I drove Lin Feifei’s Tesla back to my former “home”.
Standing at the door, looking at the deserted home, feeling in a trance.
Kuang Li has moved away, but she didn't actually take anything away. After all, she has lived a good life, and these shabby homes in the past are unacceptable.
After nine years of love, everything seemed like a dream. Now I woke up from the dream and we parted ways.
Although I acted carelessly in front of Lin Feifei, when I suddenly faced the empty house, loneliness trapped me tightly like an invisible net, with no way to escape.
I remembered that the novel had not been updated today, and it had been interrupted yesterday. If it were interrupted for another day today, my full attendance this month would be ruined. Although I had no clue in my mind, for the few hundred dollars, I gritted my teeth and opened it. computer.
When I had a job before, writing novels was my hobby. I updated it casually, and it didn't matter if I didn't work hard at all. But it's different now. The reality makes me frustrated. Even a few hundred yuan is enough to make me frustrated.
I opened a can of beer and coded while drinking. After updating today's chapter, I leaned back, pulled the quilt over my head and fell asleep.
Maybe the impact of these two days was too great. Not long after I lay down, I fell asleep.
I dreamed about Kuang Li, and fragments of the past kept reappearing in the dream. These fragments turned into physical ropes, binding me, and I continued to sink gradually. I desperately shouted to Kuang Li to save me, but she did nothing. , watching me sinking little by little indifferently.
I woke up in shock. When I woke up, I found myself covered in sweat and breathing in fresh air.
It took a while before I finally recovered. I took a red panda in my mouth, took a shallow sip, and breathed it out after a long while.
The cigarette embodies melancholy and burns quietly.
The tobacco is like my youth, my entire emotional life, burned away bit by bit.
I thought about that dream over and over again, looking around, and the happy little life of two people kept popping up in front of my eyes.
The little beauties that were once imprinted in my heart have now turned into smoke that has passed through my lungs, suffocating me little by little.
Probably, I really have to start a new life.
Looking at the remaining cigarette butts on my fingertips, I couldn't help but smile bitterly. I had quit smoking for her, but now I picked it up because of her. It was really ironic.
"Dong dong dong..."
Suddenly, a knock on the door interrupted my thoughts.
I pulled on my slippers and walked over to open the door. It was Zhou Shutong who lived across the door.
We have lived across from each other for more than a year. Every time she goes on a business trip, she asks me and Kuang Li to take care of her dog. We are all young people, and we have become familiar with each other over time. The three of us have a WeChat group, and we are not allowed to go out for a certain period of time. When they were together, they often shared each other’s food supplies.
Zhou Shutong is very beautiful, but she has always been single.
At first, I was joking with Kuang Li and wanted to introduce her to a partner, but I was immediately met with a blank stare from Kuang Li. She sarcastically said that everyone wears big brands, so how can I, a bunch of poor guys, afford it!
I am speechless.
She seems to be very busy at work, and she hasn't looked at her much recently. Today she knocked on the door, and I couldn't help but be startled.
"Are you going on a business trip again? Are you going to let me raise Zai Zai at home?"
Zhou Shutong shook her head gently, her big waves swaying slightly. She looked at me worriedly, "Kang Li sent me a message. I already know about your affairs. I guess you haven't eaten yet, so I ordered some takeout to eat together." Bar!"
Only then did I notice the takeout she was carrying.
I forced a smile and lowered my head, "Yes, come in quickly!"
She walked in gracefully and accidentally touched the mouse while putting the takeout on the coffee table.
The computer exited the screensaver and turned on the screen. The content on the web page happened to fall into her sight. She exclaimed: "Are you writing a novel?"
I walked over with a wry smile and said casually: "Haha, yes, it's just a little flutter."
Zhou Shutong shook his head, "You are so humble. You are already very good if you can write. What have you written?"
""The Rules Before Stewardess" and "My Stewardess Wife"." I scratched my hair, feeling a little embarrassed.
Zhou Shutong's eyes suddenly lit up, as if they were burning with turbulent flames, and he did not hide the surprise in his tone.
"Oh, it turns out you wrote these two books! I read them several times. You are so talented. At that time, I was thinking how talented this author must be to write such a beautiful book. I didn't expect this. People who are far away are right in front of us.”
I was a little embarrassed and laughed a few times: "I didn't expect that I have female fans. If my brothers and sisters in the QQ group knew about it, they would probably be greedy to death."
Zhou Shutong's eyes became brighter and brighter, and he made no secret of his admiration for me: "Really, I read this book several times at that time. You wrote it so delicately. Let me interview you. How did you come up with this title?"
The more she talked, the more embarrassed I felt. I scratched my hair and laughed a few times, "To be honest, I started out just to attract some people who understand. I didn't expect that it would turn into pure love as I wrote. .”
Zhou Shutong's lips curved in a seductive arc, "To be honest, I went there because of the title of the book."
"..."
Zhou Shutong opened the lunch boxes one by one and kept picking up food for me, "My dear author, let's eat more. No one can suffer for himself."
"I feel so full that I have the energy to do more," she added.
"..." I smiled awkwardly.
From last night to now, I have eaten almost nothing. When I saw the food, my stomach growled loudly.
I laughed awkwardly and said, "Don't mind, I haven't eaten all day."
Zhou Shutong smiled slightly, with no mocking expression on his face, "It doesn't matter, if it were me, I might not be as good as you."
I couldn't help but feel something in my heart.
I have known her for so long, but her relationship has always been a mystery. A beautiful woman like her certainly has no shortage of suitors, but she is always alone.
Zhou Shutong and I have always had a good chat, but because I have a family, we have always kept a distance. Although the three of us are in the same group, I have even added her on WeChat, whenever something happens. @ her in the group.
I opened my mouth, hesitated for a moment, suppressed the curiosity in my heart, and thought I might as well forget it, I am still crossing the river like a mud Buddha! How can I still be in the mood to care about other people's emotional lives?
With this thought in mind, I immersed myself in my work. In the end, it was Zhou Shutong who took the initiative to break the silence.
"How's your work going?"
I smiled bitterly, chewed the rice tastelessly, and sighed, "It's not very good. The ones I want to go to don't pay any attention to my resume, and the ones I don't want to go to harass me every day like brown sugar."
After a pause, I laughed at myself, "Do you think I'm too picky? Now I don't even have a job, and why are I still being picky like this?"
Zhou Shutong shook his head gently, put down his chopsticks, and looked at me seriously. His voice was like a breeze blowing through a wind chime.
"No, you are right. Of course you need to adjust your mentality when you are newly unemployed and treat it as a rest. People have been working for decades, so what's wrong with taking a few months off? Besides, you have a side job, even if you don't work , but it’s not that I don’t have a job at all, it’s just that I changed from working for others to working for myself.”
My heart felt warm, as if something melted in my heart.
I have been unemployed for two months. The reason why I dare not tell Kuang Li is because she is afraid that she will poke me in the back and urge me to go to work every day. When I just graduated from college, I could not find a job for a long time, but she had already entered the internship of a top 500 company. Now, he looks aloof in front of me every day.
"If you need help, give me a copy of your resume."
