I sighed silently. Even though Lin Feifei seemed careless and cheerful all day long, she was actually very lonely inside. Her liking for fun was just a way for her to escape loneliness. She seemed invulnerable, but she just learned to hide it. , her friends all thought that she was very strong inside, but only she knew that she had always longed to find a harbor for her to rest.
Some wounds cannot be healed with just a few words. If you want to completely break away from the imprint of your original family on you, it is actually very difficult to eliminate it.
Things that may seem normal to others, in her eyes, seem like she has to cross mountains one after another.
I hope time can dilute everything!
I patted her shoulder and said, "This is not your fault. You don't have to pay for the mistakes of the previous generation."
The corners of Lin Feifei's mouth raised slightly, forming a seemingly relaxed arc, but it was full of bitterness. Her eyes flickered, as if she was laughing at her helplessness.
"It's not that simple. In fact, the bad thing is not childhood, but that we can't get rid of this kind of damage even when we grow up. Some damage lasts a lifetime."
For a moment, I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my heart. Her wry smile was so dazzling that it made me feel bad.
A happy childhood can heal a lifetime, and an unfortunate childhood takes a lifetime to heal.
From several confrontations between me and Deng Meijia, I can feel that Lin Feifei grew up in a fragmented environment full of negative energy. The slightest negative disturbance from the outside world was like a violent storm to her.
The harm to the original family is like a ferocious beast wandering in the dark, not knowing when to strike a fatal blow.
I hugged her tighter and said with a smile, "Don't think about the past. If there is constant internal friction, your car will lose control sooner or later."
"Yes! In fact, I think about things about my family of origin every day. In fact, I don't do it on purpose, I just think about it unconsciously, and then I blame myself every time."
"Internal friction is nothing. You have to accept your anxiety first. Being able to detect anxiety proves that you have been able to put a brake on the car that is about to lose control."
"Brake?" Lin Feifei was a little surprised.
"People are under so much pressure nowadays. There are a few people who are not anxious. Anxiety is actually normal."
I sighed and started to use myself as an example, "Look at me, when I first met you, I had been unemployed for several months, and my girlfriend even cheated on me. Do you think I'm miserable? Besides, I don't have a car or a house." Savings is the standard for young people with no savings. But then I figured it out, unemployment, breakup, these things are actually experienced by many people. I am not the only one. Everyone’s life trajectory is different. Life is not an assembly line, and neither are we. Commodity, others say I am a young man with three things without, but I think I am a young man with three things."
Lin Feifei was touched by my words, and her eyes obviously fluctuated, not as gloomy as before.
"Three young men?"
"Have ideals, have responsibility, and have good looks."
Lin Feifei waved her hand, "The third one can be removed."
"..."
It felt uncomfortable for her not to make fun of me, but seeing as she was in a bad mood, I didn't care about her.
Lin Feifei's mood improved, and the world was illuminated by the few words I just said.
I was about to say something when she suddenly took my arm and said, "Look ahead, there is a light show! Come with me to see it."
Lin Feifei pulled me forward, and the two of us squeezed out of the crowd. Just as the performance started, various traditional folk performances were performed, including dragon dance, lion dance, and stilt walking. It was very lively.
After the performance, suddenly, the prelude to the light show was slowly opened, and the entire square suddenly became colorful. The lights were mainly mysterious and soft tones, like stars, as if they were in a world of light and shadow. Lin Feifei was in a depressed mood. Healed instantly.
The temple fair was good, but the only drawback was that it was too cold at night. Although we were prepared, the temperature at night was too low. Lin Feifei wore a pair of UGG boots, but she was still freezing and stamping her feet.
So, after visiting the temple fair, we headed back home.
Lin Feifei took off her shoes and socks, and her white feet were all red from the cold.
"Honey, please cover your feet for me!"
After saying that, she directly put her feet into my arms without asking for my permission.
I shivered from the cold, took a deep breath, held her tender little feet, and gently covered them in my hands.
Her ankles are slender and elegant, like a pair of fine porcelain. The skin on her feet shows a healthy luster, white and delicate, and each toe is like a pearl, long and slender, showing a charming pink color. Read the book
I held it in my hand, and my whole body felt like electricity. We were considered an "old couple", but she still fascinated me.
I held her feet in my hands like a treasure. When I accidentally looked up, I found that she was looking at me with a smile, without any shyness.
Her little face turned crimson from the cold, as bright as a red and white peach blossom. I couldn't help but think of the first time we met. At that time, I didn't dare to think that one day I would be able to get together with this gorgeous flight attendant.
I think of the first time we met, the first time we held hands, the first time we kissed, the first time... I miss it so much.
"What are you thinking about?" Lin Feifei tilted her head and asked me with a smile.
An evil fire seemed to rise in my lower abdomen, and I chuckled, "I was just wondering, it's been a long time since I handed in your homework. Do you need to check it out?"
There was a fox-like brightness in her eyes, which added a bit of charm to her.
"You've been looking over and over in your homework, but that's all. There's nothing for me to check."
I laughed even harder. I like girls like this who can talk about anything. They are serious when they should be serious and can be relaxed when they should be.
I chuckled and decided to tease her, so I frowned and pretended to think: "I have read a lot of information recently, and I have indeed unlocked some new knowledge..."
Lin Feifei winked playfully and said, "Oh? Do you have any new knowledge? Can you tell me about it?"
"For example, dancing around the waist, pulling on your boyfriend's tie..."
"Damn it! Where did you get the study materials? Why didn't you ask me to study with you?"
"..."
Lin Feifei forced me to hand over the precious learning materials. In the spirit of studying together and making progress together, the two of us cuddled together and observed together with our mobile phones. After in-depth communication, our souls were released in the surge. There was a kind of Indescribable tranquility and freedom, stress and troubles all seem to disappear at this moment, leaving only inner peace and harmony.
Two tired souls cuddled together quietly, and each other's emotions seemed to be infected by each other, becoming our common feelings.
We leaned on each other wordlessly, and I lit a cigarette with Lin Feifei's consent.
