The atmosphere in the hospital always seems solemn and deep, like a silent piano playing the symphony of life and death. This kind of atmosphere is pervasive, permeating every corner, making people feel heavy.
I stared blankly at the blue door of the ICU, and my heart was tortured by a big hand, and I was exhausted.
There is only one door between my father and me, but there is a separation between life and death.
When I think of my father lying there with tubes inserted all over his body, my heart feels like it is blocked by something and I have nowhere to vent.
In addition to me, there were several family members in the corridor. They were all laying bunks on the floor in the corner of the corridor. Everyone was in a depressed mood, and the entire corridor seemed to be shrouded in gloom.
My back was stiff and I was leaning against the wall. At this time, a fat aunt came over and patted me on the shoulder.
"Young man, the ground is cold. Come and sit on Auntie's mat for a while."
I rolled my dry eyeballs, licked my chapped lips and said, "Thank you, auntie, I'm fine. I just need to sit here."
"Are you chaperone tonight?" Auntie asked.
I nodded, "Yes, I will accompany you."
As we were talking, other people also joined in. The eldest brother sitting next to me moved to the side, looked at me with red eyes and said, "You didn't bring a bedding with you. Come sit here with me for a while. No way." Your family is here to give you a set. It’s hard to sleep on the floor at night without a bedding.”
"No one is allowed on this floor at night. We have to go to the lobby on the first floor to find a place." The aunt just said again.
I nodded and forced a smile, "Okay, I understand, thank you."
The aunt smiled and said, "We are all companions. If you don't know where to lay the floor tonight or need any help, just ask anyone and they will tell you."
"Yes, young man, drink some water first to see if your mouth is dry."
After saying that, the elder brother sitting next to me stuffed a bottle of mineral water into my hand.
He patted me on the shoulder and said earnestly: "We have to take good care of ourselves. If we collapse, what will happen to the people inside? Our family members have to find someone to take care of us."
My heart moved, and I had to take care of myself for the sake of the people lying inside.
So I stopped being pretentious, unscrewed the bottle cap, and drank the entire bottle of water in one breath.
Maybe it was a similar experience; as the distance between us narrowed, I felt a little lonely in the hospital alone at first, but when I got along with them, my heart, soaked in tears, suddenly became hot.
The aunt who took the initiative to talk to me just now, I call her Aunt Xu, her husband has been in the ICU for three days. She has a daughter, and she and her daughter work shifts to take care of her. The eldest brother who gave me water, I call him Brother Lei. His father has also been in there for a few days. He also has a younger brother, but he is abroad, and he is the only one who is watching over him.
Overnight stays are not allowed on this floor. The first day I came here, I was like a headless fly. Fortunately, Brother Lei and Aunt Xu were here, so I didn't rush around like a fool.
I followed the large army to the first floor. Some people lay down on chairs, and some simply made beds on the floor.
Brother Lei spread the quilt on the floor and left half of it for me, "Brother, if you can't stay the night with me tonight, let your family come to give you something tomorrow."
I looked at the small mattress and shook my head. It was just right for him to sleep alone, but with me half on it, he could only curl up and sleep.
"No, I have a mat in the car." I remembered there was a yoga mat in the trunk.
"Okay then! If you need to speak, please speak."
"Who has a power bank? Can you lend it to me? My phone is out of battery." Someone asked next to me.
"I have it! I'll give it to you." A middle-aged woman said.
I watched them borrowing things from each other, and Aunt Xu smiled and said, "That's what we companions are like. If anyone has trouble, just ask for help. If there is trouble, everyone will help."
I was suddenly deeply moved. In the past, when I was struggling in the workplace, all I saw was the complex side of human nature. If you are too kind and emotional, you may be taken advantage of by others. Everything is linked to interests, and I get hurt a lot. , and gradually learned to live with a mask on, and be wary of everyone.
But the life in front of me
All kinds of things made me see the brilliance of human nature.
I used to only think about making money to buy a car and a house, but I never thought that besides making money, I could do something for others.
Life is like a mirror, except that the workplace reflects the greed and madness of human nature, while the eyes before us reflect life and death, and the warmth and warmth of human relationships.
I was lying on the yoga mat, my head was dizzy, but I couldn't fall asleep. To be honest, I couldn't accept it yet, but I had to accept it.
While I was half asleep and half awake, my phone suddenly rang. I picked it up and saw that it was Lin Feifei making a video call to me.
I quickly got up and walked out of the hall before answering the call.
"Hey, hubby, why did it take you so long to answer? Hey... why are you still out so late?" Lin Feifei crawled on the bed holding the plush and looking at me with a smile.
"I'm in the hospital! My dad is hospitalized..."
I sighed and told her everything that happened in the afternoon.
Lin Feifei sat up immediately, "Oh my God! Why didn't you tell me about such a big thing earlier?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "I didn't mean to hide it from you. There are too many things to do."
"Give me the address of the hospital and I will go there tomorrow."
"Farewell, farewell. You just took two weeks of leave and now you're taking it again. It's not appropriate."
Lin Feifei almost got angry with me on the phone, "What's inappropriate! If such a big thing happens at home, of course I have to go there. It's okay to ask for leave. Whoever has nothing at home can send me the hospital address quickly. I Buy the earliest high-speed train tomorrow."
When she said that, I was so moved.
I sent her the address and she comforted me with a few words. It was my first time experiencing this kind of thing, but life will never prepare you. I could only tell myself repeatedly in my heart that everything will be fine.
After I went back, I lay there for a while, and just about to fall asleep, I was suddenly woken up by a burst of crying.
"What's wrong?" I sat up and turned my head to look for the cry.
Brother Lei turned over and said to me without opening his eyes: "The family members are crying. It must be that the patient is dying. Go to sleep! This kind of thing happens several times a night."
"Sleep! Save your energy."
He was calm and his tone was a little numb, obviously he was used to it.
Sure enough, there were several crying sounds during the night. I started to feel a little uncomfortable, but I was so sleepy that I fell asleep.
I only slept for about three or four hours that night. When I woke up, I found that I was covered with a woman's coat.
I turned around and saw Aunt Xu smiled at me, "I covered it for you. It's cold in the hospital at night, so don't catch a cold."
"Thank you... thank you..." I wanted to say thank you, but my throat suddenly choked.
Although the world is full of holes, there are always people who can mend it.
Everyone here has their own story. During the chat, I realized that I was actually living a very happy life.
