"Although it's a pity, there is nothing we can do about it." Liu Shenghan commented, "In that kind of place, the Six Paths Impermanence can't sense those lost souls. It can be said that it is a good thing to have the Great Tengu."
"Well - this is what I said, why I fought with the Tengu. After losing the only little prince, it finally attacked me. I can understand that this means a bit of taking away people's love - but It must also know that I didn’t end up like this just to kill them!”
"Are you really that powerful?" Aoyan and Shenghan both raised their eyebrows, clearly questioning.
"You guys are going too far." Qi Huan shook his head and said, "But, it seems that I was very successful in hiding my strength along the way."
"I'm just kidding." Liu Shenghan said with a smile, "I have thought about you a long time ago... I think you are also very special. In the deep sea, when you punched the rock to pieces to save me, , I was just thinking——"
"If I had known that nothing would happen to you, I wouldn't have exposed it so quickly!" Qi Huan rolled his eyes, "You said I was hiding it from you, but you were hiding it from us too."
Bai Ya in front suddenly said: "Aoyan, help me hammer him."
Like a soldier who had received an order, Jun Aoyan suddenly raised his hand and punched Qi Huan on the head. He was in terrible pain and covered his head, seriously suspecting that the force contained something private.
"So what is your background?"
Before he could complain, Aoyan asked. He rubbed his head and rolled his eyes.
"Perhaps you should remember some of the things I said before...I said I was a young master's book boy. But in fact, I am not, I am that young master. I, too, come from a wealthy family."
"So when you put cloth strips on your hands, you don't want to reveal that you have never done any work and that you don't have calluses on your hands, right?"
"Hey, I still have to practice martial arts. There are a bunch of messy things to learn and practice. I have been exhausted since I was a child. I only wear this thing to block my family crest - I don't like it. I belong to my family. I was their only son, so they forced me to do everything. I got tired of it, so I ran away."
Aoyan grabbed his wrist, and he suddenly pulled it back, not wanting to show it to her. He seemed to still be concerned about this, so Aoyan didn't insist on pulling him over to see him.
"So it was you who wanted to catch that water ghost?"
Bai Ya asked suddenly. The two people didn't know what they were talking about, so they just listened. Qi Huan sighed.
"Well... that's true. But at that time, my onmyoji was not good enough to save myself. The book boy who had been studying with me jumped into the water to replace me - he could have gone directly to report the news to the adults, and then It's a normal thing, but it's not. Because he knows that when I call someone, I won't even find the body. He has no parents, and everyone in our family bullies him. He said that I am the only one who is good to him. If there was any difficulty, he would sacrifice his life to repay it. I just smiled at the time, thinking he was just... expressing his emotions. But I didn't expect that not only did he do it, but he did it so suddenly and so quickly."
"this……"
"I'm good at everything, but I'm not good at anything. Along the way, you should also have discovered the clues. I am the best in onmyoji, because this is our family business, a family of onmyojis. But from the bottom of my heart, I These are very contradictory. My parents can no longer have children and are too old. Only when I grew up did I realize that compared to others, they could almost be my younger grandparents. They put all the burden on me and forced me to do everything. Just ask me to do it. In fact, I am not the eldest son. I am just lucky. I was born with strong spiritual roots. It is the star they hope for.
The stars and the moon hope for the good seedlings. They don't care about the inheritance of the eldest son, they just want to revive the family name. In order to speak well to the outside world, my brother and sister are obviously biological flesh and blood, but they say to the outside world that they are adopted. "
"Your brothers and sisters...don't you care?"
"Don't care - because they don't know! They think they really picked it up!"
Everyone else was stunned. Ao Yan stuttered a little: "This, this... then how did you-"
"What they told me, they told me since I was a child, in order to let me understand how heavy the meaning is. I believed it deeply at first, and I had doubts when I was a teenager. But based on their expectations of me and... ...pressure, I can tell to some extent that this is probably the truth. Even if I tell my siblings about this, they won't believe it - they are too superstitious about the authority of their parents. After all, they were picked up How can I complain about the orphan I raised? Later, by chance, I met the midwife who came back to visit her relatives. I was the last child she delivered. She left with a lot of money and stopped doing this. She told me This is really what happened. But the people who followed me secretly discovered this - although nothing happened after I returned home, I heard from my brother that the mother-in-law who carried them to the house...actually It was the midwife who died suddenly on the street for some unknown reason. I think this was probably done intentionally by my parents and conveyed this way on purpose. It was my fault, I shouldn't have contacted her, she should have taken the family's money and fled away... Why did she Are you coming back?"
"Are they crazy?!"
"I'm probably crazy. I've never been normal. I have to be watched wherever I go, and they have to take care of everything I do. I've been like this since I was a child. When I go back, I have to take care of my family. I won't show you how many injuries I have on my body - -I had a meal out and came home late. They could immediately send someone to take me home. Am I a prisoner? I'm over twenty!" It seemed like this was the first time they heard Qi Huan say dirty words. "I gradually learned that they actually... don't love me, just because I am the only suitable heir. So I can understand Aoyan very well - not all parents in the world love their children, no."
"..."
"Then I ran away and ran to Jiutian Kingdom. I thought they would never find me again."
"Huan'er is our family's only hope."
My parents always say this. Is hope something valuable? As a young person, I could not understand the meaning of this sentence. All I know is that hope is the fire that lights the future. And this is also the metaphor my private school teacher told me. Fire is very important. Without fire, you cannot boil water for cooking; the future is also very important...such as what you will eat tonight.
The food is always good and expensive, just for kids. But some of the food is not delicious, tastes bitter in the mouth, and does not look good. I didn't eat it, but my parents and servants all coaxed me, saying it was good for my health. How can a child understand this? Then change the cook to one that can make the supplements delicious, no matter how bad it is, it doesn’t matter if it looks good. If you just capture the child's mind, you can trick him into his mouth.
The clothes are also nice and expensive, but I don’t like them. At first it was too fancy, like a girl's. Occasionally I go out on the street to be seen by other children, just to make fun of me. Secondly, the quality is not good and it will break if you pull it. After all, silk and satin fabrics are not considered strong. On the contrary, I like the clothes of the servants' children. I helped with the work when I was a child, so the fabrics are very durable. I have always been naughty. Only by jumping up and down in this kind of clothes can I not be bad or get scolded. Anyway, I just came back as soon as possible and secretly changed it. I was clever and was not discovered even once.
It wasn’t until I grew up that I realized the consequences of being discovered. I still think about it today
Come on, I'll break out in a cold sweat.
But the punishment I and those around me received far outweighed the small price we should have paid. The training on weekdays is also rigorous, and I can't escape it no matter what. But then I gradually discovered that if I had completed the tasks I was supposed to do, and ran out at this time, at least I would not injure others. However, my parents are always not satisfied with my performance.
As a young child, I was forced to think about the meaning of what I was carrying.
"Xiao Huan is the luckiest."
Siblings always say that. They are my flesh and blood, but I have to keep this secret in my heart. But everyone's treatment is similar - even much easier than mine, so it's inevitable that I'll feel unhappy. When I complained, my siblings would say this, telling me how privileged it was to be the only "eldest son" in my family who happened to be so talented.
Just right...is it really just right? It just so happens, is it really a good thing?
When you are hit by a stone of luck in life, you will feel a little scared, fearing that you will lose it soon or pay some other price. I have never felt this way, I just feel that I have been paying this price.
However, finding joy in suffering has always been a human ability. Although the children in the courtyard can't play with me, I can still play with the ones on the street? The older children all avoid me. My parents have taught them that they cannot offend the family. How can ordinary people afford it if something bad happens? The younger ones are a little afraid of me. After all, I look too glamorous, and I am not the same person as the grey-faced ones. But I always come out with delicious and fun things, just like attracting small animals. Slowly, they are also willing to play with me. In the beginning, I was the biggest of them all. Later, the children of relatives or servants of the family would also come out and join us - including my book boy.
It was a carefree and happy time. Maybe...it's not particularly worry-free. I still have to worry about what happens after I get home. So most of the time, I was competing with my parents, siblings, teaching gentlemen, various masters, and guards. I think too much and my mouth is too slippery, probably due to this reason.
If found out, he will be severely beaten and imprisoned. My mother was reluctant to take action, but my father was the most ruthless. I really don't like my dad because he doesn't spend much time at home throughout the year. I heard that the old man is always running around, constantly interacting with various dignitaries and onmyoji families. I don't understand why my father was so cruel to me. The thorns on my thorns were poisonous. My mother or the medicine man had to apply medicine on me for a long time. I wake up in pain when I turn over at night. My brothers and sisters said that the old man’s expectations were too deep and he desperately hoped that I could take charge of my own business. So when he saw me like this, he just hated iron and could not become steel, so he beat me for my own good.
I really don't understand - because among the children I play with, some of their parents are working as laborers in Beppu, or they are in business all year round. When they come back, they always bring all kinds of weird gadgets for the children. Even if you are empty-handed, at least you are very gentle to them. If he is beaten to a pulp by his mother because he is too naughty, he will cry like a wolf and call him daddy, because his father never beats him and even helps break up fights.
I'm so envious.
I don't like my mother much either. In my eyes, my mother is also a two-faced person. On the surface, I feel so distressed, and I say how much I love me, but the family law is strictly enforced, even more so. But she always shed tears, her eyes full of heartache, and kept telling her family's difficulties.
Mouth and voice, weeping and blood.
