"That is to say, sister, I like to collect rags, so I can tolerate your shabby character and treat you as a treasure. Otherwise, without me, who will want you again? Hmph!"
As for her own character...
Well……
Let’s turn our attention back to Black Sun’s Diary!
[They found that except for this home, I seemed to have no interest in anything else around me, which made them worried. Terrifying words such as "unsociable", "isolated" and "autistic" flashed in their minds.
They wanted me to have a happy childhood, thinking that this would create a positive outlook on life for me and prevent me from going astray in the future. 】
[This is Hei Yang when he was fourteen years old. Looking back now, during that period, my painting style was indeed a bit strange.
Avoiding the sight of everyone, in a small room alone, crying or laughing, he drew mysterious and unknown words on a suspicious book. His whole person seemed to be shrouded in shadow. If he said he was a little evil cultivator, it was really not true. A little bit of a contradiction. 】
[Here is Hei Yang, who is sixteen years old. At that time, my attitude towards evil cultivators was still too rigid. I met one some time ago. To be honest, he looked much brighter than me. 】
"No doubt, you also have the same virtue now, but this has not changed."
Hong Li rolled her eyes: "Besides, what's going on with this guy? It's obviously a diary from the past, but why does his future self always come back to complain.
Wouldn't he feel ashamed if he still reads his diary all day long? Tsk tsk. "
[Actually, my parents were right. I was deliberately escaping from the world. 】
[Five Color Family, Five Elements Sect, the world of cultivation, demons, demons, immortals, Buddhas, Taoists and Martial Arts...
Some of these are very close to me, and some I may never see in my life, but without exception, these strange new words make me feel that there is always a gap between me and the world. 】
[It is said that every time traveler is lonely, because people are emotional animals. How is that possible to abandon everything in the past and come out, start over and no longer think about the past?
Telling jokes that no one has heard, telling jokes that no one understands, and dreaming back at midnight, I often feel crazy and feel pain in my bones.
Granny Meng is right, after a bowl of soup, all worries will be forgotten. If I didn’t have those memories of my previous life, I would definitely live happily in this world, in this big and humane family, right? 】
[However, if I lost the memory of my previous life, my personality would definitely be very different.
By then, the person named Hei Yang may still be there, but I will disappear forever. Thinking about it this way, is it really okay? 】
"It must be bad!"
Hong Li said without hesitation: "If you weren't of this character, how could I still love you!
Gu Shen
I want the complete Black Sun, not another person covered in Black Sun skin.
After all, I'm not with you just because I'm greedy for your body...
Uh, okay, I admit, little Heiyang, you do have some beauty, but your greedy body is greedy body, and my liking for your character is completely different. Oh, sniff, sniff... cough cough. "
【this is not good! I made a judgment. I am Black Sun, uniquely me, and I don’t want to become another person.
It is precisely with the memories of my previous life that I know how to cherish every bit of this life. When people around me start sprinting hard with their eyes closed, like me before, I slowly move step by step and appreciate the scenery around me.
The road of life is so long. If you win at the starting line and run so much faster than others, won't you reach the finish line faster?
I don’t want to forget my parents in my previous life, and I don’t want to forget those interesting things in my previous life either.
Happy memories will always be treasured in my heart, and happy memories make me cherish my current life even more. 】
[I seemed to be getting used to every bit of this world, and suddenly I realized with horror, why did I start the habit of keeping a diary not long after I was born?
You know, recording secrets in a diary is obviously easier to expose and let others know!
However, that may be my instinctive defense measure from my previous life. I don’t want to be assimilated into this world, and I don’t want to forget the past.
Although thinking about it now, it seems to have been a long time ago. It has been so long that I can't help but wonder, have I really experienced those things? Maybe it is just a child's imagination, and the setting he has set for himself through some fragments of dreams. ?
No, look at the previous diary, how could a baby know this from birth?
I actually began to doubt the authenticity of my previous life. I was indeed assimilated. This is simply terrifying!
I don’t want to forget, and I don’t want to become another person, so I have to record it more seriously in future diaries! 】
【……】
[The number of pages in the diary was not enough, so I tried to sew a new one on. My diary was twice as thick, and I could continue to keep a diary again! 】
"Well……"
Hong Li didn't comment too much, she just held her chin and turned to the next page with her tender white hands. Sure enough, she could see the traces of stitching. No wonder Hei Yang's diary is so thick!
[In order for me to blend in with everyone and the surrounding environment, my parents began to take me around to play, cousin Hei Hui, cousin Hei Xiaoqi...]
"Hey, what's going on, little brother!"
Hongli said in a long voice with a look of displeasure on her face: "Why haven't you arrived at my door yet?
If you continue to behave like this, it will make me feel like I am absent from your life! "
[Mom and Dad’s visit plan didn’t go as smoothly as expected. In my opinion, they were just a group of kids and we couldn’t play together.
Innocent cousin Hei Hui, to be honest, when I am with her, I feel like I am her uncle and have to worry about her all day long.
Hei Xiaoqi, who pretended to be a young adult, hesitated to say a few words when facing me. Then she cried and went to her uncle and others to complain, saying that this brother was not good and she wanted to have a better brother. 】
[This is the fifteen-year-old Hei Yang. Later, after having a younger brother, Hei Xiaolong, Hei Xiaoqi realized what it means to be naughty. I laughed to death. Is it really all about comparison?
However, Xiaolong seems to only be interested in bullying his sister. His attitude towards my cousin, in addition to being as close and dependent as cousin Hei Hui, is actually a little bit admired. This surprised me a little, but I didn't let it go too far. In the heart.
In my opinion, they are all relatives and equally lovely. 】
[My parents took me to visit the Five Color Family, which further confirmed my idea: I and this group of people love to cry and make trouble, have unpredictable personalities all the time, have no sense of the importance of their actions, and can't guess their true thoughts at all. Some even A little brat who plays with his naked butt and urine in the mud really has nothing in common! 】
[However, there is an exception. The Hong family has a little sister who is three days younger than me. Her personality is much quieter than other ordinary children.
When there are many people, she always likes to hide secretly and does not want to participate in the arguments of those children.
In her eyes, I always felt a bit familiar. Thinking about it carefully, that girl looked like me in the past.
He doesn't like to socialize, he likes to be quiet, and he always shows a sense of laziness and exhaustion in every move he makes.
But her big and lively eyes that are constantly searching are shining brightly. They are a child's instinctive curiosity and exploration of the world.
Those eyes are so out of place on this girl, as if the light in her eyes has been extinguished! (crossed out, wrong!)
I feel that I should hold that child in the dark to prevent her future life from being filled with pain and sorrow! (Well, correct!)
Oh, by the way, her name is Hongli, which is a very nice name. 】
"What the hell did you cross out! Why can I still see it after crossing it out, bastard! Are you already a black-hearted bastard at such a young age? I'm really unlucky to meet you!"
Hongli couldn't help complaining loudly, but suddenly she breathed a sigh of relief and showed a relaxed smile: "Humph, it's finally time for the hero to appear.
Sure enough, I knew that it would be up to Xiao Hongli to save Heiyang from your miserable life! Oh ho ho ho! "
