"Wow~"
In the river below, the water is rushing and noisy.
It seems like the passing years are flowing eastwards, day and night.
Jiang Kan leaned against the chest-high stone railing, facing the river, holding the handrail behind him with open hands, a look of helplessness and determination on his upturned face.
Yesterday, he just celebrated his fortieth birthday.
This day should have been a good celebration, but instead it was spent in tearing, noise and chaos.
At the age of 37, as a veteran in the IT industry, I encountered the 35-year-old layoff wave that spread across the country. I was forced to leave a top three IT company in the country and lost my high salary and decent social status.
It is very difficult for people of this age to get re-employed, so after submitting hundreds of resumes to no avail, I tried to open a small shop to sell tobacco, alcohol, tea and daily necessities. However, my wife rejected me and it was embarrassing to be a hawker, so I finally gave up. .
He began to think about doing self-media at home. Although he achieved certain results during this period, he was not a professional in this field and needed to learn it all over again. After three years, he only laid the foundation and did not make much money.
It was also from that time that his wife, who was 5 years younger than him, lost her former sweetness and tenderness.
Starting from no longer being considerate towards him, he gradually turned his nose up and raised his eyes.
Then it turned into being bossy and cold-faced.
In the end, it turned into yelling and punching at every turn.
She scolded him as an incompetent man, dragging down her youth and lowering her quality of life.
She scolded him for not wanting to make progress, staying in the house all day, and not looking in the mirror because he wanted to be an Internet celebrity.
It was his 40th birthday yesterday, and his wife didn't show any sign of it.
He just hugged his daughter and said, "My dear daughter, can you use your New Year's money to buy a birthday cake for daddy?"
I was scolded by my wife who was lying on the sofa watching TV:
"You guys have not worked or gone out to make money for three years, and you still want to defraud children of their New Year's money to buy cakes? Are you still a man?"
He actually wanted to ask. He had worked in one of the top three companies in the country for more than ten years, during which he also served as a department head for several years. His average annual income was in the dozens at least. How much did he earn in the ten years after getting married? All wages were handed over to my wife... Why do I always feel that life is very urgent at this time, and I am struggling to get by?
But he knew it was best not to say this, otherwise the situation would become even worse.
Then, there is a common one-sided verbal abuse and scolding between husband and wife.
The more the wife scolded, the angrier she became, and the more she thought about it, the more she suffered. After giving Jiang Kan a slap in the face, she took the child back to her parents' home.
Before leaving, he said a harsh word:
"If I lived as useless as you, I would have killed myself by jumping off the bridge!"
Jiang Kan was so angry that his mouth was filled with smoke.
After so many years of giving and giving in, he never retaliates when he is scolded, his parents help take care of the children after housework is done, and his wife buys whatever she wants.
If I want to travel, I want to go to Northern Europe and go to South Australia.
Although it is a bit more expensive and luxurious, it is all for the sake of maintaining family harmony, for the happiness between husband and wife, and for the healthy growth of children.
The two-million-dollar house was fully paid for by himself before marriage, and it did not drag down a penny of the family's living expenses.
After getting married, the 500,000 Sihuan Q5 was bought by the daughter-in-law so that she could take her father-in-law and mother-in-law on an outing together.
The child's annual tuition of RMB 50,000 is paid out of his own pocket.
My daughter-in-law works as a primary school teacher and only earns 3,000 yuan a month. When she was first introduced to him, her eyes were filled with stars. When she took the initiative to pursue him, she looked charming and obedient.
I didn't expect that she would behave like this after she lost her job...
"well……"
Jiang Kan let out a big sigh of relief, looked at the surging river under his feet, and made up his mind.
But at this time, a long song came to his ears:
"A good person like me
I should have lived a brilliant life
How come more than twenty years have ended?
Still floating in the sea of people
"
"Eh? What kind of song is this? Is it so full of vicissitudes and despair?"
Just as he was about to let go of his hands, Jiang Kan jumped down and grabbed the railing behind him, looking suspiciously in the direction of the singing.
But the strange thing is that there is no one in the direction where the "singing" comes from.
In order not to implicate the brave people who might show up, Jiang Kan specially chose an early morning.
There are only occasional vehicles on the bridge now, and not a single pedestrian.
"Strange, who is singing?"
He searched left and right, but could not see the source of the singing.
But the voice continued to ring in his ears, sweet and tearful.
"A smart person like me
Bid farewell to simplicity long ago
Why did you still use a relationship?
To change my scars
"
"hiss……"
Jiang Kan felt his scalp tingle when he heard this.
"This lyrics is so well written, it exactly matches my current mood..."
He didn't realize that his hands were already tightly clasped on the stone railing, and his slightly bent legs gradually stood up straight.
"A confused person like me
people like me looking for
A mediocre person like me
How many other people have you met?
"
"..."
The sound of singing could be heard, but Jiang Kan gradually fell silent.
Ever since he stepped out of college and plunged into the big dye vat of society, he has been constantly looking for his own way forward and his own direction.
He was confusedly looking for his career, confusedly looking for his lover, hesitating and wandering at countless crossroads in life, and choosing his own direction countless times without hesitation or hesitation.
Over the past forty years, there have been ups and downs, ups and downs.
I have suffered, been tired, cried and laughed.
There have been highs and lows in life.
There were times when I was high-spirited, and there were times when I cried alone, looking up at the bright moon and missing my hometown.
However, he has made it through this journey, and although he has stumbled, he has achieved some success.
But every time, he would be scolded bloody by his former little fangirl wife, now a tigress and resentful wife, leaving him with nowhere to vent his anger.
Sometimes he really wonders whether he has really done nothing in his life and is no better than the parents of the children in his wife's class. All of them are either powerful bureau chiefs or CEOs of listed companies...
"A vulgar person like me
I never like to pretend to be serious
Why do I occasionally hear old songs?
Suddenly I was stunned
"
…
The more he listened to this song, the deeper Jiang Kan felt.
He grabbed the stone railing with his fingers and pinched it tighter and tighter.
His eyes gradually became red, and he became more and more excited, excited, and empathetic.
Although he didn't know who was singing, he suddenly felt that the song was singing about his troubled life in the past forty years!
Suddenly, the next lyrics appeared in front of his eyes, floating just below his eyes like subtitles:
"A confused person like me
people like me looking for
A mediocre person like me
How many other people have you met?
"
Jiang Kan couldn't help but follow the melody and sang according to the lyrics.
At this time, how could he be in the mood to care about how this bizarre scene happened?
How can I care about the origin of this song?
Who is in the mood to care about the singer of this magical voice?
He just followed the melody and singing voice in his mind and sang loudly:
"A lonely person like me
A stupid person like me
A person like me who refuses to be ordinary
how many people are there in the world
A weird person like me
Will anyone feel sorry for you?
"
Jiang Kan's voice became louder and louder as he sang. His love reached the depths and his blood boiled.
He almost tried his best to sing this last line, roaring and roaring!
Tears and tears flowed, heartbreaking.
At that moment, his singing even surpassed the rolling river water at his feet and spread far and wide.
"Ding!"
"The score for your performance just now: 100 points, perfect score!"
"Congratulations, you have obtained the qualification to bind to this system. Do you want to bind?"
