Hesta suddenly regretted talking to Rico about Anna's message - Rico was very smart, and even though she didn't mention the first meeting with Anna at all, she immediately guessed that Chiba was acting suspiciously in the whole thing. .
"I don't think so." Hestad could only say hard words in an understatement, "Maybe this is part of Anna's plan. She just wants to see us being suspicious of each other -"
"What kind of plot is this? What does this have to do with Anna? I'll just talk about Qianye. With her abilities, she said she would keep you vigil, so why did she let you run around?"
"I don't know...but I don't want to ask either."
"Do you not want to ask or are you afraid to ask?"
"...Why do you think so?" Hesta frowned, "The trust between us -"
"Listen to me, I have always trusted Chiba, but that is trust in her ability: if she says she wants to do something, she will be able to do it. That's all I believe. If one day she promises If something is not done, I will immediately suspect that she has another purpose - this is also based on trust in her ability."
"I agree with this to a certain extent," Hesta said in a low voice, "What I question is what you said about 'dare not'. There is nothing daring in this, I just..."
"I know Qianye is very good to you, and you have always been harmonious, because she has never used any powerful means on you before--"
"She won't do it in the future either. Even if I sometimes have reservations about her, it's not because I don't dare -"
"What do you think I mean when I say 'dare not'?" Rico interrupted Hesta again, "Of course I know that you didn't speak up not because you were afraid of her, but because you were afraid that you would tell Chiba all these things. After you tell her, you will suddenly realize that she is no longer the Chiba you trusted before!"
"…Riko."
"I've wanted to say it for a long time," Rico took a deep breath, "If you really trust someone, you shouldn't hold anything back at this time. You should ask Qianye what he thinks. ——Last time, I suspected that you had the same reaction, Si Lei. Can you maintain trust without asking, even if you already have doubts in your heart? I see many things that I just keep sulking in my heart, and finally something goes wrong. ——When did you change? You have to be so cautious, you have never been like this before."
"Stop reading Rico...I have a headache."
"Tomorrow I will ask Qianye what is going on. When I come back, will you listen?"
Hesta was silent for a while and did not answer.
Rico withdrew her hand, she held her face with one hand and looked at Hesta, "Do you remember that in the first few days when you came to the base, I rarely showed up."
Hesta thought for a while: "...I don't remember."
"During that time, I was quarreling with Liz. I even wrote the online application for changing apartments, but it was kept in the draft box and not submitted."
"...There is such a thing," Hesta raised her head with a puzzled expression, "What are you arguing about?"
"I have forgotten the specific reason for the quarrel. I just remember that during that time, I hated her very much..." Rico narrowed his eyes, "'Hypocrisy'."
"Hypocrisy?" Hesta supported the mattress with her left hand and half raised her upper body. "Whoever you say is hypocritical can't be blamed on Liz—"
"You are quite hypocritical now."
Hesta was speechless for a moment.
"You people all have a habit. Whenever you see a door ajar, you assume that it cannot be opened. You always have this tacit understanding - it will be rude to come any closer, and you will be misunderstood and misunderstood if you come any closer. I refused, but you care about the person behind the door, so how could you not break in and take a look?
"Liz once told me a story about porcupines. Has she told you about it? Just two porcupines keep warm in the winter. If they are close, they will sting, and if they are far away, they will be cold. So you have to find a suitable position to keep warm at the same time. They don't hurt each other - she just likes to listen to these nonsensical stories. Askia is very prosperous. I don't think she has even seen a porcupine. Porcupines sleep close to each other in winter. Stick it backwards and sideways... Porcupines are not stupid, they keep their quills away when they are safe, so how can they prick other pigs at every turn?"
Hesta was about to say something, but Rico continued.
"I know your logic, 'Human nature is untestable, and if you value a relationship you should avoid putting it to the test.' You all have that sense of self-consciousness - stop before things get out of hand, stop before you become Stop before you become hysterical, so as to leave room for yourself and others... You are all civilized people, you are advanced."
"Riko..."
"Do you know what I think?" Li Ge lowered his voice, but his voice still contained some uncontrollable emotions, "If things really get out of hand, I would rather not have that leeway to find out what happened. What, how do you know if the person behind the door doesn't want to open the door for you, or if she is too weak to open the door, maybe... the person on the other side of the door needs you too? "
Hesta looked at Rico with a complicated expression. The two looked at each other for a long time, and Rico withdrew his gaze first.
"The thing I regret most now is that I didn't write a complaint letter to Office 004 after I knew that Liz helped the police station from time to time... This is the thing I regret the most, just because I know Liz has her own Ideas, she always has a reason.”
Hesta closed her eyes and hugged Rico again.
"I beg you to stop engaging in such nonsense," Rico whispered, "If you want to know anything, just ask."
"...There will be no answer."
"How do you know if you haven't even spoken?"
"I know." Hesta replied, "Tomorrow, no matter what you ask Miss Chiba, she will definitely not say anything."
"Then why are you going to ask?"
"Same." Hesta's voice was low as he recalled what he saw tonight. "'If you want to understand everything, you must stand in the game yourself. If you don't take risks, you can't enter the game.' - Anna has already written in her letter It’s clear.”
Rico was silent for a while.
"Maybe that's why I can't stay in District 3. I can never figure out or bother to figure out what you guys are thinking in your heads."
"District 12, is it fun?"
"It's fun," Rico's fingers circled Hesta's hair, "Come and see me when you don't have a mission, and you'll find out."
"That shouldn't take long... maybe next summer."
"Summer is great. Although tourists have flocked to the island in summer these past few years, I know several islands that are not open to the public. If you come, I can take you fishing. There are also some on the main land of District 12. Several patches of forest allow for hunting in the fall.
(End of chapter)
