When I was twenty years old, I felt like a wild horse that had finally broken free from the shackles of my family, and the vast world was free for me to roam.
At thirty years old, I feel like I should be like a wolf, lonely, wild, and tough.
No matter how hard it is, we should take responsibility for our small family, but life beats us like a cow, so we put away the edge in our hearts and bow down in front of life.
I feel that there are two paths before me now, either like a wolf, bravely facing the wind and rain, or like a cow, obeying the arrangements of life.
Should I surrender or give it a try? Life has put this question in front of me.
I thought about it all the way. Anyway, I only need to live this once. Living means waiting to die in the way you like.
I sent my parents home, but they were still angry. I said to them seriously: "Dad, Mom, no matter what, this matter has nothing to do with Feifei. We have the wrongdoer and the debtor, so don't throw a tantrum at her." !」
The parents were not in a very good mood, so they nodded and said nothing more.
After they went to wash up, I went downstairs to pick up Lin Feifei. It was so late and I was worried about her coming back alone.
Before going out, I also brought some cat food.
She must be in a bad mood right now, and the only thing that can cure her, apart from delicious food, are small animals.
After going downstairs, I called her. She and Deng Meijia broke up on bad terms and were walking to the community, so I followed the way I came from to meet her.
The surrounding buildings and streets were shrouded in darkness, with only the dim street lights shining on her. Her figure looked particularly lonely, as if she was the only one left in the world.
I ran towards her quickly. This road was lonely and dead, but she was walking with me.
Lin Feifei raised her head and saw me, and smiled slightly, but there was an imperceptible bitterness at the corner of her mouth. She said, "I'm sorry about what happened tonight. I apologize to you on behalf of my mother. I really didn't expect it to happen like this."
I hugged her shoulders and pretended not to care, "Hey, don't take it to heart. I don't blame you for this. My parents understand you and asked me to advise you." Yeah! It’s okay!”
The more I said this, the more uncomfortable Lin Feifei felt. She sighed and said, "Don't come here anymore. I don't know you yet. When I hear you, you are comforting me. Even if my uncle and aunt don't say anything to me, they will definitely give birth to my mother." If you’re angry, you might even have to persuade us to break up!”
"..."
"Look, I was right! Your silence proves that I was right. I understand you, right?"
"Hehe, of course, you know my strengths and weaknesses, I know..."
"Shut up!"
"..."
Lin Feifei put her hand on mine, and the two of us walked into the community with our arms around each other. I began to take the initiative to review today's performance.
"Hey, your mother wants a gift of 300,000 yuan and buys a house in Dadu. What do you think?"
Lin Feifei suddenly stopped and rolled her eyes at me charmingly, "Tch, are you trying to trick me?"
"Let's use clichés, but not clichés."
"you……"
Lin Feifei's almond-shaped eyes were angry, and she reached out to touch my waist. She did it when she was told. The pain made me grin, and she didn't let me go until I repeatedly begged for mercy.
After she let go of her hand, I lifted up my shirt, and there was a patch of red under my left rib.
Lin Feifei sighed, with an unconcealable sadness in her brows, and immediately began to express her determination: "My mother and I argued with reason, three hundred thousand is too outrageous, let's put the house aside first, three hundred thousand How many ordinary families can afford it? Isn’t this selling their daughter?”
"Then you didn't quarrel with your mother, did you?"
Of course I believe in Lin Feifei's "enlightenment", but I'm afraid that her quarrel with Deng Meijia will affect her mood.
Lin Feifei took my hand and continued to walk forward. She looked at the dim street lights in front of her and said in a sad voice, "Noisy is inevitable. Don't say that 300,000 yuan is unacceptable to your family. I can't accept it either. I just feel that I'm sorry, uncle and aunt, for making them angry."
"Where are my parents? I'm gone."
Understand them, even if they are angry, they are still angry, and it has nothing to do with you. Our family is reasonable and does not engage in the same thing. "
"What about you?" Lin Feifei looked at me deeply.
I was stunned, "What's wrong with me?"
"My mother said that to you, and I'm afraid you'll take it to heart."
I smiled softly, "So you're worried about this! Don't worry! No."
"Tch! Comfort me again."
"I really didn't comfort you, what I said was true."
After asking for her permission, I lit a cigarette. The smoke spread under the street lamp, like a thin veil floating gently in the air.
Accompanied by the smell of tobacco and the burning light of fire, I spoke quietly:
"Today's young people, with this salary, they have to support their landlords and themselves, and they can save on food and drink. But with a house price of several million in front of me, except for being lucky and catching up with the trend, Otherwise, it would be difficult for me to buy a house by myself.”
I blew out a smoke ring and continued: "The accumulation of wealth actually depends on the efforts of one generation after another. They say it's easy to enjoy the shade under a big tree. I don't have grass growing under a big tree. I want to complete my class by myself." It's basically impossible to cross over, so your mother looks down on me and thinks I'm a poor person. I don't blame myself at all, but if I really talk about blaming myself..."
Lin Feifei blinked her watery almond eyes, "What?"
"If I had to empty my parents' wallets and let them buy a house for me to find a wife, then I would blame myself."
Everyone wants to live a good life for their family. Being poor is not because my parents don’t work hard. They live in a remote small city, and their vision determines their limited abilities.
I met many people in big cities, such as Wu Shuang, Deng Meijia, Chen Liquan, Du Yue... On the surface, they are all glamorous and look like dogs, but in fact, their abilities are average and their level is limited. To put it bluntly, this world is just a grassroots team.
I don’t think that being unable to afford a house defines me as useless. I am kind to others, unite my colleagues, work hard and contribute actively, but in the end it turns out that I am wrong?
Is there any fucking reason for this?
Lin Feifei was freed from her panic. She breathed a sigh of relief and said, "It's good if you think so. I'm afraid you will blame all the problems on yourself." 「
"How is that possible! Criticize others more and encourage yourself more so that you can live a more relaxed life. Let's not talk about this anymore. Let's feed the cat first!" I patted my satchel and said.
Lin Feifei feeds stray cats every day. Under the dim street lights, she takes out the prepared disposable lunch boxes, cat food and water.
She called softly a few times, and instantly two stray cats jumped out of the darkness, their tails wagging gently in the air, as if they were drawing arcs in the air.
I saw a kind of tranquility in her eyes. It's funny to say that the person who brought harm to her was actually the closest relatives around her, and the person who could comfort her riddled heart turned out to be an animal... …
