It would be a lie to say that I am not sad, but it is impossible to let go of my obsession.
When Xu Qingmo heard the sound, she put down the book in her hand. She looked at Meng Hetong who came in through the window and was walking cautiously towards her. She was not surprised and just asked lightly: "What are you doing?" coming?"
Meng Hetong suddenly took out a bunch of candied haws from his arms: "I was studying in the yard, and the candied haws outside was yelling, which really made me uneasy. I originally just wanted to drive him away, but the man who sold the candied haws happened to be The boy looked like he was no more than twelve or thirteen years old, and he was so thin that he looked a little pitiful. I couldn't bear it anymore, so I bought all the candied haws he had, and I almost divided them, but I didn't want one to be left in the end."
Xu Qingmo looked at the candied haws in Meng Hetong's hand. The red hawthorns were wrapped in amber syrup. They looked round and round. They didn't look like they were leftovers, but looked like they had been carefully selected.
Xu Qingmo did not expose him, took the candied haws, smiled and said thank you.
Meng Hetong was naturally very happy when he saw that she liked it, so he sat down next to Xu Qingmo comfortably: "Is it delicious?"
The candied haws were a bit sour, but Xu Qingmo still ate them one bite at a time: "It's delicious!"
She has to taste this taste more, after all, in the future, she is afraid that she will become like that where she can't taste any taste again. Just thinking about it makes a trace of sadness rise in her heart.
Xu Qingmo looked at Meng Hetong and suddenly asked: "Meng Hetong, what do you want to do in the future?"
"Me?" Meng Hetong paused, then raised his head, with a bit of pride in his eyebrows, "My wife and children are on the hot bed!"
Xu Qingmo laughed: "That's it, how useless it is!"
"Why are you so hopeless? The only thing a man can do is to cultivate his moral integrity, manage his family, govern his country, and bring peace to the world. I can do that to protect my family and my country, but I still don't have a wife and children. Everyone in the world talks about having a family and a career. Now I have a career and a family. It’s not done yet, I’m really ashamed!” Meng Hetong sighed with helplessness on his face.
Xu Qingmo was amused by his appearance and said, "Is it so important that my wife and children are on the hot bed?"
"Xu Qingmo, why are you defending your home and country?" Meng Hetong asked without answering.
Xu Qingmo paused, then lowered his gaze: "In order to rehabilitate the Xu family, in order to protect the people around him..."
Meng Hetong held Xu Qingmo's hand: "What a coincidence, so do I!"
Xu Qingmo raised her eyes to look at Meng Hetong, and suddenly her heart ached. She thought of Meng Hetong sitting in front of her tombstone, eating candied haws in loneliness. At that moment, she was reluctant to let go. She was reluctant to let go of the days to come. Meng Hetong was like this again. Walking alone.
Meng Hetong saw a bit of sadness in Xu Qingmo's eyes, and felt a little strange, so he couldn't help but ask, "What's wrong?"
"I was thinking that at that time, every time you came to my grave, you were alone, and then you muttered without knowing what you were talking about. At first, I thought you were annoying, but then I thought you could do it from time to time. Come on, it's really lonely when the other person is a ghost." Xu Qingmo looked at the clasped hands with a bit of sadness in his eyes.
"You were probably a lonely ghost at that time, right? All serious ghosts have long since reincarnated. Only ghosts with resentment in their hearts and become lonely ghosts will stay in the world." Meng Hetong put Xu Qingmo's hand away. On the cheek, "You should have been more lonely at that time!"
The two people were relatively speechless, their eyes were full of heartache for each other. They felt sorry for each other and pitied each other.
"You said that the two of us had never had any contact with each other before. Why did it become what it is now?" Xu Qingmo was a little strange. The two people who had never interacted with each other before were now inextricably linked.
"After my father left, I drank all day long to drown my sorrows and became more and more decadent. My mother was not the kind of person who would advise me. She understood my pain, but she didn't know how to comfort me. She didn't even know how to comfort me. After comforting herself, I finally became what everyone calls a playboy." Meng Hetong lowered his eyes and smiled bitterly.
Xu Qingmo squeezed his hand and tried to comfort him.
Meng Hetong patted Xu Qingmo to reassure her, and then continued: "I watched the destruction of the Xu family with my own eyes, watched you personally send away your relatives one after another, and finally became alone. I originally thought you would change You have to be like me, but I didn’t expect that you would actually rise up and rush to the battlefield.”
"I've never been someone who just sits there and waits to die!" Xu Qingmo lowered his head and smiled, "Did you secretly laugh at me at that time? I don't know how high the sky is or how evil people are."
Meng Hetong laughed softly: "To be honest, when I was drinking with others, I did laugh at you with them, but in fact you have become the most important light that supports my survival."
"Um?"
"I have always felt that I have nothing left in my life. As long as there is no hope, there is no disappointment. But your unrepentance has become my last hope. I began to look forward to your triumphant return, and I began to wait for your comeback against the wind. But I I never expected that you would finally be defeated in Northern Xinjiang. At that time, my faith seemed to have collapsed, and the light in my life became dim, and I began to change back to my original self." Meng Hetong lowered his head, Can't see his gaze clearly.
"Then it fell in front of you, with a bloody head and a mess all over. At that time, you probably felt more terrible, right?" Xu Qingmo smiled, but his eyes were full of bitterness.
Meng Hetong raised his eyes to look at Xu Qingmo and shook his head: "When I saw you there, I knew you had been framed. I saw the prince. I saw him being taken away in that attic. At that time I guess you were imprisoned there by him!"
Xu Qingmo suddenly remembered that attic and those terrible days.
"But even like this, even if you used the most decisive method, you still didn't bow your head. You didn't have time to make a comeback, but you never refused to admit defeat. That day I suddenly understood a truth. Anyway, you will die in the end. , instead of sitting back and waiting for death, why not give it a try!" Meng Hetong looked at Xu Qingmo, his eyes becoming a little moist.
"A roll of straw mat is a huge kindness!" Xu Qingmo lowered his eyes and smiled, "But I never thought that this kindness would end up being given to me! Now that I think about it, it's still a big loss! "
Meng Hetong frowned: "Why, you regretted it?"
"Not really, I just feel a little bit at a disadvantage!" Xu Qingmo smiled.
Meng Hetong stood up angrily: "Whether you suffer a loss or not, it's a done deal now. You can't regret it no matter what you say!"
Xu Qingmo looked at Meng Hetong standing in front of him and smiled softly: "Why do you have to regret it? Now I am willing to marry you!"
