When he was a teenager, Bai Mengjin, like all children of this age, had no idea what the world was like and thought he was the most special being in the world.
She made her way to heaven and became a disciple of the heads of three sects. She had a senior brother who was gifted with a sword, and she was also a rare prodigy in the world. How could she not think highly of herself, how could she not be proud of her talents?
Until God gave her a slap in the face and let her know that she was just a tool for Ning Yanzhi to temper his sword body, and the master had ulterior motives for accepting her!
Later, she changed from a jade fairy to a jade demon and gradually accepted the reality.
There are people in this world who are loved by heaven. For example, her senior brother Ning Yanzhi was born to be a dragon or a phoenix among men. Or maybe Ling Bufei, the leader of the Wuji Sect, could still find a way out of a desperate situation and reach the top.
Only it won't be her.
She is the big devil who is quickly killed by everyone in the world of immortality. She is a person despised by heaven.
She just refused to admit defeat, she had to live if God didn't want her to!
Thousands of years have passed leisurely, and the oaths made when becoming a disciple have long since dispersed with the smoke. The so-called belief in exterminating demons, defending the Tao, and protecting the common people became a joke the moment the foundation of the Tao was destroyed.
She was reborn and found a shield for herself with dark thoughts, intending to deceive the law of heaven, put on human skin, and plotted to take revenge.
As a result, now she realizes that maybe things are not what she thought at all. All of this is the vitality left for her by God, allowing her to be the savior hero.
Isn't she a person rejected by heaven? How do you deserve to be a hero?
If the speculation is true, what does the suffering she has suffered in the past thousand years count? Could it be that God will confer a great responsibility on this people?
In the middle of the night, everything was quiet.
A line of light smoke escaped from the umbrella and turned into the appearance of Hu Erniang.
After five years of nurturing, most of her soul has recovered, and she can now take the initiative to reveal herself.
"Why didn't you practice today?" she asked.
Bai Mengjin was leaning against the window in a daze, with the wine bottle in his hand mostly empty. Hearing the question, he turned around and said, "Senior."
Hu Erniang looked her over and said, "You are in a bad mood."
Bai Mengjin nodded and took another sip of wine.
Hu Erniang thought for a while and "sat down" opposite her: "Maybe you need someone to talk to you?"
Bai Mengjin smiled lightly and did not refuse her kindness.
"Senior, were you a good person when you were alive?" she asked.
Hu Erniang replied: "Doesn't it count? Before I entered Taoism, I was the daughter of the Mountain King, the kind who blocked the road and robbed it."
Bai Mengjin nodded: "It's in line with senior's temper."
Hu Erniang smiled: "When you saw me, my temper was much better. When I was in charge of the village, I was very irritable. Anyone passing by the mountain road must leave something behind. Later, I met a scholar who was so poor. Qingfeng has two sleeves, I think he is good-looking, so I want to stay and be the village minister."
"Ah!" Bai Mengjin exclaimed softly, "Is he Miss Mochou's father?"
"No." Hu Erniang looked melancholy. "He was actually a monk. Seeing that I still had a conscience, he stayed to save me. We got along for a long time. Later, I became enlightened and entered Taoism, and he left."
Bai Mengjin smiled and said: "Senior has entered Taoism, it is not difficult to find him, right? Although the world is big, there are countless monks. You can transform into a god as a casual cultivator, which shows that you are extremely talented."
"I have been looking for him for many years." Hu Erniang said softly. "It was not until many years later, when I was already a Nascent Soul, that I found any news about him. It turned out that he had died while exterminating demons."
Bai Mengjin was silent for a moment: "After all, the fate is too shallow."
Hu Erniang smiled faintly: "Yes! Later, I met a like-minded person and became a Taoist couple with him. Unfortunately, fate only lasts a hundred years... I thought that having a daughter would always stay with me for a long time. Unexpectedly, there was only one person left in the end.”
Bai Mengjin didn't quite understand Hu Erniang's thoughts, because she was always alone. When she was the Jade Demon, she had some subordinates, but they couldn't be considered companions. However, she could understand the other party's feelings, but she was always unable to get what she wanted and was always let down.
"Senior, if, I mean if..." she said slowly, "if one day you discover that all the pain in the past is a test of God's will to you, and ultimately you are asked to save the world, will you comply with it?"
This question made Hu Erniang confused: "What did you find?"
"Can you?" Bai Mengjin asked.
Hu Erniang thought for a moment and said: "The key to this question is whether you have any resentment in your heart. I think that the fate of this world does not all depend on the way of heaven. If everything is destined, how can man conquer heaven?"
Bai Mengjin nodded slowly. What Hu Erniang means is that there is no so-called destiny, and the law of heaven cannot control it so carefully. For example, the fate of Ning Yanzhi only made him born with more sword bones and a much stronger understanding than others, but it did not make him do everything smoothly and without any setbacks.
If everything was destined, how could her previous life slide all the way into the abyss, so that God wanted to leave her a glimmer of hope and let her overthrow it and start over again?
If you put it that way, the suffering she suffered in her previous life was not necessarily something she had to endure. Heaven did not abandon her, but she was pushed into the abyss artificially.
"I haven't been a good person for many years." Bai Mengjin sighed, "It's a bit unaccustomed to suddenly have to do good things."
Hu Erniang was surprised: "You are a good person!"
Bai Mengjin smiled bitterly and shook his head: "Senior doesn't know my past, I..."
Although the charges of indiscriminate killing of innocent people were fabricated by others, after she became the Jade Demon, she forgot her past oath to eliminate demons and defend the Tao.
"You are a good person." Hu Erniang said calmly, "I robbed you back that day. You could have just stood by and watched, but you helped me."
"That's because Fang Xucheng had bad intentions and we were trying to protect ourselves."
Hu Erniang smiled: "A sect as big as the Wuji Sect is really afraid of a Yuanying monk? You have many ways to scare him and let him send you back to the Wuji Sect."
"..."
Hu Erniang continued: "Later in Liuyue City and Yelan Kingdom, what did you do that wasn't saving people?"
"I...I just..." Play your role well.
"You can tell when a person has good intentions." Hu Erniang looked at her tenderly, "You have never abandoned these in your heart. You always avoid hurting others unconsciously. You have always been a kind person."
Bai Mengjin was speechless and even felt the urge to cry.
She has been a demon for so many years, but others have always accused her of being sinister and evil. No one has ever told her that you are still a kind person.
"I don't know what you are embarrassed about, but just do what you want. For a kind and hard-working person like you, God will not let you down."
(End of chapter)
