There is a place called Chaicun more than ten kilometers southeast of Qingshan Town. The scenery in the mountains behind Chaicun is beautiful. In recent years, the tourism industry has been greatly developed, and various B&Bs have sprung up like bamboo shoots after a rain.
Yu Guang called for a ride-hailing, but the car refused to go any further when it reached the entrance of Chaicun. Yu Guang didn't force it, and after paying the money, he got out of the car, then went to the village and spent fifty yuan to ask an uncle to drive a tricycle and took him to a place called Maple Ridge in the mountains behind.
The uncle was very talkative. As soon as the car started to move, he asked him: "Who are you going to see in Maple Ridge?"
Out of the corner of his eye he replied: "Family."
The uncle glanced at him and said, "You don't seem to be very old. Are you thirty years old?"
"More than thirty." Yu Guang replied.
"You didn't bring anything with you? At this time, none of the shops there are open." The uncle said again.
Looking ahead from the corner of his eye, he hummed softly: "I know."
The uncle saw that he didn't want to talk about this kind of topic, so he smiled and talked about other things. Out of the corner of my eye, I responded one after another.
Ten minutes later, the tricycle arrived at the parking lot under Maple Ridge.
"Can we come here?" the uncle asked him.
Out of the corner of his eye he nodded and said yes.
After the uncle turned the tricycle around, he suddenly stopped and asked him: "Do you want me to wait for you?" As he said that, the uncle seemed to be worried about Yu Guang's misunderstanding, and added: "Don't worry, I won't charge you when I get back."
Yu Guang shook his head and said: "No, thank you."
Seeing this, the uncle sighed quietly and left.
Out of the corner of his eye, he turned around and looked at the majestic door not far away. After taking a deep breath, he stepped forward.
On the sunny slopes, pines and cypresses are evergreen.
Out of the corner of his eye, he found the one that belonged to them among the rows of gray and white stone monuments.
He didn't dare to get close, and sat down on the ground two or three meters away, quietly looking at the two photos he personally selected on the stone tablet not far away. After seven years of exposure to wind and sun, the photos have faded. But the face above has become increasingly clear in his mind over the years. He could always hear them asking him why he hadn't found Zhiyuan yet. Those questions were deafening in the dark nights.
"I'm sorry, I haven't found him yet." He murmured softly, the guilt in his eyes mixed with sadness, like the mountain stream, not turbulent, but never stopping.
He sat there under the scorching sun, but it seemed like he was sitting in the cold winter snow.
Until the red sun sets.
The appearance of the administrator finally brought Yu Guang back to the world.
"Let's go, the sun is going down." The administrator said, reaching out to help him. Yu Guang didn't refuse, and slowly stood up with his strength. His body, which had not moved for a long time, was stiff and heavy. It took him a while to regain his strength.
The administrator glanced at the stone monument not far away, sighed, and said: "Young man, it's been so many years, let it pass. Life and death are fateful. We humans can only accept our fate."
Yu Guang did not respond.
Accepting your fate is easy to say, but there are a few people who can do it easily!
He can't do it.
He thought they wouldn't be able to do it if they lived.
The winding mountain road is deserted.
Yu Guang walked alone, facing the mountain wind, walking slowly. In his mind, the previous twenty years of his life flashed through scene after scene, finally stopping at that day seven years ago.
He watched his mother fall down in front of him and never stood up again.
From that day on, his life came to a complete halt.
In the past seven years, he had been busy but confused. He could not find salvation, and he did not even dare to die. He was afraid of seeing them, and even more afraid that they would not see him.
Moisture spread on his face in the wind.
He raised his hand to wipe it in confusion, put it in front of his eyes and looked at it, and suddenly laughed.
That day, his father slapped him in the face, stared at him like an enemy, and asked him: "Why do you have the right to cry?"
Yes, why does he have the right to cry?
He bought the lives of Xiao Yuan and his mother with two million, so why did he have the right to cry?
But what can he do?
On one side is his mother who has lost his life, and on the other side is his father who is in critical condition but still alive. How should he choose?
He didn't have the right to cry, but if it came to him again, he would still choose this way.
Do you regret it?
In the past seven years, countless days and nights, he has asked himself this question more than once, and the answer has never been the second.
But he felt guilty.
He hates that he has no ability, hates that he has no money, and hates many, many things.
These hatreds have tortured him constantly during these seven years. While making him miserable, they also reminded him that he was still alive.
Probably only in this way can he survive.
2016, June 3, 20:17 pm.
Cottage Resort.
When I walked in out of the corner of my eye, the little girl at the front desk was sitting on the sofa watching TV with her mobile phone. She probably saw some interesting scene and giggled loudly.
Out of the corner of his eye, he shouted twice to attract the little girl's attention from the phone.
Seeing someone coming, the little girl was a little embarrassed, hurriedly put away her cell phone, and got up to greet him.
After booking the room, he asked her out of the corner of his eye, "Is there anything to eat now?"
The little girl glanced at the wall clock on the wall, thought for a moment, and said: "Auntie has already got off work, but there are noodles in the kitchen. If you want to eat, I can make you a bowl, but it may not be very delicious. If you want ?"
Yu Guang nodded: "If you want, I'll trouble you. How much is it?"
The little girl waved her hands and said with a grin: "It's just a bowl of noodles, no charge. Do you want to eat here? Or should I send it to your room later?"
Yu Guang was embarrassed to bother the little girl so much, so he said, "Let's eat here."
"Okay, then you go sit down and rest for a while. You'll be fine soon." After the little girl said that, she walked out from behind the front desk and walked to the kitchen. After walking a few steps, he stopped again and asked Yu Guang: "Do you eat green onions?"
"I'm not picky about food." Yu Guang replied with a smile.
The little girl's eyes were bright and she raised her hand to give him an OK gesture.
The noodles came very quickly, noodles with clear soup, a poached egg on top, and some blanched vegetables. The little girl also paired it with a plate of peanuts and a small bag of pickled mustard.
"There's nothing in the kitchen, you can just eat." The little girl said and sat down opposite Yu Guang.
Yu Guang hadn't eaten much all day. Although the noodles had no taste, he was hungry, but he thought they tasted good. After eating, he looked up and smiled at the little girl and said, "It tastes good, thank you."
When the little girl heard this, her whole face suddenly lit up.
"Really?" The little girl couldn't believe it: "It's so delicious?"
Yu Guang nodded: "Yeah, it's delicious."
The little girl was very happy: "You still have good taste."
Yu Guang was amused by his words and asked her: "Did anyone say it wasn't delicious?"
The little girl pouted when she heard this and said, "My boyfriend, he said that the noodles I made were the most disgusting he has ever tasted."
Yu Guang listened, hesitated for a moment, and said seriously: "He is not suitable for you."
I thought the little girl would be unhappy after hearing this, but unexpectedly, she actually nodded seriously: "I think so too, so I plan to let him become my ex-boyfriend!" After that, she grinned at Yu Guang again, looking at Looking at his face from the corner of his eye, he asked with a little curiosity: "Uncle, what about you? Do you have a girlfriend?"
He blinked out of the corner of his eye and said, "You already call me uncle, do you think I do?"
When the little girl heard this, she said with a little disappointment: "Sure enough, there are no good-looking men left!" After that, she stood up and put away the bowl. Yu Guang was embarrassed to let her wash it, so he quickly grabbed it and said, "I'll go wash it. , where is the kitchen?”
The little girl was not polite to him. After pointing in the direction of the kitchen, she sat back on the sofa.
After washing the dishes out of the corner of his eye and coming out, he saw that the little girl was sitting back behind the front desk and continuing to watch her TV. He greeted her out of the corner of his eye and went to the room.
