Human greed is endless.
At first, he just hoped that Jin Yan would not be afraid of him and not stay away from him.
Slowly, he hoped to get a look from her.
But time is like a deadly poison. His love for him, his restraint and forbearance, and his compromise have all had a huge backlash under the erosion of this poison.
The more he restrains himself, the more he forbears, the more he refuses to like or love, the more he compromises, the more intense his longing becomes.
Sometimes it transforms into a long arrow covered with barbs, sometimes it transforms into a sea of fire filled with blazing flames, sometimes it turns into a dark and terrifying bloody mouth, sometimes it turns into a dark and deep abyss with no bottom...
The long arrow seemed to have been transformed by top-level mechanism skills, and it was constantly changing into various forms, but every time it transformed, it had to be tested on him. He was shot full of holes, and blood penetrated from every one. The wounds on his body spurted out, dyeing his world a bloody red.
He is also despising himself.
You shouldn't like Jin Yan.
But as luck would have it, his feelings for her changed.
He deserves this kind of punishment.
But he was unwilling to do so.
He had watched her grow up since he was a child. They were not related by blood, and they were not on the same household register. He was just taken in by his kind-hearted brother. He was the person who knew her best. Why couldn't he love her?
He couldn't bear to watch others confess to Jin Yan, so how could he watch her marry someone else, get married to another man, and grow old together?
In such a battle between heaven and man, he, covered with blood holes, walked calmly through a blurry and deformed world with bare feet, and fell into the sea of flaming flames.
The blazing flames were devouring his hair, his skin, his flesh and blood, his ribs...
Everything was burned and turned into a piece of powder that could be dispersed without wind.
But his heart was still beating vigorously.
What was not devoured by the sea of fire was his love.
He loves Jin Yan.
There is no doubt about this.
From childhood to adulthood, he has always loved her with his own life.
But the confession two years ago ruined everything. For many days and nights after escaping, he even frantically wanted to go back to the past and kill the boy.
If there hadn't been that confession, if he hadn't broken through that confession, he wouldn't have discovered that he was jealous of a brat who was new to the world and had nothing, and that his feelings had actually changed...
But he couldn't turn back time, and he couldn't go back to the past.
Love is already in love, he has no choice.
If the only option left in front of him is "not to love", then he would rather die.
Let that bloody maw filled with all things monstrous, terrifying, and ghastly swallow him up and make him disappear.
But how could he be willing to do so?
Of course he was unwilling to do so.
It was obvious that he was the one who loved her most.
If you are not willing to accept it, then accept it calmly.
After accepting his feelings, he had a little extravagant hope in his heart. It didn't matter what other people thought, but he didn't want Jin Yan to regard him as a weirdo or even a pervert.
But greed is endless.
With a little extravagant hope, there will be more.
Greed continued to grow, and now, he began to long for her response, even if it was just a look.
But that wasn't enough, he even wanted the same feelings.
And he knew very well that the result of doing so would be that if he was not careful, he would fall miserably, break into pieces, and remain under the unfathomable abyss forever.
But he came back anyway.
If you can't get it...
Then let him fall to pieces, let him be buried in the dark abyss closed to the sky.
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During the time when no one spoke, time was stretched and everything slowed down, but people's senses became sharper.
Yu Qingtang thought about how to organize his words and apologize for leaving without saying goodbye two years ago.
Yes, he didn't want to confess on such a day.
He hoped that Jin Yan could have a happy birthday, as he had always done.
But even so, he was still absent from last year's birthday. Even if he adds too many gifts and too many blessings in the future, he will not be able to make up for this day last year.
He racked his brains, but his mind went blank. He could only hear his heartbeat that was too high and too fast and Jin Yan's shallow breathing. All he could see was a girl who was stubborn and refused to look back at him.
I don't know how long it took, but Jin Yan heard him say "I'm sorry."
She was slightly startled.
At this time, Yu Qingtang said again: "Happy birthday, baby."
In fact, after she reached the age of ten, Jin Yan stopped letting her family call her that. Everyone said they knew it, but they would still call her that in private when there were no outsiders or when they were excited and happy.
It was even more strange to hear it coming from Yu Qingtang's mouth.
She was angry and wanted to say what did you do two years ago and where have you been in the past two years. Even if you have to think about something, you can always answer the phone, right?
But before she could make a sound, Zhou He's hearty and sunny voice came from outside, "Jin Yan? Where is our little princess? Aunt Mu said grandma made you a new dress, let me see it quickly!"
Jin Yan stood up with a normal expression.
She was about to walk towards the door, but Yu Qingtang grabbed her wrist.
Jin Yan turned around and said, "Uncle?"
Yu Qingtang's breathing was slightly stagnant, and then he quickly let go of Jin Yan as if he had been burned, but after a while, the arm was still hanging in the air as if it was stiff.
His expression was bitter, and there was endless sadness hidden in his eyes, like an isolated island.
After just one glance, Jin Yan's heart was scalded.
She took a breath, and a smile appeared on her face the moment she turned her head.
Zhou He and Xie Jing came in one after the other. The expectant looks on their faces froze when they saw the tall, handsome, mature and steady man behind Jin Yan.
Zhou He frowned, the expectation and joy faded from his face, leaving only mocking concern, "Uncle? When did you come back?"
When he first arrived in Lanzhen when he was seven years old, he never called Yu Qingtang uncle.
Now it is called this, the purpose is self-evident.
And Yu Qingtang knew this very well, so he just said "hmm" lightly.
He has always been indifferent and distant towards outsiders.
But the calmer Yu Qingtang becomes, the angrier Zhou He becomes.
After making Jin Yan sad for two years, why could he still act as if nothing had happened?
Seeing Zhou He's temper rising, and fearing that he might say the wrong thing and disrupt Jin Yan's coming-of-age ceremony, Xie Jing stepped up and stood in front of him.
He also called him uncle, but the irony was not that strong. After all, their relationship was different from Zhou He's.
When he first arrived at the He family, he didn't like Yu Qingtang, who was trusted and relied on unconditionally by Jin Yan, and Yu Qingtang didn't like him either. They were hostile to each other at that time.
But despite this, Yu Qingtang still takes care of and protects him. This is the reason why he respects Yu Qingtang.
But respect does not mean no dispute.
Even if his opponent is Yu Qingtang, he will not give in even a cent.
Good night, sweet dreams
