She Zishu followed Wu Yin all the way, avoiding those "threads" that emitted glimmers of light. Those tiny bugs are extremely resilient when gathered together. The further you go, the denser the lines become. But they won't hinder the two of them. Wu Yin held a special incense stick in his hand, and the smoke flowed according to the command of his fingers.
The smoke will briefly disperse the swarm. The lines collapsed with a "bang", and immediately reunited after the two people passed by. There was no difference from before. Originally, She Zishu wanted to use resentment to cut them off, but Wu Yin stopped him, saying that it was useless. As they walked, Wu Yin kept talking.
"You really can't remember the things you forgot. Because when you escaped, you accidentally fell into the flow of reincarnation. Your memory was completely washed away... Generally speaking, people who are reincarnated in reincarnation are very pure. . Become a baby and come back to the world. All survival skills must be learned again. How to speak, how to walk, how to use tools..."
"But there are some things that are inherent in flesh and blood. They originate from mother, father, and mother's mother, all the way back to the very distant past. This is what people call instinct. Instinct is to make meaningless sounds, it is Grasping and swinging the legs are the persistence of life and the fear of death."
"Whether it is a human or anything else, the so-called instincts carried by the small body are the key to inducing more learning behaviors, just like the endosperm, egg white, butterfly chrysalis...their innate The inherent things will not disappear, they are the inherent parts buried deep in life forever. With instinct, there will be more in the future."
"In comparison, instinct and acquisition seem even smaller, but everything that follows is based on this. And you, you are different. The memories you experienced the day after tomorrow have been washed away and changed. You have to be like a baby. But you can still talk, walk, and even use extremely complex spells. Because these are all 'instincts' firmly engraved on your body."
She Zishu straightened the painting tube on his shoulder and looked at his outstretched hand. She stared at the back of her hands seriously, then turned them over one after another to examine the palms of her hands. Listening to Wu Yin's words, she had a strange feeling, as if this body did not belong to her, but she was just borrowing it. She thought for a moment and asked:
"It's like...I've been in my twenties since I was born."
"Yes, because your body is so big compared to a baby. And... you should have discovered it after so long. You don't feel hungry very much, and you can basically maintain the operation of your body by relying on your spiritual power. So , there is quite a feeling of cultivating immortality by eating rosy flowers and drinking dew. But it is not like that, just because you are not human flesh and blood. You are human, but you are not human either."
"Can you speak more clearly?"
"You are made of human beings." Wu Yin paused for a moment, then continued walking without looking back. "The dead person's bone powder is mixed with the tomb soil, supplemented with blood and corpse water, and bone china is burned with hell fire. Then corpse wax, corpse oil, and nails and teeth are repaired. The hair of the deceased is sewn onto the treated human skin. , fill the eyeballs, and apply makeup with blood. You must have discovered that even after such a long time, not only are you not hungry easily, but your hair and nails must have never grown."
"...How, how could it be?"
She Zishu stopped.
"Stop pretending." Wu Yin turned around and said coldly, "If you stay with humans for too long, you will indeed imitate those emotions. But you will not really feel like this after all. Think carefully about whether you are used to learning from others, Is it easy for you to do whatever you want? You don't think too much about what humans say, because it is the doll's "instinct" to follow instructions and imitate. It is also easier for you to get close to humans than monsters because you are not only made of humans, but also It uses humans as a template to cast spells."
The moment Wu Yin finished speaking, the slight panic on her face disappeared. She immediately lost all expression, as if the last petal had finally fallen off. But before that, it was already withered. Calm as a dead man, stiff as a dead man, cold as a dead man. This is her, this is what she really looks like.
It was not that there was no such premonition, but when all this was stated personally by an insider, She Zishu still felt a different kind of emptiness. It was as if she was listening to other people's stories, but she didn't have much real feelings of her own; none of the intense human emotions could arise in her. After taking away the disguise given by her smart expression, what is left of her?
"As I thought, even when you hear this, you won't have emotions like fear, surprise, sadness, etc. Because you don't have a heart, you are a creation. What occupies the position of the heart is a plant from The other side of hell is your soul. It is deeply rooted in your body. The roots are like your tendons and spread throughout your limbs. This inhuman part drives you to behave like hunting humans and to kill others. nourished by flesh and blood, real flesh and blood.”
Shezihua——Manzhushahua. That's her name. She is She Zishu.
"Real flesh and blood." She unconsciously touched the painting tube with her nowhere hand and repeated mechanically.
"You know, right? I said that you are the puppet queen. There are many others of your kind. But you are the first one, unique, carefully carved, and endowed with the soul of a flower. Soul, bone, and flesh. , is possessed by human beings, in other words, it is a necessary condition for forming human beings. Those soulless bodies will only pursue human beings blindly, thirsting for souls that do not belong to them. And you long for flesh and blood, but again, those flesh and blood are only It will be transformed into spiritual power by you and become the fuel for action."
"I have no heart?"
She tapped her chest gently and heard a lonely echo.
"I have no heart," she said. "I am a human and I am a monster. But then I am neither a human nor a monster."
"Maybe you can think of it this way. But the only thing we can't figure out is why you want to leave? You are an important member of us. Do you yearn for freedom just because you are bound here? Or have you been buried deep in the world? Underground, there are only sunless dusk to accompany you all day long, so you long for the real sun? Or because there are no real similar people, so you have emotions such as loneliness? We have all thought about it, but we always feel that it is not the case, and each one is far-fetched. Every one of them can be refuted. But there is no need to ask you now, because you must not remember anything."
No……
Although I don’t remember it, maybe this way, I can reawaken the same thoughts.
She knew her reasons for leaving.
"The plague is also spread by us." Wu Yin further explained, "In order to increase the raw materials for making puppets. Humans who died due to the plague will be more useful, not only because of the resentment of wasted death. Disease is the instinctive fear of human beings. One, disease means the damage of flesh and blood - the body is broken. The disease we extracted from the Wan Gu Pool is very clever. It causes people's flesh and blood to break. In addition, it also corrodes people's minds. They can no longer Constraining behavior with reason instead liberates instincts, longing for new, healthy, readily available flesh and blood. Such instincts will drive them to attack the living until everyone around them is infected. Of course, we can also control this range Yes, because there will always be 'meddlesome people' who come to interfere. The Lord of Naraku also understands that we are very aware of this happening and know that everything will be suppressed. There are too many human beings, and there are not only those who survive in the world. Humanity, it doesn’t hurt to lose this part.”
"Ah... Ten Thousand Gu Ponds..." She said this somewhat familiar name.
"That is... an extremely dangerous thing. Don't we know how terrible it is. But for these and more reasons, we will not fill it up. Even if it is the source of the expansion of all diseases and the habitat of all poisons Therefore, all evils will be blamed in the end.”
The two looked at each other in silence. Those sticky threads are still intertwined, and from time to time there is light passing through them. There are finer, carpet-like silk threads on the walls. Their light is very weak and cannot be seen without looking carefully. This is a moving swarm of insects. They change their distribution and regroup according to someone's will. It may also be their own will, the collective will.
"I want to ask you," Wu Yin said to the expressionless Zi Shu, "we are indeed curious, like you - now you, abandon imitation, do you really desire to have a heart? A heart of your own? I think this is at least You can answer it now."
She Zishu just stood there indifferently.
"No," she said flatly, "Never."
"……that's true."
"That's right."
"The heart is... only by owning it can you know the feeling of longing for it. Only those who have had and lost their heart can truly regain it." The impulse of the soul, even if it is to seize. It is the heart that tells you that it is very important. People who do not have a heart in the beginning cannot really have the curiosity and motivation to seek the heart. Therefore, the Death Shadow Pavilion has never created a real life. .”
"Because the heart is - something that cannot be made?"
"Well, you understand. The people of Death Shadow Pavilion are well versed in the principles of yin and yang and the five elements. They give people their own memories in the soil - that is, the memory of the earth; water is the source of life and shapes the human body; It is based on wood, refined with fire, and carved with gold after drying. Even such a perfect creation is still just an empty shell."
"The body is...a container for the soul and also a container for the heart." She Zishu murmured.
"Can you say that?"
"I came here for my friend... it should be called this." She said, "It seems to have lost its meaning now. I'm not sure. Maybe I haven't seen her yet, so I don't know the answer."
"This obsession is something we don't know. But in fact, this sword led you here, not to pursue your friend. Your sword once stabbed Yingyue Jun's soul together with her. Hers The bones were stored in the Death Shadow Pavilion, and you were guided here. What you passed through were the six spiritual veins, and the souls of the flowers born here protected you from harm. Although you only felt it for a while, in fact, outside Months have passed.”
"Can I still see her, my friend?"
"Okay. The thieves thought they hid her well enough that even the resentment could not be found. In fact, we all know that, and this is also part of our plan. But before that, I want to show you how to take you with me. People who come to this world.”
Wu Yin's hand pointed to the deep darkness behind the heavy threads. He went on to say:
"Maybe you don't want to see her, but she definitely wants to see you. Although... forget it. No matter it's time or not, if you don't see her, you won't have a chance. I know you won't have any regrets, but she is still a human being. She will. She is the guide for us all, including you. Our Master, our Mistress, our sister, our friend, our loved one.”
There seems to be no reason to refuse. Just like the meaning of the creation of a doll, just follow the guidance of people.
She took another step towards Siyuan.
