My 86-year-old grandma passed away today.
At around 2 o'clock in the afternoon, the blacksmith hurried to see him for the last time.
The blacksmith's grandmother became unrecognizable five years ago due to Alzheimer's disease.
My energy level was relatively good yesterday, but this morning it deteriorated sharply and I was unable to swallow, eat, or drink water.
In terms of relatives, the two aunts’ family and the author’s parents are either in Yang or Gang Yang Kang.
The blacksmith himself is the only one who has not yet become masculine, and his wife happened to be pregnant during this period. She is now 8 weeks + 2 days pregnant, and the pregnancy symptoms are very serious. She is vomiting, has no appetite, and doesn't want to eat much.
The blacksmith is responsible for buying groceries, cooking and taking care of her every day, so she is very careful every day, for fear of getting infected in the early stages of pregnancy.
As a grandchild, from "giving off grass" (a local custom in which the younger generation bids farewell to their deceased elders) to the funeral, they cannot miss the five days before and after.
Filial piety cannot be abandoned, but the author is not afraid of falling prey to it. The only thing he worries about is the impact on his wife and children. The first trimester is the most careful stage of the pregnancy cycle.
At this moment, Tie Mou realized what it means to have an old man and a young man. Both parties have responsibilities that they cannot live up to. Problems cannot be solved by simply taking care of oneself.
Difficult, difficult, difficult.
I am also quite confused.
Sad, depressed.
Death is like a lamp going out, and all thoughts turn to ashes.
I took 1 to 3 days off to adjust my mood. Now I am sitting at the computer desk like a puppet, a little sluggish. After typing this sentence, my heart is still full of indescribable frustration.
This depression may be the sadness of the death of grandma, or the confusion of witnessing birth, old age, illness and death.
In the face of death, everything seems meaningless.
(End of chapter)
