Both Lin Feifei and Chen Xiaoxing said they didn't mind, and I felt a little relieved. At this time, the door to the house was still locked, and my parents hadn’t come back from get off work yet.
I took out the key and opened the door. When the door lock turned, I was anxious, fearing that the conditions of our home would disappoint Lin Feifei.
As the door slowly opened, my heart gradually sank.
The huge yard was in a mess, the walls were covered with spider webs, and a thick layer of soil fell on the windowsills. In an instant, I felt like my heart was covered with a layer of dust.
Seeing the mess all over the floor, my face became hotter and hotter. When Lin Feifei saw how messy my house was, I wanted to find a crack in the floor and crawl in.
I took a deep breath, suppressed the emotions in my heart, and opened the door with a wry smile, "My house is quite messy, don't mind it!"
Lin Feifei and Chen Xiaoxing were both considerate and said it was okay, but as soon as Du Yue walked in, she frowned and said without politeness: "Oh my god! Your house is too messy. Yu Bin, you guys Does your home run a garbage dump?”
My face suddenly sank. My house was indeed in a mess, but it was a bit inappropriate to say this from her mouth.
Chen Xiaoxing glared at her fiercely and used his eyes to signal her not to talk nonsense. Du Yue had always had a problem with me, so he took this opportunity to sneer at me:
"Since I want to live here, I am a customer, so we have to spend money, okay? Since we have spent money, I have the right to question the environment."
She looked around, not hiding her disdain, "This place is too dirty. How can such a family find a wife?"
"Du Yue!"
Lin Feifei and Chen Xiaoxing said in unison, both staring at her dissatisfied.
Du Yue pouted angrily, and her voice became much softer, "I'm telling the truth!"
I looked at her and sneered a few times, then retorted: "You are so rich, aren't you single?"
Du Yue looked like someone had stabbed a sore spot, her face suddenly turned red, "You..."
"If you keep being mean-mouthed, I won't mind hurting each other."
Chen Xiaoxing quickly smoothed things over. Although my words were unpleasant, it was because Du Yue was wrong first, so no one could say anything about me.
Du Yue snorted and turned her face to the side, no longer looking at me.
I sighed silently, and a sense of powerlessness continued to spread in my heart. The first time Lin Feifei came to the door, she saw our house in such a mess, which made me extremely ashamed.
Now I feel helpless and helpless. I bite the bullet and let them in. I let them sit in the living room for a while while I boil a pot of water for everyone to drink.
I was used to living in buildings, and when I suddenly returned to a bungalow, I felt a little uncomfortable. Take water boiling as an example. I only have a water dispenser in my building, but I still use a kettle to boil water in my bungalow back home.
After boiling the water, I took out the water cup from the cabinet and prepared to pour water. But when I took out the water cup, I was stunned. These water cups must be at least more than ten years old. They are all gifts for buying liquor. I came back from the Spring Festival. Seeing that many of the cups were chipped, I asked my mother to throw them away. Unexpectedly, they were still using them.
I suddenly felt dumbfounded. My parents were not willing to throw away anything. It was obvious that many of them would not be used in a lifetime.
I poured a cup of hot water for each of them. Lin Feifei and Chen Xiaoxing held the chipped cups without saying anything. Du Yue took them and put them aside, showing a disgusted expression, and said with great disgust: "Forget it. I'd better order a box of mineral water to drink! Give me your home address."
I didn't bother to pay attention to her, and then took them to their respective rooms. In fact, my dad did tidy up. He cleaned every room, which was not as miserable as the yard.
Lin Feifei looked at the bright and transparent room and nodded with satisfaction, "Your bedrooms are so big? Oh my God! This room is too big. One room can be as big as the living room where I live. It’s the master bedroom.”
When she said this, I felt somewhat comfortable.
I scratched my nose and said with a wry smile: "What's the use of being big? How can a house in the city be worth anything?"
Lin Feifei couldn't help but smile: "You can't say that. Many people in big cities now envy those who have small courtyards. I don't think there is anything good about living in a building. A big square meter is okay, but a small square meter is so crowded that it faces the door, top and bottom. We may not all know each other in the building, unlike in the village, where distant relatives are not as good as close neighbors!"
I smiled, and the depression I felt just now finally dissipated a little.
After hesitating for a moment, I said bravely: "My house is too messy, don't mind it! My parents are usually very busy, and I don't come back often..."
Lin Feifei smiled lightly, "I understand, the first time you sent me home, my house was as messy as a pig's nest! It's normal."
Lin Feifei's understanding moved me deeply. I wonder if my parents would be shocked when they saw Lin Feifei.
My parents got off work late, so I let them rest while I cooked. I carried the vegetable basket and went to my yard to pick vegetables. Lin Feifei heard that I had a vegetable garden at home, so she followed me.
The vegetable garden is right behind my house. It is the end of summer and the vegetable garden is lush and green. Lin Feifei's eyes suddenly lit up.
"Wow! Yu Bin, your vegetable garden is so beautiful and your family has a big business. Why do you have to be so smart and buy a house in a big city!"
I looked at the huge vegetable garden, sighed, and said from the bottom of my heart: "As far as I can remember, the most profound impression is the quarrel between my parents, so I have longed to leave them since I was a child and want to have a home of my own. "
Lin Feifei was thoughtful, silent for a few seconds, and lightly opened her lips: "Actually, have you ever thought that it is not this home you want to escape from, but your family of origin."
I couldn't help but move in my heart, chewing on her words. Maybe she was right. The memories I had of this home were all unhappy memories, so I wanted to escape desperately.
I felt bitter in my heart and smiled helplessly, "I don't know. I was raised by my grandparents, so I don't have a deep relationship with my parents, so I don't want to go back to this home, but I am in a big city. I can’t afford to buy a house and go back to my hometown to live with my parents, and I’m afraid of quarrels because I’ve always wanted to escape from my family of origin.”
I had never said these words to anyone before. I don’t know why, but I was able to open my heart in front of Lin Feifei.
Lin Feifei curled her lips and smiled: "Actually, you don't have to run away from your original family. Running away is also a sign of compromise."
"Then what do you think I should do?"
"I don't think you have to force yourself to escape or forgive. You just need to accept yourself."
I thought about her words carefully, and suddenly I felt enlightened. I smiled and was about to say something when I suddenly lowered my head. I swallowed back the words that were on my lips and said with a smile: "You are right, as long as Just accept yourself, just like you are now."
Lin Feifei was startled, "Me? What's wrong with me now?"
"Such as you're stepping on dog poop now."
"ah!!!"
