There was a trace of pity in Nan Muze's eyes, and she didn't know if it was Liu Shengsheng's illusion. She always felt that Nan Muze was keeping his posture very low today...
"Your Highness, what are you doing?"
"Apologize."
Nan Muze gently took her hand and said slowly: "Three years after we got married, I rarely went near Qingfengyuan. In those three years, I never saw you more than ten times. It was my fault; later you kept your name anonymous. Stay close to me, protect me, and even put yourself in danger to save me. All these things show the depth of your affection, but I have never cherished it..."
"You are obviously right next to me, but I couldn't recognize you. It's my fault."
"You are obviously by my side, but it is my fault that I brought someone pretending to be you back to my house."
"Then I hit you thirty times indiscriminately, twice in a row. It was a big mistake."
Seeing his painful expression, Liu Shengsheng felt uncomfortable for some reason.
Things that had been in her heart for a long time, things that she cared about for a long time, but now that he suddenly said them, she didn't care so much anymore...
She said: "Your Highness, there is no need to tell me this..."
"Listen to me first."
Nan Muze looked at her affectionately, "I have hidden many, many words. I just have time to say them now. And in this situation, it is rare for you to listen to me."
"I once put you in solitary confinement. You should feel aggrieved that you have been living in such an environment as Cold Hospital for a long time."
"Later, the prince died. Due to emotion, reason and law, the people involved in the incident were not beheaded in public, but should be imprisoned for life. I was worried about you, but the emperor's brother lost his child, and the queen was eager to take you away. I have to make a show of it, I should have taken a beating to keep you safe, but I didn’t. It’s my fault to see you take so many blows before I take action.”
"I know very well that you have me in your heart, and I have had you in your heart for a long time, but I hesitated and always dwelled on what you did in the past. This mistake is deep in my heart."
"If I had spoken out at that time, maybe you wouldn't have been so wronged. If I had been tougher, you wouldn't have left my side. Each and every one of these is my fault. Every day and night when you are gone, I reflect deeply."
"I have always wanted to find an opportunity to apologize to you. Men are capable of bending and stretching, not to mention that as a husband, I do not cherish words like gold. I am just not good at words. And every day and night when you are not around, I practice it over and over again facing the sky."
"The time you left must have been very painful. I thought you were gone, so I brought all the bones that you had buried back to the house, arranged them neatly, and looked at them one by one, just for the sake of Find the evidence that it's not you."
"Later I realized that something was wrong. I knew that those bones were not yours, but I felt even more sad. After all, the fire was raging. If you were still alive, you would have been struggling at that time. I really want to be by your side. The most painful period."
"When I saw you again, I recognized you at a glance, but you lowered your head, and your fear made me at a loss. I suppressed the thoughts in my heart and decided to do what you wanted. I thought about the long flow of water, just like how you treated me at the beginning. I'm like that..."
"But silent longing is better than sound. The more you pretend to be calm, the harder it is to remain calm. However, love is silent, and missing is also silent."
"How much I wish you could know, but I'm also afraid that you will know."
"You once said that if you really couldn't control what was going on in your heart, you would just count the people on the roadside. But I stood on the roof, looking at the people in the distance. Every time I counted them, I thought of you. I kept counting. I can count more than a thousand of you."
"That day, under the marriage tree, I listened to everything Grandma Ye said. People should cherish the present and focus on the present. At that time, you were not in the right mood or in a bad mood, so I had thousands of words hidden deep in my heart. Xin, I wanted to leave there and find a time to talk to you about these things, but fate played a trick on me, and Yundu attacked the city at that time."
"I also know that the people in both cities are living in dire straits. I also know that not fighting this war can reduce many casualties. I also know that there is room for negotiation and we can do it slowly. But I can't wait. It's not that I can't wait. I can’t wait to take back the city and express my feelings to you.”
"I originally wanted to defeat Yundu in one fell swoop and have a good chat with you when I triumph, but you broke into the enemy camp alone again. I have been unable to sleep for the past two days."
Nan Muze said a lot in one breath, his eyes were slightly red, and he continued word by word:
"Shengsheng, it doesn't matter if you don't go back with me. I recognize you. I don't want to force you to do anything. I just want to make sure that you are here so that I won't feel bitter in my heart."
"I will not force you to go back, nor will I force you to do anything. I can't help being close to you. Whether you are indifferent or angry with me... don't deny me."
This was the first time Liu Shengsheng heard him say so many words, and they were still like this.
She never thought that Nan Muze had such a side.
He is indeed not good at words. Whether he is jealous or angry, he will only resort to forceful kissing to resolve it.
It was him who was rude and reckless.
He is also gentle and careful.
But he used to be so cold and arrogant, so repulsive to others...
Liu Shengsheng couldn't understand, "When did you..."
"I don't know when."
Nan Muze said earnestly: "I don't know when love will start, but I know when it will end."
"That's when I'm no longer in this world."
He looked at Liu Shengsheng lovingly, "If you forgive me, I will take you back to Beijing with me. You will be my only wife for the rest of my life. If you don't forgive me, I will not marry any woman again. You don’t have to feel any psychological burden, this is all of my own free will.”
Speaking of this, Nan Muze touched her head and said, "Now, I just want you to be safe."
Liu Shengsheng breathed out, "Anyway, thank you, um..."
Nan Muze couldn't help but bend down and kissed her lips gently.
"Call Aze."
"I……"
"No need to say anything, just give me a name."
Nan Muze stared into her eyes and said, "You also have a troubled temper. What you think in your heart is not consistent with what you say, so I won't listen to you anymore."
He didn't want to ruin such a good atmosphere.
After saying what he was thinking, Nan Muze finally felt a little more relaxed. He couldn't help but kiss Liu Shengsheng's forehead, "Okay, I should go and get busy."
"Your Highness..."
Liu Shengsheng shouted.
Nan Muze didn't look back or answer her.
He reached the door in the blink of an eye.
Liu Shengsheng said hurriedly: "Aze, a pigeon flew in."
Nan Muze curled his lips and finally turned his head with satisfaction.
He didn't even pay attention to the pigeons that suddenly flew in. Instead, he quickly walked up to Liu Shengsheng and hugged her into his arms.
"Can you call me again..."
The plump pigeon called twice and suddenly landed on Nan Muze's shoulder.
Liu Shengsheng was surprised, "This pigeon fell on your shoulder. Could it be that you raised it?"
Nan Muze stretched out his hand, and the dove instantly flew to his finger.
He took a note from the pigeon's leg, looked at it, and let the pigeon go.
"It's Brother Huang. He wants me to return to Beijing as soon as possible."
Liu Shengsheng's eyes widened, "Your Majesty? This place is so far away from the capital. How can this pigeon fly here from the capital?"
Isn't this amazing?
I have never seen a pigeon so powerful...
It is indeed a continent that does not exist in history. If it existed in history, these creatures would have to be studied for a long time...
Nan Muze smiled and said: "It's just a homing pigeon, haven't you seen it before?"
"This pigeon is so fat. It seems different from the ones I have seen before."
In fact, what Liu Shengsheng wanted to say was that this pigeon was no ordinary pigeon at all!
Or are the pigeons in this world not the same species as the pigeons in modern society?
