"Who dares to treat you like this?"
"Oh, there are many." Ava looked at Qianye, "The same goes for you."
Chiba didn't take it seriously, "When is your surgery?"
"This afternoon."
Chiba's eyes were lowered, as if she was chewing a fact that was hard for her to swallow. After a long time, she raised her head and said, "Are you going to die, Ava?"
Ava didn't answer immediately. She looked at Qianye and said, "How did I teach you before?"
"...Don't think about death, just think about how to live."
"Yes, you still remember," Ava's eyebrows stretched, "You came to see me this time specifically to ask these boring questions?"
"right."
"Nothing else?"
"what else?"
"Is there anything you want to ask about Hesta?"
Qianye laughed suddenly. She lowered her head and buried her face in the palm of her left hand again. "Who do you think I am... the kind of person in a livable land. When a child becomes rebellious, there is nothing you can do about her." A young mother?”
The corners of Ava's mouth raised slightly, "Oh, aren't you."
"Of course not. I will personally find out what happened and I will find out everything. No one can deceive me," Qianye looked deeply at the person in front of him, "You can't either-"
"But what's the use?" Ava answered slowly, "You have found out everything, but Hesta is still lying in the hospital."
"I really haven't thought about this, why on earth did you—"
"You know Qianye," Ava interrupted Qianye again, and she said quietly, "It is entirely your responsibility that Hesta will reach this point."
Chiba was stunned for two seconds: "...what?"
"Oh, are you surprised? Looking at me with this expression," Ava narrowed her eyes, "Then let me say it again, you are to blame for Hesta reaching this point."
"Am I to blame?" Qianye's anger suddenly emerged, "I didn't intend to argue with you about this matter. If you hadn't gone behind my back -"
"Hesta is twenty years old this year," Ava interrupted Chiba for the third time, "What were you doing when you were twenty? What is she doing now?"
"She has her own life, she doesn't have to repeat mine!"
"Her own life...ha, haha," Ava looked at Qianye with great ridicule, "You are referring to the fact that she has been sent to fight everywhere by ahgas over the years. She has been born and died but has no name. Not only does she place all the goals of her life on To avenge some close relatives who have been dead for many years, and after the great revenge is avenged, do you then turn around and torture yourself into the hospital?"
Ava admired Chiba's angry but silent expression, and concluded leisurely:
"This is not called life, Chiba, this is called a joke."
The entire ward became completely quiet. Chiba's hands were completely clenched into fists, her breathing was almost trembling, and Ava could even see the wrinkled skin on the bridge of her nose and hear the faint sound of grinding her teeth.
After a while, Chiba suddenly breathed a sigh of relief. She bent down and held her forehead with both hands.
"You're right, Ava, I'm a terrible guardian...I just don't know how to raise a child."
Ava looked at her quietly for a while, then withdrew her gaze: "I checked your visit records over the years, and you didn't go back to the base to see her a few times throughout the year. I originally thought you didn't pay much attention to this child... It wasn't until you came to Bruno to see me last time that I realized that things might not be as I thought. You seemed to take her very seriously...I don't understand, why? "
Chiba didn't answer. She rubbed her eyebrows and raised her head after a long time. "...What is the problem? If you know, can you tell me?"
Ava looked deeply, "You're not honest enough."
"Candid?"
"You don't dare to teach her your true abilities, even if those are the roads you have trodden yourself...you are so scared."
Chiba immediately frowned, "I didn't!"
"You don't have to argue with me. You know it yourself," Ava said calmly. "You have great ideas on some trivial matters. In the first few months after entering the base, Hesta dared to teach others a lesson with a gun. A reserve who has awakened for the second time - I don't believe you didn't muddy the waters in this matter.
"What about real life choices? Have you ever ordered Hesta to go as you expected? Do you have a clear framework of requirements for her? When she comes up with some childish ideas, have you ever stopped her? Give her a lesson?"
Before Chiba could answer, Ava had already spoken, "You absolutely didn't."
"Order her to do what I expect..." Chiba looked at Ava with disgust, "You have tried it all on me, does it work?"
"No," Ava's voice was resounding, "What is the purpose of the frame? It is not used to restrict her, but to support her - she is a living person, and it is your business to set any rules for her. , she may not always abide by it, but if you are determined, she will feel your determination, and she will learn to set her own standards from the collision with you - isn't that how you got here?"
"...Why do we have to torture each other like this?"
"Because she is a mercury needle, you will never fantasize about letting her get any worldly happiness."
"I have no such illusions, and I know very well that it is impossible—but what if she just wanted to be an ordinary mercury needle, or—"
"Then have you asked her?" Ava looked at Chiba's expression, "You seem to be very unwilling to let Hesta repeat your old ways."
"...She 'should' have her own choice." Chiba whispered.
Ava didn't refute. She looked sideways again and looked at the mountains on the wall.
"Qianye, I've been lying here for more than a month, and something has been swirling in my mind."
"What?"
"Chelation disease will one day end, and humans will completely conquer it, just like other diseases that have brought us heavy costs... By that time, ahgas is destined to exit the stage of history along with chelation disease, mercury What will be the fate of the needles?
"Have you seen those signal towers that go deep into habitable areas? Even if the chelates disappear, those signal towers that were built will still not fall down. Everything we do today to deal with chelates will not be the same in the future. It will all be our turn – at the end of the day, for most people, there’s not much difference between mercury needles and chelates.”
Ava looked at Chiba again.
"I probably won't see such a day, but what about you and Hesta? Look at the fourteen regions now under the joint government, look at these civilizations and their internal order, even if there is any place in between Is it a place you want to live in for a long time after leaving ahgas?
"If you are unfortunate enough to encounter that day in your lifetime, what will be your fate... have you ever thought about it?"
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