I have always told Lin Feifei that if she wants to share her life, that’s fine, but if she relies on vlogging to make money, I’m afraid she will be disappointed.
Sometimes I do something for utilitarian purposes and often only pursue results. Including my live broadcast, now it is threatened by the word traffic. It seems to be a luxury to be able to truly settle down and do something.
When I was doing live broadcasts in the past, what I did every day seemed to be mixed with too much utilitarianism. I only wanted others to like it and ignored my original intention when I started. Now that I am doing live broadcasts alone, in addition to making money, I want to enjoy the process.
The same goes for Lin Feifei when she vlogs. She desperately wants a result and becomes very impatient.
I want her to calm down and enjoy the process, but there are some things that I cannot say directly. I can only patiently explain them to her while doing it.
I just finished filming a scene where she opens the curtains, and now I have to transition to making breakfast.
I had already prepared the ingredients for her to take photos of.
Avocado, shrimp and egg sandwich.
Paired with a small portion of blueberries, green berries, and a few almonds, it's simple and exquisite.
These ingredients are basically a combination that won’t go overboard in breakfast.
After taking pictures of breakfast, the shooting came to an end for now and we started to enjoy breakfast.
Lin Feifei wore no makeup, and the laziness in her expression was natural.
She took a big bite of her sandwich and complained to me in an incomprehensible voice: "Vlogging is so troublesome. I overthought it at first, but I didn't expect it to be anything but simple."
I ate a blueberry and said seriously: "The videos you are watching were all shot and edited and cut again and again. It's not that easy, just take your time!"
Lin Feifei pouted, "After I posted my first video, Song Tong didn't pay much attention to me. Maybe it's because I'm too aggressive, hahaha..."
She laughed at herself, and I curled my lips and said, "I think you should return to your original intention when making this thing. If you expect it to be realized in a short time, I don't think it is possible, but if your starting point is just to share your life The little beauty in it may be able to make some achievements.”
"Original intention?"
"Well, yes, return to the original intention."
Lin Feifei winked playfully, "Is it possible that my original intention is to make money?"
"..."
I suddenly didn't know what to say.
Lin Feifei saw that I was taking me seriously and gave me a helpless look, "I'm kidding you. In the past few days, I saw that you didn't take many notes in order to help me shoot this vlog. I think I started to get a little carried away by you. You're right, I should regard it as a share in life. As for making money, just take your time..."
I breathed a sigh of relief.
That she can fall in love with me, a poor boy, proves that she is not a person who cares about money or wealth. Compared with money, she pays more attention to spirit.
With her character, blindly pursuing money will only make her miserable.
This vlog was shot for more than a dozen paragraphs, then cut into one piece and set to music. I will leave these subsequent tasks to Lin Feifei. I can help her the first time, but she has to adapt to facing it alone. For us, People who do live broadcasts and bloggers must live alone and form a team.
In the evening, Lin Feifei edited her videos and I did my live broadcast. I suddenly felt like I was back in high school, sprinting hard with the girl I liked.
I suddenly felt a little lucky that I was injured this time, otherwise I wouldn't be able to accompany him day and night.
After Lin Feifei finished editing the video, she rubbed her sore eyes, said hello to me, and went to have her beauty sleep.
When the broadcast reached midnight, I delayed the next broadcast because I was waiting for a customer to pay.
After this customer paid the payment, I was about to download the broadcast, and suddenly a new fan named "Only the Shadow Accompanying Me" appeared.
Only the shadow is with me: [Anchor, can you chat with me for a few words? 】
I was stunned. I have been in the live broadcast room for so long, and this is the first time I have seen such a request for companionship.
I hesitated for a moment. After talking for four hours, I was already very tired. Besides, there was a high probability that I wouldn’t buy anything.
thing.
But his ID made me soften. How could I have been like this before, with only my shadow accompanying me?
I took a sip of water, adjusted my posture, and said with a full smile, "Of course, I can't sleep even after the broadcast, so I'll chat with you for ten yuan."
Only the shadow stayed with me: [Thank you, host. I just wanted to find someone to chat with for a while, but I visited several live broadcast rooms and no one paid attention to me. 】
The anchors are busy bringing goods, so chatty questions will probably be ignored when they are busy.
I don’t mind going off the air a little later. The live broadcast is always in a state of excitement. Even after the airing ends, I can’t fall asleep for a while.
I smiled and said, "It's okay. Tell me, did you encounter something unsatisfactory in life?"
Only the shadow is with me: [A few days ago, I lost my job. I don’t dare to tell my family now. I can only tell it in the dead of night. I don’t know who to talk to about these things. I’m sorry to disturb you...]
These words touched my heartstrings. Lin Feifei and I have both experienced unemployment, and the confusion and anxiety are still very clear when we think about it now.
I smiled bitterly and said with emotion: "I'm not tired of talking about this. It's so powerful. I just lost my job at the beginning of last year. Being an anchor is really a coincidence..."
This friend in the live broadcast room seemed to have found a soulmate and posted several messages in a row. The last one he posted was particularly eye-catching.
Only the shadow accompanies me: [Then can you tell me how to succeed? 】
I was stunned for a moment, couldn't help but smile, took a sip of water, and muttered: "I think we should not think about how to succeed, but how to face failure."
【fail? 】
I nodded: "Yes, failure! Because failure is the main theme of life. For us ordinary people, we may have to face family of origin, school bullying, workplace PUA, buying a house or car, life-long events... We may have to face There are many, many setbacks. In fact, when we are young, we never worry about failure, but as we grow older, we start to consider the results first and weigh the pros and cons of everything, and gradually we lose the energy we had when we were young..."
The past flashed before my eyes like a movie, reminding me of the unbearable experiences in the past. Now I can finally use them as conversation topics and face the bleak past.
I am thirty, unmarried, and have no hope of taking root in a big city. From a secular perspective, I am undoubtedly a complete loser. But life is a wilderness, not a track. We should not live in a system defined by others. Here, lose yourself.
After so many years of drifting, I have had my moments of glory, and I have also lost myself. Success is only temporary, and failure is the main theme.
Those distant memories, like a photo, keep appearing in front of my eyes. Those unbearable past events have always made me miserable, but when you look at them, you find that they are not that terrible...
