The lunch was very sumptuous, but after the old man insisted on talking to Lin Feifei in person, I suddenly felt that the atmosphere at the dinner table suddenly had a more solemn flavor.
The old man poured a glass of wine by himself. My mother was stunned for a moment and looked at him with a somewhat stunned look.
I don’t blame my mother for being surprised, my old man rarely drinks at noon.
The old man took a slow sip of the wine, closed his eyes slightly, and his thoughts seemed to be floating in the flavor of the wine.
His back looked a little lonely under the sunlight.
After a while, he suddenly looked at Lin Feifei, with a sad smile on his face, and asked: "Feifei, do you and Yu Bin have to settle the matter this year? Originally, it was inappropriate for my uncle to say this, but Yu Bin This guy Bin has been doing nothing all day long, so I might as well ask you myself!"
I touched my nose helplessly, smiled and said nothing.
I am still not married in my early thirties. In our hometown, I am a monster in the eyes of others.
Forget it, if you get married and don’t have children, you are still a monster.
If you don't listen to your family's arrangements, you're still a monster.
In your hometown, if you are a monster in the eyes of others, you will be finished. You will become a monster criticized by your relatives and neighbors. They will hold high the banner of doing your best and judge you from the moral high ground. Only you will become the same person as them. , you are considered normal.
Before dinner, my dad took advantage of Lin Feifei's absence to tell me that when we went to the temple fair last night, relatives came to my house and told me that my marriage to Lin Feifei was far away, and they were worried that she would be the next Kuang Li.
I was speechless and helpless. When others pointed fingers at me, the old man always felt that their starting point was also for my own good. I used to retort a few words, but now I don't even say anything.
Lin Feifei was stunned for a moment, not mentally prepared at all. She looked at me in astonishment, and I could only shrug with a wry smile.
She gathered up her hair that was scattered around her ears, her beautiful eyes flashed, she looked directly into my dad's eyes, and said openly:
"There is definitely no problem with my relationship with Yu Bin, but we have only been together for more than half a year. I think it may be a little early to get married. I actually don't object to getting married, but I think it is a bit early."
The old man's smile froze, and he patiently did some ideological work for Lin Feifei: "You are only in your twenties, but Yu Bin is already thirty-two, and he can't afford to wait."
In fact, it is normal to be unmarried and have no partner at the age of 30 in a big city, but in your hometown you are like a monster. At this time, I suddenly missed big cities. Everyone is busy making money and has no energy to worry about others.
The smile on Lin Feifei's face gently rippled, "Uncle, actually it's okay to be thirty! Men don't start to mature until they are forty!"
The old man snorted a few times and said, "They all say we will stand up at thirty, but no one says we will stand up at forty?"
Lin Feifei did not dwell on this topic, and said with a smile: "Yu Bin and I have not been together for a long time, and suddenly we are talking about marriage. I am not prepared at all. We feel that the time has come to get married, and it must be natural." We're getting married, and you don't even need to rush me." Kanshu La
Lin Feifei has already talked about this, so naturally my dad can't say anything more.
At this time, my mother gave him another glance. He shook his head helplessly and sighed, his waist like a branch bent by heavy snow outside the window.
The old man's eyes were like leaves falling in the wind, revealing a sense of loneliness. I was filled with helplessness, slowly suffocating under the pressure of my parents to get married.
Being older and unmarried, these four words seem to be strangling my throat. Going home every year during the Chinese New Year is like going through a calamity. Unexpectedly, the moment before leaving, the urge to get married is like a reminder. It seems that whether you are happy or not is not important. Get married first.
I didn't want to make my parents sad because of another quarrel, so I didn't say anything this time. My dad tried to force the marriage, and the atmosphere at the dinner table suddenly fell into embarrassment.
The silence was as oppressive as a thick cloud. My mother tried to break the silence and said a few harmless words to me, and then a new round of embarrassment began.
I thought the meal would end in an atmosphere of reluctance, but I didn't expect that it would end hastily in the midst of chaos.
from home
When we came out, the snow was heavier than before.
The car started slowly and after waving goodbye to my parents, I looked through the middle rearview mirror and saw that my family's house looked particularly peaceful and beautiful in the snow, but I was getting further and further away from it.
Ice and snow have found their own habitat on every brick and tile of the house, but I can't go back. Thinking of this, I can't help but laugh at myself.
The place that should have been home is now only a vast expanse of white snow...
Seeing me sighing, Lin Feifei turned her head and looked at me deeply, with a bit of shame in her eyes, and said regretfully: "Dear, did I say the wrong thing just now?"
I shook my head, "Of course not. You and my dad are considering the problem from their own standpoints. In fact, no one is wrong, so I don't blame either of you."
Lin Feifei breathed a sigh of relief and murmured: "Isn't it normal for someone to be unmarried or have no partner at the age of 30? Why is uncle so anxious?"
I smiled bitterly: "In my dad's eyes, our village is his entire world. He has lived here all his life. Everyone is like this. It has become a default rule. This is why I don't want to come back. .”
My mind was racing with thoughts, and I couldn't help but sigh softly.
Since I don’t know when, sighing has become a habit of mine. It seems to speak my heart and declare my loneliness and helplessness.
I paused and said thoughtfully: "In our place, as long as you are not married, you have to face pressure to get married. Once you are married, they will continue to pressure you to have children. In short, they like to use their own life trajectory to arrange your life. If you If you don’t obey, you will be a monster in the eyes of others.”
Lin Feifei was silent for a few seconds and said, "Then what do you think?"
"Actually, from the moment I left my hometown and chose to stay in a big city, I knew I could never go back."
I always thought that places that were inaccessible were called distant places, but now I know that for me, they should be called hometown.
Lin Feifei nodded, as if thinking of herself, and sighed: "Yes! Otherwise, who would be willing to live in exile?"
I smiled and decided not to let the sad atmosphere spread among us, "Everyone is tired from living, so we are called humans."
"Hahaha! Brilliant!"
I also laughed and said, "My parents and I don't share the same joys and sorrows. If we talk too much, we will only make noises."
"Hey, why do I think you are mature?"
"That's right, I can't keep arguing with them!"
"Can you understand what I said to my uncle today?"
Lin Feifei hesitated for a moment and asked worriedly.
