In the past, I always wanted to find a reason to put down the stress and stay away from the hustle and bustle of the city. I used to be a person who liked liveliness. During the holidays, I would go to bars and nightclubs with my friends to have a carnival. But every time after the noise subsided and everything calmed down, I would Instead, he fell into a depressed mood.
Slowly, I suddenly felt that these nihilistic gatherings were actually meaningless, just for gregariousness and self-deception. Now I prefer to stay away from the dust.
We are threatened by the fast-paced life, confused by the noise from the outside world and material pursuits. We feel that only houses, cars, and money are the pursuits of life. In the busy life, we have never asked ourselves, are these really what I want? Want it?
As night falls, the streets of Lijiang are still filled with fireworks, and the simple buildings under the lights look solemn and quiet.
Here I feel like time has slowed down. Now I am convinced that the environment can affect a person. After arriving in Lijiang, Lin Feifei's emotions seemed to be infected, and she finally saw light in her eyes.
We sat on the balcony drinking, overlooking the entire town. Lin Feifei held on to the wooden railing, closed her eyes, and felt the wind blowing across her face. She seemed to be having a silent dialogue with the wind.
Here, her imprisoned soul seemed to be released.
After a while, Lin Feifei opened her eyes and smiled at me, and I suddenly felt like I hadn't seen her for a long time.
She looked at me seriously, "I feel better, thank you dear."
I suddenly felt that my heart was finally more relaxed.
I put the beer can into her hand and said in a deep voice: "I have also experienced unemployment. In fact, unemployment is something that many people have to face, just like family of origin and school bullying. In fact, it does not really hurt What can really hurt us is our anxious and fearful thoughts.”
The corner of Lin Feifei's mouth curved, and a wry smile overflowed, "My current state is that I want to roll up, but I can't. I want to lie down flat, but I can't. I don't want to do anything now, and I feel exhausted."
"I understand how you feel. You feel like you are driving with one foot on the accelerator and one on the brake. Can this car handle it?"
Lin Feifei's eyes flashed, "Tch, you are quite good at using metaphors. I really want to have fighting spirit right now, so hurry up and pour me some chicken soup."
"You are still pouring chicken soup! Who doesn't understand the truth? What you need most now is to rest. Give yourself a good vacation and don't think about finding a job."
Lin Feifei was startled and shook her head, "How could you not think about it? I don't think about it either, but my mind seems to be out of control. As soon as I close my eyes, all I can think about is finding a job."
As she said that, a painful expression flashed across Lin Feifei's face.
I held her in my arms, looked at the bright moon in the sky, and said with a smile: "My purpose is to put it away when it's time to put it away, and roll it up when it's time to roll it up. In fact, anxiety and depression are just emotional signals. It reminds you that it’s time for you to rest.”
Lin Feifei now resists this emotion, but emotion is just a signal. Rejecting this emotion is actually rejecting herself.
Emotions are like waves on the seashore. Sooner or later the tide will recede. After Lin Feifei lost her job, she has been fighting against anxiety. Her spirit is always tense. The more she fights against anxiety, the more she becomes internally exhausted.
She was silent for a while, as if she was savoring my words carefully. After a while, she smiled bitterly, "Rest? How can I dare to rest now that I am so busy! I went to another airline for an interview, and a dozen girls were competing for two or three. For this position, they are younger than me, and the salary they ask for is less than me. The pressure is so high now, even if I want to take a rest, my wallet is waiting for no one!"
"It's just a shift. Since you don't have to work now, enjoy your life first. After you have had enough rest, you can find a job and start over. The most important thing now is to have a good rest. Relax and talk to yourself first."
Life is short, there is no need to trap ourselves in unhappiness all the time. An occasional setback cannot determine our life. Only by reconciling with ourselves can we truly come out.
Although Lin Feifei is still depressed, at least her mood is getting better and she is slowly being healed by life. The fast-paced life keeps us busy and ignores some of the small beauties around us.
Lin Feifei took a sip of wine, and a smile appeared on her pretty features, "Okay! I'll listen to you, don't think so much first, just have fun for a few days."
Hearing her say this, I finally breathed a sigh of relief.
It's been a long time since we had a peaceful chat like tonight. When she first lost her job, her whole person was full of decadence. After arriving in Lijiang, it was obvious that she was gradually relaxing.
Lin Feifei drank wine, and her fair skin showed a faint crimson color. Her usual spotless temperament completely faded under the influence of alcohol, leaving her with an addictive feeling.
I had a great chat with her tonight. After drinking, we soon developed into a passionate chat. After a fierce fight, Lin Feifei went to take a shower. I lit a cigarette and smoked it happily. Get up, recalling the ecstasy feeling just now.
At this time, there was a faint creaking sound coming from the next door. If you listened carefully, you could still hear the faint sound of an ecstatic ensemble.
I lay on the wall, and the sound became clearer and clearer. The violent impact made me feel itchy. Just when I was getting excited, Lin Feifei suddenly came out of the bathroom wrapped in a bath towel.
"What are you doing?" Lin Feifei glared at me angrily.
We are all adults, can she tell what I am doing?
"Shhh! Keep your voice down!"
I was afraid of being heard by the next door, so I quickly made a silent gesture towards her, pointed at the wall, and lowered my voice and said:
"High energy ahead!"
Lin Feifei came over curiously. I thought she was going to criticize me, but like me, she put her ear to the wall and glanced at me.
"Keep up the high energy!"
Damn it!
I'm not tired talking about this anymore.
I thought she would accompany me to listen to the wall. Unexpectedly, she suddenly pinched my ear and said angrily:
"Hey, hey, that's about it. Didn't you just finish your work? Why are you eavesdropping on others?"
"They really should learn from us and turn up the sound on the TV, otherwise it will disturb the people!"
Lin Feifei rolled her eyes at me, "I'm sorry for you, go to bed quickly, you have to go out with me tomorrow!"
"Okay!"
I was elated. Since she was willing to go out for a walk, I felt relieved. At least it meant that she was finally in the mood to play.
Traveling can make people temporarily forget their worries. After I experienced unemployment and betrayal, my life goals changed from material pursuits to life pursuits.
Lin Feifei's current "symptom" is that during the confused period of unemployment, traveling can find an outlet for emotions and soul.
