A cigarette afterwards is better than a living god.
While I was smoking, I was reminiscing about the passion I had just had. Looking at Lin Feifei's perfect body and puffing away the smoke, I felt an unprecedented sense of satisfaction in my heart.
Lin Feifei lay on my chest, which was not broad, and kept drawing circles on my chest with her hair.
I stroked her hair as soft as seaweed and couldn't help but ask, "What are you thinking about?"
"I miss you two in the future!"
I hugged her tightly and said, "Then tell me what you have in mind."
"I want us to get married and have a beautiful baby."
Lin Feifei painted a grand blueprint for the future, but my heart sank.
In the past, Kuang Li was just like her, lying in my arms and dreaming about the future, but reality will not open up just because we are full of hope for the future.
Where will we live after we get married?
Buy a house? can not afford! Rent? But what happens when a child is born?
After the baby is born, should I keep renting a house?
Reality is like an invisible net. No matter where I run, I can't escape.
Some people say that the best way to deal with fear is to face it.
I hesitated for a moment, hugged her and said with emotion: "Then we may have to live a renting life for a long time, and we will still rent a house with our children. Can you accept it?"
"What's unacceptable about this?" she said nonchalantly.
"Um?"
I didn't expect her to answer so quickly, and I couldn't help but be stunned.
Lin Feifei laughed angrily, and two charming dimples suddenly appeared on both sides of her lips.
"It's okay to rent a house. After all, you have an apartment in your hometown town! It's not like we have no way out. House prices in first-tier cities are so high now. Even if we can afford the down payment, what about repaying the loan? Both of us have to work, and our salary can only be less than Now you can only live comfortably if you have more children. If you have children, you will be like a walking money shredder. How stressful life will be! We can stay in the big city if we are happy, and if we are not happy, we can go back to our hometown. In fact, it doesn’t matter.”
My heart was filled with a deep feeling, an indescribable emotion that seemed to gently pluck my heartstrings.
I couldn't help but hug her tighter and sighed with emotion, "But I don't feel comfortable letting you and the child wander with me in the future."
Life in Beidiao is like a tired dandelion. It seems free, but it cannot help itself. It has been renting a house. It is difficult to place its emotions on life in a temporary residence. In addition to not having a sense of belonging and security, it is difficult to live in a temporary residence every year. Faced with rising rents, people feel helpless.
Lin Feifei smiled and comforted me: "It is indeed difficult to feel a sense of belonging when renting a house, but buying a house brings a sense of debt! I am not a woman afraid of renting a house with my children in the future, so don't think too much about it! No one's life is easy. Everyone has his own difficulties!"
As she spoke, she placed her hand on my palm.
Feeling her tender and delicate skin, the wounds in my heart seemed to be gently soothed by these hands.
She was right.
Living abroad, I have seen too many people bent down by life. Maybe we have to work very, very hard to live an ordinary life.
I took a long breath and vented my accumulated emotions. I secretly vowed to give Lin Feifei and her family a better life.
Lin Feifei chuckled, "You are quite strange. You comforted me at the temple festival! Now it's me who enlightens you again."
I smiled and didn't refute.
Her smile flashed before my eyes, and my heart was turned upside down.
Although life always leaves us bruised and bruised, every scar left behind is a medal for our struggle with life.
We came to sleep hugging each other. When we woke up, a soft touch suddenly came from my palm.
Lin Feifei's back was turned to me. I hugged her from behind, put one hand on her belly, and put the other hand in a posture of climbing to the top.
It is said on the Internet that our sleeping position is called the spoon shape, and we can feel her orchid-like fragrance.
My skin is full of vitality and elasticity, and I feel an unprecedented sense of satisfaction.
In fact, the relationship status of a couple can be seen from the sleeping position of a couple. Although we have been together for a while, we are still inseparable. In this back-hug sleeping position, I am like a human-shaped warm baby, using the form of human body heat to give She provides a steady stream of warmth. Read the book
Lin Feifei opened her eyes drowsily, squirmed a few times, turned around, and a hazy pretty face suddenly appeared in front of her eyes.
I thought she was getting up, but I didn't expect her to burrow into my arms like a snake, and kept mumbling to herself:
"Hmm...it's still so comfortable. I really want to sleep with my arms around it every day."
I felt sweet in my heart, but I was unreasonable and said, "Yes! It's better to hug her every day. In the future, I will get frozen shoulder and you will get cervical spondylosis."
Lin Feifei hit me angrily, cursed angrily, and broke away from my arms.
After we both got up, we had a quick bite and then started packing. We were originally scheduled to return this afternoon. Ever since I told my parents last night that we would be returning today, there has been a feeling of reluctance in the house.
Our family was very busy. As we packed our luggage, my parents split up into two groups. One was cooking, and the other was stuffing stuff into our trunk.
What he stuffed were some specialties from his hometown and food given by relatives during the Spring Festival, such as ribs, mutton, and eggs. He kept stuffing them into our car.
Relatives bought these things for them. Even though these things are very common, they are not willing to spend money to buy them, so they give us an advantage.
I felt a little sorry and said with a wry smile: "You and my mother can just keep these to eat. Don't give them to us. We can buy them ourselves when we go back."
The old man glared out of habit, "It's so expensive to buy it from outside! We have it at home. Your mother and I don't like to eat meat, so you can take it away! We usually go to work and are too lazy to do it."
I was stunned, my nose suddenly felt sore, I had mixed feelings in my heart, and I suddenly didn’t know what to say.
When the old man saw that I was silent, he took advantage of Lin Feifei to go back to the house to get something, and said to me in a dull voice: "If you really care about us, you should have made an appointment with Feifei earlier."
I smiled hoarsely: "Didn't you dislike us both before? Why are you urging me to marry her now?"
The old man was very vigilant. He glanced back into the yard first to make sure that Lin Feifei had not come out, and then said helplessly: "You have brought everyone back, what can we say? Besides, Feifei is really a good girl. It’s just that you are not a good match for us, can her mother accept you?”
My heart sank, and my laughter was a little bleak: "Can't you have some confidence in your son?"
"Can this be solved with confidence?"
"I……"
Just when I was about to say something, the old man suddenly waved his hand, "Forget it, I'll ask Feifei myself during dinner later!"
