But now that the person is dead, what's the use of regretting.
After Zhao Fa's ashes were placed, Zhao Fa's wife also left.
That's how people are, they come and go clean.
At this time, Zhang Qionian couldn't help but think of a sentence in his mind: "There are two deaths in a person's life, one is physical death, and the other is being forgotten, until no one in this world remembers that you have been here."
Zhang Qionian can no longer remember who said this, but Zhang Qionian agrees with it. As long as someone remembers you, your spirit will still be there.
Everyone left. Zhang Qionian stood at the ashes storage area, looking at Zhao Fa's urn without saying a word for a long time.
At this time, Zhang Qiongian also understood what Zhao Fa said before, "If a person has no money, it will be difficult to live, and even to die, he will have to be at the bottom."
Because the ashes storage in a funeral home is divided into several levels, just like lockers, the ones at the bottom are the cheapest, the higher you go, the more expensive they are, and the ones in the middle are the most expensive.
Zhao Fa's urn was on the bottom floor. Zhang Qionian squatted on the ground and sighed, "Hey~ you said you're not afraid of death, why are you still afraid of living?"
"Only if I die can my wife remarry with the children without any psychological burden."
Zhao Fa's voice sounded behind Zhang Qionian, who stood up suddenly and looked back.
Zhao Fa's ghost was standing behind him.
Zhang Qionian asked, "Why are you so stuck in thinking? As long as you are still here, you can always find a way, right?"
Zhao Fa shook his head and said, "Actually, I don't really want to die, but I feel that I owe too much to other people in my life, whether it is my wife or Liu Xiaoling. I have thought about it for a long time. Maybe this is the only way I can be grateful to them all." An explanation.”
Zhang Qionian asked, "What explanation?"
Zhao Fa said, "Now that I think about it, both my wife and Liu Xiaoling are very good to me. Although my wife is a little bit cruel to me, she just married me without a penny as a gift and gave me a child." , I am grateful to him for eight generations. Liu Xiaoling was the same back then, she followed me wholeheartedly. Even when we went shopping when we had nothing to do, she would be happy for several days if I could buy him a bowl of Malatang for six yuan. At that time, he put all the fish balls and other things in it into my bowl. I failed Liu Xiaoling and my wife. Maybe I am not a competent man."
Zhang Qionnian said, "Maybe this is your fate, but you also have problems. You died like this. Have you ever thought about your parents?"
Zhao Fa said, "I have thought about it, but I can't care so much anymore. It's so difficult to live. I have to leave anyway, so let's talk to you."
It turns out that Zhao Fa's family situation is even worse than he said. Zhao Fa's father is paralyzed in bed, and his mother is somewhat dysfunctional and can only take care of herself.
Zhao Fa also sends some money to his family every month.
After Zhang Qionian and the others left last time, Zhao Fa called his wife again. What his wife said on the phone was quite unpleasant.
His wife told him, "Live if you can, and die if you can't."
Zhao Fa had a few hundred yuan in his pocket before, but these few hundred yuan were not even enough to pay for the hospital's medical expenses. When Zhang Qionian and the others went to the hospital to see him, he had not eaten for a whole day. Fortunately, the fruit Zhang Qionian brought lasted him for another two days.
And in those days, Zhao Fa would always have a dream at night, dreaming that he and Liu Xiaoling were in a small small house, and the two children were also there.
Comparing his wife's previous attitude, Zhao Fa felt even more guilty towards Liu Xiaoling.
At night, Zhao Fa lay alone in the hospital bed, tossing and turning, unable to sleep. Not only was the injury on his body painful, but his stomach was also gurgling from hunger.
For some reason, Zhao Fa suddenly had the idea of committing suicide.
I wanted to call my parents, but I didn't expect that the phone was in arrears.
At this time, Zhao Fa's mentality completely collapsed. In the middle of the night, he escaped from the staff on duty and the cleaning staff, walked to the roof of the hospital and jumped off.
After Zhao Fa finished speaking, Zhang Qionian fell silent.
Was Zhao Fa wrong? Wrong. Because if he had been braver at the beginning and not evaded responsibility, perhaps there would not have been the tragedy today.
But was Zhao Fa really wrong? Judging from his statement, he really wanted to marry Liu Xiaoling, but the price of the gift made him desperate and had to choose to escape.
In the final analysis, the problem is still about money.
If Zhao Fa could have received so many colorful gifts ten years ago, he would not have run away.
If Zhao Fa could have spent 3,000 yuan to save Liu Xiaoling, mother and son a few days ago, the current situation would not have happened.
After all, it's all about money.
After Zhao Fa finished speaking, he sighed and said, "Actually, I don't understand. Why did my parents have to give birth to me when they are so poor, so that I have to worry about life since I became sensible."
Zhang Qionnian said, "Actually, all of this has something to do with you. Your parents are already a huge favor for giving you life, so what else do you ask for? Your life is your own, and you live your own life. You can't just blame them." , compared to me, you are already very lucky, at least you still know who your parents are, what about me? I have been growing up in an orphanage since I can remember, what would you do if you were me? "
Speaking of this picture, Qiao Nian felt a little depressed, "Forget it, let's not talk about this anymore. If there is a chance in the future, will you come back to this world?"
Zhao Fa waved his hands repeatedly, "Forget it, I won't come, I'm afraid."
Zhang Qionian asked again, "Then what are you going to do next?"
Zhao Fa said, "What else can I do? I heard that people who commit suicide cannot be reincarnated for a while. I will stay here for now. Maybe I can see Liu Xiaoling when I get down there. I will make up for it then." She must have been wronged for so many years. Although I don’t know how to make up for it, when the time comes, I will do whatever he wants me to do. As long as she can forgive me."
After hearing what he said, Zhang Qionian remembered that the ghosts of Liu Xiaoling and his two children were still in his store.
At this moment, Liu Xiaoling's ghost appeared out of thin air behind Zhao Fa, and Liu Xiaoling still looked bloody.
Zhao Fa noticed the change in Zhang Qionian's eyes and turned to look behind him.
After he saw the person clearly, he stepped forward a little excitedly.
Liu Xiaoling stretched out her hand to stop him.
"do not come!"
Zhao Fa said with some pleading, "Xiao Ling, I know I was wrong. I am dead now. I will compensate you and the child well in the future."
Liu Xiaoling had a complicated expression and kept saying, "Don't come over, don't come over~" but her tone became much softer.
Zhao Fa asked, "Xiaoling, can you tell me what caused your death?"
Liu Xiaoling smiled sadly, "Just like you, commit suicide."
Zhao Fa asked, "Why did you commit suicide?"
Liu Xiaoling said, "When you left, do you know what I went through at home?
Zhao Fa shook his head, "Can you tell me?"
Liu Xiaoling changed her head and looked towards the horizon~
It turned out that Liu Xiaoling was taken home by her parents after Zhao Fa left. But the care she imagined did not appear. What greeted her was the blank stares, cynicism and endless abuse from her parents.
When Liu Xiaoling first came home, her mother was planning to ask her to abort the child and then find someone to marry.
But her father refused to do so, saying it was embarrassing.
Liu Xiaoling naturally disagreed, because she still held on to the glimmer of hope that Zhao Fa could come back to him.
Seeing that she still didn't give up, her mother locked her in the warehouse where the sundries were kept and refused to give her food.
Her mother believed that as long as she was weak, the child in her belly would be aborted, which would save a lot of money.
To say that Liu Xiaoling's parents really didn't treat her as a human being, even if she still had some humanity, her parents couldn't do this.
Fortunately, Liu Xiaoling also has a younger brother. No matter how her parents are, her brother is still good to her. He often secretly gives Liu Xiaoling some food when her parents are not paying attention.
Liu Xiaoling survived like this with difficulty.
Although she didn't have enough to eat on weekdays, the baby in her belly was growing up day by day, and her belly became more and more obvious.
In a blink of an eye, it was the time for the Chinese New Year. During the Chinese New Year in the Northeast, relatives would basically visit each other to pay New Year greetings. Liu Xiaoling was also released during that time. After all, it was not that big of a deal to see Liu Xiaoling locked in the warehouse when someone came to the family.
In order to conceal the fact that Liu Xiaoling was pregnant, Liu Xiaoling's mother severely strangled her belly with a piece of cloth.
Although her parents still didn't give her a good look during the New Year's Day, at least she lived a normal life for a few days.
But the fire could not be contained by paper. When there were many relatives visiting the house, and Liu Xiaoling's father drank some wine, the matter was leaked out.
Although those relatives said nothing on the surface, they could not help but gossip behind their backs, and word spread about it over and over again.
When Liu Xiaoling's father found out, he dragged Liu Xiaoling to the warehouse and beat her severely.
Not only were they beaten hard, but they were also scolded harshly, like a little bitch, a shameless slut, and so on.
After suffering both mental and physical torture, Liu Xiaoling gave up completely.
I thought about aborting the child and escaping from this heartless home.
However, no matter how hard Liu Xiaoling tried, nothing happened to the child in her belly.
Liu Xiaoling also got angry, broke a bowl, and used the ceramic shards on the ground to open her belly bit by bit.
At that time, she was almost going crazy from being tortured by her family members, and she could not imagine whether she would be able to survive after doing this.
In the end, Liu Xiaoling lost too much blood and died together with the two children in her belly.
After Liu Xiaoling's death, there was no trace of sadness on her parents' faces, only a hint of shame and relief.
Although Liu Xiaoling is dead, Liu Xiaoling's ghost sees all this.
From that moment on, finding Zhao Fa became Liu Xiaoling's only obsession.
Liu Xiaoling didn't know what to do after finding Zhao Fa, she just wanted to find him.
But Liu Xiaoling didn't know where Zhao Fa was, so she could only go back to the place where the two met and fell in love, that is, wandering in front of the hotel where they worked.
Perhaps because he felt guilty for Liu Xiaoling, or for other reasons, Zhao only went back to that hotel once during his stay.
Zhao Fa said that he didn't know why he went back, he just wanted to go back and take a look.
It was that time that Liu Xiaoling started to follow him.
Zhang Qionian knew everything that happened next.
After listening to Liu Xiaoling's story, Zhang Qiaonian also had tears in his eyes. He felt sorry for why Liu Xiaoling had to go through so much pain, hated why Liu Xiaoling's parents treated their daughter like this, and hated why the world was so unfair.
At this moment, Huang Kuaipan's voice sounded in Zhang Qiongian's mind, "Everything has a cause and effect. Everyone's fate in this world has been determined from birth. All we, the Immortal Family, can do is guide people to do good and free the wronged souls." , don’t think too much, it will affect your Taoist heart.”
Zhang Qiongnian asked, "I heard from Uncle Zhang that there is no Qingfengyanhun in my Tangkou. Can I take them into the Tangkou?"
Huang Kuaipan said, "I can't make the decision on this matter. I need to go back and ask the leader for instructions."
