"Chu Xuan, I don't want to fall in love yet. Wouldn't it be better for us to be friends?"
The Holy City in May was sunny and sunny, and the warm sun shone through the gaps in the treetops. Chu Xuan subconsciously narrowed his eyes.
He looked at the seventeen or eighteen-year-old girl in front of him. The sun shone on the side of her face, which made one side of her cheek glow slightly, with that kind of golden light.
The girl was smiling heartlessly, and the dimples on her cheeks gave the girl a sweet and playful air, making everything look so beautiful.
Chu Xuan was a little stunned.
I am just a forty-year-old man who works hard and has no house or car.
How could you stand with such a beautiful girl?
"Chu Xuan, when we are admitted to college together, I will definitely let you be my boyfriend."
There was a buzzing sound in my ears, and my head felt swollen.
Chu Xuan tried to take a deep breath and calm down. As he blinked gently, the girl in front of him slowly became clear.
She was wearing a short skirt with the flower of the other side printed on it, and her creamy skin exuded a soft light.
The girl was confused when she saw the young man in front of her, with a hint of impatience in her eyes:
"Chu Xuan, we are in our third year of high school now, and the college entrance examination is in one month. We have to focus on studying. How many times do you have to tell me before you understand?"
Chu Xuan frowned and looked around.
In front of us is a brand-new teaching building, and behind us is a playground paved with plastic track.
The girl in front of her is pure and tender, like a budding flower, spotless.
Memories that had long been forgotten slowly came back to mind.
Now in her senior year of high school, she is confessing her love to Xu Shanshan.
Chu Xuan and Xu Shanshan were originally neighbors, and they lived across from each other.
The two have been inseparable since kindergarten.
When I was a child, the adults of the two families often joked that the two little people would definitely be together when they grow up.
Chu Xuan believed it to be true.
So he regarded Xu Shanshan as his bride.
From childhood to adulthood, Chu Xuan has always held her in his hands and regarded her as a treasure.
He brought her meals when she was hungry, bought her milk tea when she was thirsty, stayed with her to get her IV drip when she was sick, held her umbrella when it rained, carried shopping bags for her when she went shopping, and prepared gifts for her on her birthday. She wanted to watch a concert, and Chu Xuan also I would spend half a year's savings and queue up all night to buy tickets for her...
Chu Xuan dedicated everything he had to the other party.
He even raised her as a daughter.
However, she had given so much that she took it for granted.
Chu Xuan confessed to her countless times, but the answer he got was the same every time.
【We are still young】
[I will consider you when I enter university]
【Give me a little more time】
[Chu Xuan...Actually, I have always regarded you as my brother]
Chu Xuan was not a shameless licker. In fact, he also chose to give up after his confession was rejected midway.
However, as a childhood sweetheart, Xu Shanshan really knows herself too well.
She will not really refuse, but will continue to give herself hope.
【Did I say I don’t like you】
[You know, I have a very slow personality]
[Actually, I'm just testing you]
At first, Chu Xuan really thought that she was just slow to warm up.
As long as he gives 100%, he will be able to melt her heart.
However……
The fifth year after graduating from college.
Chu Xuan spent half a year's savings to buy the diamond ring she had always wanted.
That day he happily came downstairs to her company, wanting to surprise her.
As a result, they saw Xu Shanshan nestling in the arms of a middle-aged man.
Chu Xuan knew that man, and he was Xu Shanshan's boss. One time Xu Shanshan got drunk at a party, and he was the one who sent the drunk Xu Shanshan home. Chu Xuan even thanked him for this.
And now, just outside Xu Shanshan's company, the three of them bumped into each other.
For the first time, Chu Xuan saw such rich expressions on Xu Shanshan's face.
From surprise to astonishment, from panic to numbness, at the end, she showed an expression of relief.
Then she hugged the middle-aged man next to her tightly and introduced with a happy face: "This is my neighbor's brother. He usually takes good care of me. I always treat him as my biological brother."
The word "brother" is emphasized.
As if she was afraid that the middle-aged man would misunderstand, Xu Shanshan didn't even say goodbye to her, let alone take the diamond ring in her hand.
She just disappeared into her own world.
Childhood sweethearts for twenty-seven years.
It can't compare to the twenty-seven days of gentleness of the company boss.
The so-called slow temperament, the so-called test, the so-called coldness, these are only for Chu Xuan.
When faced with the pursuit of the company boss, this cold and proud goddess instantly became enthusiastic and open.
Twenty-seven years of sincerity fed the dog.
From that day on, Chu Xuan regarded women as ghosts.
I completely sealed my heart and never fell in love again.
Forty years old and alone!
And now...
If he remembers correctly, he stayed up late and worked overtime. When he left the company, he had a car accident and lay dying in the intensive care unit.
He wanted to see his childhood sweetheart at the last moment of his life, so he called Xu Shanshan, but the other person only said: I hope he won't disturb her life.
At that moment, there was no love in Chu Xuan's heart, only hatred.
Just when he thought he would die alone, the door of the ward was pushed open, and a tearful woman ran in.
Chu Xuan, whose life was counting down, opened his eyes weakly, and what he saw was a sparkling woman.
She is wearing a long red dress, like a gorgeous rose.
As bright as the sun.
Even though they had been separated for twenty-two years, Chu Xuan still recognized at a glance that the woman by his bedside was none other than his high school classmate, Zhao Shuangshuang.
If childhood sweetheart Xu Shanshan is a white lotus.
Then Zhao Shuangshuang is the sunflower in his mind.
At the end of her life, Xu Shanshan, who was held in the palm of her hand, did not look at herself.
On the contrary, it was the female classmate who was ignored by him and never looked at seriously, who accompanied him through the last journey of his life.
She held her hand tightly and cried heartbrokenly.
"Chu Xuan, you are a big bastard. You said that as long as Xu Shanshan doesn't want you anymore, you will come back to me."
"Chu Xuan, I've liked you since I was a freshman in high school. I've liked you for twenty-five years now. Why don't you always look at me again?"
"Don't leave me alone, okay~"
"Chu Xuan, if there is an afterlife, I will boldly confess to you. I will stand in front of you dressed beautifully. I will go to the movies with you and go to the mall together. I will buy a lot of things for you. Help me carry the shopping bag, I want..."
The eyelids are getting heavier.
The moment he closed his eyes, Chu Xuan realized that he had once been someone else's Bai Yueguang.
I am the one who is most disappointed.
The last thought in my heart is: If there is an afterlife, I must take revenge on my childhood sweetheart who made me lose everything.
Let her taste what it feels like to be constantly teased, and finally to be ruthlessly abandoned and trampled on the mud.
Then find your own treasured female roommate.
Accompany her daily necessities, accompany her vigorously.
Go look at the flowers and the sea with her.
Finally, spend your first time with her!
…
"So, I'm back?"
Chu Xuan looked at the campus in his memory,
Looking at the flower-like childhood sweetheart in front of me.
He took a deep breath, and then exhaled heavily, feeling that even the air was filled with a sweet smell.
When I raised my head, the rising sun on the horizon was warm and dazzling.
The slowly beating heart clearly told him that all this was true.
It's 2008 now.
I am eighteen years old.
The childhood sweetheart in front of me is still cold and proud.
I haven't missed that treasured female classmate who is always in the corner, watching me silently.
Everything comes in time.
Everything was just right!
Nothing will be spared!
