Pei Zhan walked outside the hall in one breath before stopping.
There is the smell of incense candles in the air, and not far away there is a young novice who is keeping watch and coughing.
Although the lights in the corridor were not bright, they were much brighter than those above the ruins.
He sat down on the steps. The little novice monk at the corner of the door bowed and asked if he had any instructions. He waved his hands and looked at his shadow on the ground without saying a word.
Alone.
Just like when I was a kid many years ago.
When his mother gave birth to him, he was born prematurely. At first, the elderly in the family said that he could not feed him, so his mother cried day and night. His father was afraid that he would also break down from crying, so he hired three wet nurses to take care of him.
The master's family is very serious, so the nannies naturally don't dare to be careless. The eldest brother said that he has not walked alone until he was three years old. As an elder brother, if he wants to see his younger brother, he can't just do it.
Even after he was three years old, his father did not allow him to jump around, and the doctor would ask for a safe pulse every three days.
At that time, what Pei Zhan envied the most was that his eldest brother Pei Wei could be with whomever he wanted and go to whomever he wanted. The people he met the most were the servants at home, most of whom were old-fashioned and old-fashioned. Even though there are a few lively people, they only know what is going on inside the general's mansion. How big is the sky outside? They don't know.
The first person of the same age he met was Liang Chen, but Liang Chen was the same age as his eldest brother Pei Yuan, five years older than him, so he couldn't really be called the same age.
That should have happened when he was three years old. When he was four or five years old, he discovered that there was a little follower behind Liang Chen. She was a little girl with big and bright eyes. She liked to wear bright red clothes and walked with crazy movements. Fast and agile, it floats around in front of your eyes like a ball of flame.
Of the many young men and ladies who came to visit their home, she was the most special one. He had never seen such a dazzling little girl. No matter where she was or what occasion she was in, she was like the little sun, forever. It is the center of the crowd.
He thought it was Liang Chen's sister. He thought that even if the Liang family's sister was a little older than him, she was still younger than Liang Chen. They were more truly peers.
When he saw her again later, Pei Zhan couldn't help but approach her. But before he could take out the candy in his arms to express his goodwill to her, she tilted her head and asked him his name, and then asked him to salute without any explanation and even called him "Auntie"!
Pei Zhan has been with those old-fashioned people since he was a child. God knows how boring his life is. What he wants is a passionate and passionate partner, not an "aunt" who needs to be cautious in his words and actions in front of her!
So Pei Zhan refused to recognize her as his aunt no matter what.
How could he recognize it?
Once they recognize him, she will never be his little friend.
He didn't want to be her followers like Cheng Zhili and others, always following her.
He wanted to be as flamboyant as she was, and be a normal general's disciple like her.
He was so eager to be close to her.
Later, when Pei Yuan and Liang Chen got together, he would always pester her to go, but every time they met, she would ask him to call her aunt. If he didn't, she wouldn't play with him.
He could only watch from a distance, sitting aside like this, struggling in his heart whether to compromise and become his nephew, or to stick to his principles.
But even this entangled time didn't last long, and she went to the northwest.
But it turned out that she had not stopped since she went to the northwest. From the letters sent back by her father and word of mouth from the generals and guards traveling between the two places, he knew that she had become stronger and that she had brought a group of disciples with her. He has made many contributions.
The little sun shines on the border, and her figure in bright clothes and an angry horse gallops in the yellow sand in the sky. She hates evil as much as she wants, and has the righteousness of her family and country in her heart.
When the bad news of Liang Qin's death came back to the capital, Pei Zhan had just turned thirteen. That night, he stood for a long time at the Taiping Mansion stone monument at the entrance of Liang Mansion. Liang Jun had already sacrificed his life for two years, and Liang Qin encountered another accident. Although they were her brothers, they were as close to her as father and daughter. Now, All gone, he thought, how sad would she be?
After he came back, he got entangled with his father, who had returned to Beijing to recuperate from his injury. He wanted to join the army at the border.
Liang Chen was a filial piety, and he wanted to avenge his eldest brother on her behalf.
Neither father nor mother agreed. Because just three months ago, his eldest brother Pei Yuan had been seriously injured.
Although they had three sons and were strong-willed, as parents, they couldn't afford to take this risk at that time.
He knelt and begged most of the night.
Father finally agreed.
Halfway through his expedition, he happened to meet her returning from supporting his spirit.
That night he quietly traveled thirty miles to the inn where she settled.
He saw her figure after several years of separation, but at the same time he also saw Xu Yin who was by her side.
It turns out that she is never lonely.
He was the only one alone.
He didn't go in.
He thought he had lost his temper, but a year later when he met the enemy general who killed Liang Qin on the battlefield, he still carried his spear and chased him for more than a hundred miles, and cut off his head with his own hands. give up.
He was preparing to launch a raid when news of her accident at White Crane Temple reached the northwest. Never one to be vague, he tried twice to get on the horse that day.
In that battle, he defeated two cities in a row, but almost lost his life.
After he recovered from his injury, he asked for leave from Liang Chen, who had been awarded the title of Commander-in-Chief, and returned to Beijing. He rushed to Baihe Temple overnight. He pretended to be scorched earth and returned to the northwest. He did not return until the battle was over.
On that trip back to Beijing, everyone and everything silently told him that she was dead and would never come back.
But not long ago, a woman whose temperament and temperament were very similar to her suddenly appeared!
She told him that she had a close relationship with the Liang family! He also told him that there are souls in this world who can rejoin after death! And tonight she happened to appear on the ruins after that man was burned to death!
"The General looks very brooding tonight."
Suddenly a slow sound came from behind.
Pei Zhan stood up and turned to look at Cheng Kong who was standing in the corridor at some point: "Master, is there really a theory of reincarnation in the world? If the human body dies, can the soul still be parasitic?"
Chengkong Dao pronounced the Dharma's name and said: "The universe is vast, the sea of Buddhas is boundless, and there are many mysteries in the world. Whether the matter of body, death, or soul exists, whether it exists or not, should be discussed with a normal mind."
Pei Zhan was silent. After a while he said: "But I still can't believe that she can really come back. I'm afraid of making a mistake, and I'm afraid of falling into the abyss of disappointment after my hopes fail.
"I'm just a mortal body. I can't withstand all kinds of blows."
Chengkong stepped down the stone steps, his eyes level with him: "If what you get is what you want, worrying about gains and losses will not help. I firmly believe that a wise man is like a general, and he must have made a decision in his heart."
Pei Zhan looked at the night sky without saying a word.
