There was a huge and undetectable energy brewing in the silent carriage. In the face of that energy, even the drafty carriage became unreasonably hot.
"What?"
Song Wenbin was shocked, "What are you talking about?"
His eyes began to dodge, and he only dared to flash across Sutina's face.
Sutina smiled, with a mysterious yet somewhat indescribable ambiguity in her smile.
"I like to watch Brother Song pretending the most. It's so fun," she said.
Song Wenbin looked at her, his Adam's apple twitching up and down, a little frightened. He subconsciously looked at the camera on the side, only to find that the cord on the camera had been unplugged at some point. This undoubtedly frightened him even more, as if a noble paladin had lost his holy shield of glory.
"We already made an agreement when we were in Siberia..."
Sutina's extremely low voice was filled with irrepressible emotion.
Fine beads of sweat oozed out from Song Wenbin's forehead and became stuck.
His hand slipped and he slid down from the chair, resting on his elbow joint.
Sutina slowly shook off the quilt from the small bed and crawled over little by little: "In a place where no one can see...do you remember?"
she asked softly.
"I...I don't know...what are you talking about..." Song Wenbin felt like he was being forced into a corner, facing the raw power unavoidably.
"Africa... when we were in Africa... I didn't think there was anything wrong at first... but... the ending was too foul, Brother Song..." Sutina became more and more trembling as she spoke: "I don't think... I won't dig you out and put you there..." On the chair...I will put you in a coffin made of ice, and then I will lie down in it...so that even if we are dug out a thousand years later, we will still be lifelike..."
Song Wenbin's mind went blank and he could only mutter: "***...what are you talking about...?"
"You can pretend you don't know anything, Brother Song. As long as you are willing, I will always cooperate with you. As long as you want to be a teacher, I will always let you be a teacher, but that can only be my teacher .”
Seeing that the upper half of Su Tina's body was pressed against her, Song Wenbin stretched out his hand to stop her in horror, and said fearfully: "I am not your teacher..."
"Brother Song, I know you." Sutina gently clasped his hand, took it away, and said, "If you really don't care about me at all, why don't you dare to look into my eyes? Why do you If you dare not look at my face, are you afraid of offending me or others?"
Song Wenbin glanced at her eyes, and then turned his head depressedly, feeling that his breathing was trembling.
Sutina raised her hand tremblingly, touched his cheek gently, and said softly: "Don't be afraid of offending me. I am twenty-two years old now. After this age, I may not be good-looking. When you were in junior high school He hadn’t seen me before, not even in high school, and he didn’t even see me until he graduated from college.
Sometimes, after get off work, I want to ask you out but you don’t come out. In fact, I really want to put on beautiful makeup, go shopping with you, and talk to you. "
As Sutina spoke, her tears turned red. She whispered aggrievedly: "But you always ignore me. I know it's because of work, but I'm really worried. I'm worried that in a few years, I won't be as good-looking as I am. It’s at its peak..."
"No...you...you...will always be eighteen..." Song Wenbin croaked with difficulty.
"You don't have to use those words to coax me, I'm not a little girl who doesn't understand anything..."
Su Tina whispered in Song Wenbin's ear: "Brother Song, you satisfy my heart. Those sincere moments make me feel that you and I are one. Every second without you, my heart is like this Arctic wasteland. Same, lifeless."
Song Wenbin's heart was almost broken. He couldn't hold it in any longer and cried tremblingly: "You are so good, why are you so good..."
There is no doubt that for Song Wenbin, who is half a step above the education level, these words are tantamount to a dimensionality-reducing blow. It's pitiful for God. With his level, he can probably only say, there is something on your face, little sister, which makes you look pretty. , Such earthy love words. This is already his limit.
"Because of these words I
I’ve been thinking about it for a long time! You never gave me a chance! Huo Yu didn't give me a chance either! "Su Tina leaned half of her body against Song Wenbin and gasped sadly.
Hearing her mention the third person who was not present, Song Wenbin finally recovered from the huge, incomparable, primitive-level charm, and he sat up with great and extraordinary perseverance. Looking at Sutina's face, she reluctantly said, "Can you...can you listen to me for a word or two?"
"I'm listening..." Sutina nodded vigorously.
"You... are just like my sister..."
After struggling for a long time, he still couldn't say the words "You are like my mother". Song Wenbin tried his best to choose a suitable relationship and worded his words carefully.
Sutina looked at him with wide eyes.
Song Wenbin said with difficulty: "Really...Although I don't have a sister...but when I travel with you, many times...I really feel...you are like my sister..."
Song Wenbin originally thought that Su Tina could understand his difficulties with his small words, but it was obvious that he overestimated the other party's attainments in oriental charm.
"Is my sister bad?" Sutina asked.
Song Wenbin was speechless and stunned.
After a while, Su Tina understood what he meant, frowned slowly, and asked, "Then do you think Huo Yu doesn't look like a sister?"
Song Wenbin turned his head away and remained silent.
"Speak." Sutina's voice was already trembling.
"It has nothing to do with her." Song Wenbin said.
But obviously Sutina didn't think so. She cried so hard that she said, "I don't accept it. Why should she look at you? Why should she care about me? I was the one who went to your house to pretend to be pregnant. In Siberia, you also said that I was you." Object, why does she have to control me all the time? Even if her abilities are beyond the pale, I won’t accept her.”
Song Wenbin bit his lower lip and let the tears fall on his face without saying a word.
"I don't care what she thinks. She said I don't lack anything, and she has lacked nothing. She owns a land as big as Longchang. She drives a sports car at a young age and almost won the Olympic championship. Why should she say that I am not satisfied, I just want what I want in my heart, am I wrong??"
Song Wenbin felt acupuncture in his heart. No matter what, he didn't want to cause pain to the girl who had been traveling with him for so long. Maybe the phrase "like a sister" was an excuse, but the love in it was serious. He didn't want to see Sutina get hurt at all. .
"Stop crying." Song Wenbin wiped the corners of Sutina's eyes and said softly: "I didn't mean that..."
"I can't be like Huo Yu, and I can't be like her even if I cut my hair short." Sutina choked, sad and hopeless.
"I didn't say anything and you cried like this. Can you please stop being so sensitive?" Song Wenbin was helpless.
"Really? Then what are you thinking?" Sutina asked instantly.
"It doesn't matter what I think."
Song Wenbin said: "Because no matter what I think, nothing will happen to me and you two."
"why."
"I have to pay off the mortgage." Song Wenbin said with a sad chuckle: "You are really good, really, I have never seen anyone better than you, but what I want to live is, work is work, life is life, if If anything happens between you and me, I will lose my job."
"If you lose it, just lose it." Sutina said excitedly: "The world is so big and there are so many jobs to do, so what if I change it to another one."
Song Wenbin was very sad when he heard this.
Changing jobs is easier said than done. With such a salary, how many jobs can satisfy you?
"You know I can't do it." He shook his head and sighed.
"If I didn't have this job, would you be with me?" Sutina asked expectantly.
"If you didn't have this job, would you be with me?" Song Wenbin asked Sutina the same words.
"Of course~" Su Tina said, eagerly placing her head on Song Wenbin's collarbone, rubbing his chest with extreme contempt for the Seal Group and the four to five million fans of Station D, and sighed.
He took a breath and said, "Of course I will be with you. I have never met a better or more interesting person than you."
Song Wenbin felt the weight on his chest, but gritted his teeth and said calmly: "Without this job, you wouldn't even look at me in the crowd."
Su Tina raised her head from Song Wenbin's chest and was stunned.
"I'm not that special or interesting. It's the need of this job that makes me like this. What you like is just me at work. If you leave this job, you will soon get tired of me. That's all. .”
After that, he pushed Sutina away.
Sutina looked at him in astonishment: "How could you think of me like this?"
"Isn't what I said the truth?" Song Wenbin asked coldly.
Sutina was shocked and even a little incoherent: "This job is a fact... But I have thought about it many times this year, many, many times. I wish I knew you in high school... No, I want to know you in junior high school. , I even want to know you since elementary school. I want to play with you, go to and from school together... and then spend those boring and boring times together. But the reality is that I only met you in college. What do you want me to do? What can I do? How to change it?"
Song Wenbin was unmoved. He said indifferently: "I told you, I was very stupid in elementary school and junior high school. I can't come up with any way to prevent you from sleepwalking, and I can't make you feel interesting. It's the job that's interesting to you, not me."
Sutina choked with grievance: "Brother Song, do you think my emotions are fake?"
One sentence caused the defense line that Song Wenbin had finally built to collapse. He felt very sad and could only plead sincerely: "You said it yourself, everything between us comes from this job. Without this job, We will not have any intersection, this is a fact. I ask you, respect this job, okay? If these words are known to others, our job will be over, completely over!"
Sutina felt it was difficult to breathe, and even thinking became very difficult and heavy. She moaned desperately in sleep: "We can go to XJ in the future, and the country will give you a lot of land when we go there."
"I don't know how to farm," Song Wenbin said coldly.
After a few seconds of stasis, Sutina's expression collapsed. She insisted: "You just don't like me...that's why you find so many reasons..."
"It would be the same if you were replaced by Huo Yu, but Huo Yu wouldn't come and tell me this." Song Wenbin turned away and said honestly and calmly: "I don't have to explain anything to her."
Sutina finally lowered her head and stopped talking, but the passionate tears fell on Song Wenbin's face one drop at a time, silently.
Song Wenbin felt distressed and quickly wiped her eyes again, "Stop crying."
"It's okay, just think of me as a bitch." Su Tina said softly, pushing Song Wenbin's hand away.
She slowly retreated to the small bed behind her, with her back to Song Wenbin, hugging her knees and burying her head in them. Her shoulders didn't move, but she didn't make much sound.
Song Wenbin listened to the suppressed breathing beside him, and his heart felt like a knife. He didn't know how to deal with such a thing. He had never had such an experience. He would rather Sutina cried loudly than hear her suppress herself like this.
However, he really didn't know what to do. He didn't know where his heart had gone, under the deep sea, or floating in this wilderness. But like Sutina, his pain was real and uncontrollable.
"Su Tina..." Song Wenbin couldn't find the words and could only plead: "Stop crying."
"I resigned when I got back... I can't do this job anymore, I can't stand it anymore... I would rather find a place to stay and live in a dream, I don't want to, it's too uncomfortable..." Sutina spat out these words with great difficulty, each one The words are as heavy as a thousand pieces.
Song Wenbin shuddered.
Sutina resigns? If you just resign after filming the first episode, no one will say anything, or if you resign after filming the entire season, it is understandable, but after filming 7 episodes, the audience has already defaulted to this person, and the contract The second season of "The Movie" has not been completed yet. Now that I have resigned, I can't answer to the audience, the company, the investors, and no one. if they
If you give up halfway like this, you will have a bad reputation in the industry in the future, and it will be difficult to make money again.
"Sutina, please calm down and don't act recklessly." Song Wenbin knelt down and begged, holding Sutina's shoulders.
Sutina couldn't bear it anymore. She gasped, almost suffocating due to depression, and her tears almost wet the sheets. She choked and choked: "I... don't want to do this, but seeing Huo Yu smiling at you makes me so unhappy. I am obviously very happy." I like her, but I can’t see this. This makes me feel more uncomfortable than killing me. It’s better for you to get better in the future. Don’t let me know... I’m petty and can’t stand this stimulation..."
Stop thinking about it!
Song Wenbin was completely helpless. How could she alleviate her pain? How could she make all this disappear?
Is there any way to save this shaky team and this program that is on the verge of collapse?
After thinking for a long time, he decided to leave everything to time. Maybe as time goes by, Sutina will forget about herself. Maybe after a few years, she will have other lovers. After all, she is a young and beautiful girl with many suitors. At the moment, she is in a boiling stage of change. Maybe next year Sutina didn't think so. After she realized the value of a high-paying job, and when she met more and better people in society, she was able to let go of her youth.
"Susu."
Song Wenbin couldn't help but call out.
Sutina didn't respond. She was still suppressing her heartache and tears, trying to control her emotions.
Song Wenbin sat up and pushed her shoulder:
"Susu, wait until I finish paying off the mortgage, okay?"
Song Wenbin said with difficulty.
It's like pressing the pause button.
The muffled crying stopped immediately.
The girl raised her head and turned from facing away from him to facing him directly.
"Really?" She said in surprise with red and swollen eyes, "I can help you."
"No, no, no." Song Wenbin quickly waved his hand and said, "I haven't achieved much in my life. Just let me pay off the loan by myself. I feel a sense of accomplishment at least, right?"
"Pfft."
Sutina burst into laughter and scolded with a thick nasal voice: "You are really stupid."
"Yeah."
Song Wenbin said, seeing that Su Tina finally stopped crying, he felt relieved.
It may be shameful to run away, but it does work.
It has been 30 years since he paid off his mortgage. In this fast-paced era, no one can tell clearly what will happen in 3 years, let alone 30 years. No one can maintain such strong emotions for many years, so let Time will slowly break up these bonds. Maybe when Sutina gets tired of it, everything will be over. That would be the best.
"You can earn fifty thousand a month, which should be quick." Sutina said.
"Yes, soon."
Song Wenbin thought that he would have to find a reason to spend the money quickly when he returned to China this time.
"Then let's decide."
Sutina stretched out her little finger and whispered in anticipation.
Song Wenbin looked at that finger, but he couldn't help but think of the real and illusory moment at the bottom of the sea. As soon as he thought about it, a huge chaos suddenly arose in his heart, Siberia, the North Pole, the bottom of the sea, the ice surface, Song Wenbin, do you hate the teacher? Su Tina, Huo Yu, fans, travel, mortgage, work, love, everything is intertwined into a huge chaos, almost like a whirlpool that makes people crazy.
"No... don't do this..."
Song Wenbin managed to stay rational and said.
"Don't be like this?" Sutina didn't understand.
"We are all adults, stop being so childish." Song Wenbin said.
The chaos in my heart is growing crazily, tearing, roaring, and rolling.
please.
Please don't continue, please stop.
He begged in his mind.
Let’s turn the page.
keep traveling
.
Keep your job, stay sane, keep making money, pay off your loans, get rich, get rich, gain recognition, gain value, gain freedom.
Sutina glanced at her little finger and muttered: "That's right, we already held it last time..."
"right….."
Song Wenbin breathed a sigh of relief, it's over, the terrible Arctic, it's over, don't test me anymore.
The next second.
Warm lips pressed against Song Wenbin's lips.
