Shen Lansui had just come out of the bathroom and felt cold, so she walked to the closet and took a cloak and put it on her body.
As a result, as soon as she turned around, she saw Lu Xingyue standing at the door looking at her. She didn't know what he was thinking. His expression... was hard to describe.
Their eyes met for a moment, and Shen Lansui suddenly felt that he seemed sad.
She stepped forward hesitantly and asked in a low voice: "What happened?"
Lu Xingyue pursed his lips, and his eyelashes suddenly trembled. He wanted to say something but couldn't.
This tall man showed such a confused and fragile look in front of her for the first time.
Shen Lansui wanted to ask more, but seeing him like this he couldn't say anything for the time being, so she simply held his hand and said, "It's so cold, did you go out to enjoy the breeze behind my back?"
Lu Xingyue pulled his lips and said hoarsely: "No."
"It just so happens that my hands are warm. Sit down and I'll warm you up." Shen Lansui just held his hand and walked to the couch to sit down. The two of them were next to each other, facing each other. No one spoke, only the words on their palms. The temperatures blend into each other.
At this moment, these words instantly brought Lu Xingyue back to the night of their wedding.
When the two met for the first time, she was actually a little hesitant when she took her hand, and her meekness was just fake. He could tell, but he didn't expose it.
It was like yesterday reappearing at this moment, but the concern in her eyes could not be faked.
Lu Xingyue was suddenly burned.
He held Shen Lansui's hand instead, raised his head and put it on the back of her hand, and said tremblingly: "I'm sorry."
Shen Lansui's heart tightened, and she quickly asked: "Why are you apologizing again? Why are you sorry for me?"
Lu Xingyue shook his head and didn't get up.
Seeing him like this, Shen Lansui felt inexplicably sour. She raised her other hand and patted his shoulder gently.
"Want a hug?"
she asked suddenly.
Lu Xingyue stiffened for a moment, and Shen Lansui reflected on whether he had asked too directly and boldly, without the subtlety of a boudoir woman?
Unexpectedly, the next moment, Lu Xingyue hugged her up and hugged her tightly with his arms. The strength was so strong that Shen Lansui felt as if she was about to be crushed.
Lu Xingyue had always made her feel calm and calm before, as if he wouldn't blink even if the mountain collapsed.
But the vulnerability he showed tonight made Shen Lansui realize that no matter how strong he was to the outside world, he was just a human being. Before the end of the world, he was still just a college student who was not familiar with the world.
Shen Lansui sighed and patted his back gently.
The lights are exploding and the fire is glowing.
Lu Xingyue took a deep breath and spoke in a low voice with this posture: "I asked people to check on Chongxi before, but no clues were found. Then I went to check on my eldest brother, and I got an unexpected result."
Shen Lansui's eyelids twitched suddenly, "What did you find?"
Judging from Lu Xingyue's reaction, it was probably related to her.
Lu Xingyue paused and tightened his arms, as if he was afraid that she would run away.
Shen Lansui became more and more nervous.
"The eldest lady brought up the matter of marriage, not because you and I are in the same horoscope." Lu Xingyue said sternly, "but because Lu Mingchao intended to marry you, and he did not hesitate to fall out with the eldest lady for this."
"Lu..." Shen Lansui was stunned: "Lu Mingchao wants to marry me?"
She originally thought that Lu Mingchao simply liked her, but she didn't expect that there was such a story behind it, that it was even talking about marriage? But why is there nothing in the memory of the original owner?
She wanted to get out of Lu Xingyue's arms and tried to push his shoulder. Lu Xingyue stiffened for a moment, but let her go, but lowered his head and did not look at her.
Shen Lansui was a little confused. She asked tentatively: "But I don't know my eldest brother before, and I have never met him. How could he want to marry me?"
"No, you haven't seen him, he has seen you." Lu Xingyue slowly clenched his hands in his sleeves, "More than once."
Shen Lansui completely lost her voice.
"He fell in love with you at first sight and was very affectionate." Lu Xingyue finally raised his head, and his beautiful eyes were no longer as clear as before, as if they were hiding something.
"But I don't like him." Shen Lansui retorted subconsciously.
Neither she nor the original owner had any good impressions of Lu Mingchao. The original owner had never even met him and died before he could see him.
"Wait a minute -" Shen Lansui looked horrified, "Did Madam design everything in the bridal chamber just because Lu Mingchao likes me?"
The second half of her question was very difficult, as if something was blocked in her throat.
She hoped that Lu Xingyue would shake his head to deny this terrifying speculation, but Lu Xingyue nodded gently.
Shen Lansui suddenly felt a pain in her heart, and the feeling of being pierced by a dagger came back. She couldn't help but bend down while pressing her heart, and her head buzzed as if someone had hit her with a heavy hammer.
"Why?"
She couldn't understand, "Just because he likes me, should I die?"
Tears fell unexpectedly, wetting the sleeves one by one. The plain white flowers were soaked in water and became gloomy.
Lu Xingyue's breathing was slightly stagnant, and he stretched out his trembling hand to wipe away her tears. Shen Lansui suddenly raised his head and asked very softly: "His life is life, isn't mine life?"
Unable to bear the torture any longer, Lu Xingyue grabbed Shen Lansui's wrist and pulled her into his arms, hugged her waist tightly and whispered, "It's not your fault."
"Why?" Shen Lansui murmured and repeated, tears rolling down like a bursting dam, "Why?!"
She thought about many possibilities, but she never thought that the original owner lost his life because of a love that she had never met before.
It wasn't until this moment that she realized how heavy the words "life is like grass" on the paper were.
Lu Xingyue didn't need to say the rest. Shen Lansui himself could also think of the eldest lady's intention.
She soon burst into tears and clutched the corners of Lu Xingyue's clothes tightly. She felt wronged for herself and the original owner was not worth the wrong.
In the apocalypse, human life is like duckweed, and they may die at any time, but most of them die in the hands of zombies or enemies, rather than due to such inexplicable reasons.
She originally thought that she would be at peace once she came here, and that she would be able to integrate well into this era. But now it seems that this is just her wishful thinking. She has seen only one tenth of the cruelty of this era.
Lu Xingyue repeated numbly, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."
He didn't know the use of apologizing. Although he was not the perpetrator in this incident, he indirectly caused everything. He couldn't convince his conscience.
"That's enough!" Shen Lansui suddenly pushed him away and said bitterly: "What does it have to do with you? I don't need your apology!"
"Lu Xingyue, don't take everything for yourself!"
Lu Xingyue's eyes turned red and he remained silent.
Zhou Quan and the others who were guarding the door looked at each other when they heard the faint scolding inside. Zhou Quan carefully knocked on the door and asked: "Master, Madam, what happened? Don't quarrel!" (End of Chapter)
