"If it were normal, I would definitely say 'worrying is too much trouble' and make a decision right away, but this time you are seriously worrying about me, and I think it's good."
"Of course, I also know that you are calculating the gains and losses." Natsumi said with a bitter smile, but she was still very happy.
"Then... isn't taking a life a bad thing?"
A person has only one life.
Not to mention human strength, even people other than people with extraordinary strength cannot restore a lost life.
Theon believes that the act of taking it is evil for whatever reason.
"At least I don't have a penchant for doing bad things for no reason."
"……Um."
"If you have your own reasons, you will do bad things."
"... Even so, I think it must be a good thing to think of things as bad things."
I was going to say something unethical—something no good person would agree with or understand anyway.
She almost looks like Theon thinks she can't kill people, I even want to stab her with a nail.
However, even so, it was Xion who was overwhelmed by Natsumi who was still smiling.
(Ah, it’s so difficult)
She smiled like that because she only knew what Theon had shown so far.
Because he did not know the existence of Theon Istar, not to mention Natsumi, not even Gil and Anna had ever seen him.
Natsumi was not at fault for this. This is only the case because Theon is deliberately hiding it.
If I have to ask the wrong question, it’s Theon himself in the front.
No matter what happens because of what was hidden, the responsibility lies with Theon himself.
Even though I knew this from the beginning, I still felt a little uneasy.
"...Now that things have happened, I feel a little uncomfortable or something."
One day will come, certainly not too far in the future. When the malignancy within Theon's body was exposed to broad daylight.
Could she still smile at Theon like she did now?
Thinking of the relationship that could change whether he wanted to or not, the young man lowered his eyes slightly.
"——Does Istar think people can be killed?"
Late at night, while discussing future matters in the captain's room of "Mystordin", Akit suddenly asked Anna.
Ana's response to this unreasonable question was a little slow.
"Why did you come suddenly?"
"It's only now that I started to care."
Indeed, whether he had the potential to kill may have been an important criterion for judging whether he was trustworthy, and he did not raise the issue explicitly.
I'm not making excuses, the human military didn't accept Theon without thinking about these issues. Regardless of whether Theon himself knows it or not, rigorous investigations are being conducted secretly.
For example, in a major terrorist attack on an artificial island, Theon was one of the few survivors. After losing his parents in that incident, he lived in an orphanage run by the human army of the Earth Kingdom. It is the evidence of relevant persons. The language is also very clear.
He has a good attitude towards life. As long as someone asks for his help, he will go to the welfare home to help, so the employees have a good impression of him.
However, free time never appeared, and he was said to be a "kind of weird kid" since then, due to his age and strange adult-like behavior.
Later, he entered the military academy and gained more detailed information, so he had a general understanding of Theon Istar's experience.
Careful investigation of these data did not reveal the fact of killing, and there was no sign of harm to humans after the identity was discovered.
To sum up, the result of comprehensive judgment is that there is no problem in forming a cooperative relationship.
However, needless to say Anna and the others, even their superiors could not completely believe the results of the investigation.
Theon, who calls himself a "magician," may have a way to hide information that humans cannot see through.
Ultimately, no one knows the exact situation except myself.
"Honestly, I was almost convinced I could kill him."
Xiaojing said this, although she was very convinced, her voice was a little confused. However, Anna could understand his mood.
"Me too, I always thought Theon would pull the trigger without hesitation."
Definitely not the type to enjoy or justify killing. Still, he took it upon himself to pull the trigger easily if he judged it necessary.
He himself has made it clear: "If there is enough reason, he will be killed."
But in reality, in scenes like this, Theon is trying to avoid killing terrorists.
Although this choice will increase the vigilance within the human army, no matter which choice is made, there is not much difference, and the appropriateness will directly affect one's personal safety.
Anna thought that in order to save her own life, she would not spend so much time, but would choose to "kill", but her expectation failed.
Including the first, six battles later, Theon still hasn't killed the terrorist. But he didn't make it clear that he wouldn't kill him, or even made a choice.
It is precisely because of this situation that Aki will take this issue to heart again.
"There are also reasons for losing loved ones very early. ... It seems like that, is it that you are very sensitive to people's life and death?"
"How should I put it...I personally don't think she has such a cute personality."
"I think so too. However, if you are so hesitant, this possibility will also be taken into consideration..."
Jingren's face looked very bad as he spoke.
Although this is inconsistent with his image as a captain who deliberately does not show off when working, from another perspective, it also shows that he is suffering from this.
"...Is it a transfer of feelings?"
Ajit's position is that of Theon's controller, the one who must remain neutral between the human army and Theon.
However, the Ajit in front of him looked hard to call neutral.
He was probably worried about "forcibly pushing a young man who is sensitive to people's life and death into the battlefield" or something like that.
For Anna personally, having a crush on Theon was welcome in itself, but her attitude was less than favorable.
"That kid is the type who will make it clear when something is annoying. If he doesn't like killing, he will make it clear that he won't kill anyone."
"Indeed, it seems that it can be done..."
"Right? So you don't have to worry about that kind of thing."
After listening to Anna's words, Ajid seemed to accept it temporarily.
It's just that the difficult expression itself won't change.
"If so, why do you think Istar is so troubled?"
Regarding this, Anna herself has many questions.
I understand Theon's position of basically not wanting to take a life.
He himself has made it clear that if he had a general sense of ethics, he would not take the initiative to kill people.
However, even though her own body was in danger, she still hesitated to kill the hostile terrorists. Ultimately, Anna felt that it was "unlike him."
"Don't look at him like that, he is actually the type who shows no mercy to his enemies..."
During the driving training of the mobile armor, he faced the students from the special subjects who rushed towards him. In the simulated battle, he made a scene and beat the students to pieces; when he was targeted by the students with bad conduct, he came up with a plan. Send all students out of school. Anecdotes like this are indispensable whenever you wake him up.
Because of this, I thought he would be tough on terrorists with the same stance, but that was not the case.
Compared to Argento, who has recently had a relationship with Xion, Anna, who has a clear grasp of these past events, may be even more shocked.
"You don't see them as enemies at all? Istar gives the impression that he doesn't care about the terrorists at all."
"Ah, that's possible. And that kid basically doesn't like bullying the weak."
Not only himself, but also the people around him understand his bad and ruthless character, but even if he is despicable and cunning, he will not raise his hand to the weak.
Taking the example of his student days as an example, he would only mercilessly attack those whose social status was equal to or even higher than his own.
"...Terrorists are a group organized by the weak in society. Considering the huge gap in combat effectiveness with the human army, they can also be said to be weak..."
"...Maybe so."
Although terrorist activities threaten people's lives and disrupt public order, they also contain poverty and the gap between the rich and the poor.
It is possible to have some sympathy for such weakness.
"(However, do I feel that I am very subtle...)"
Theon Istar is a man who thinks very quickly, but in the end he acts based on intuition and emotion.
Because she couldn't abandon Anna and those close to her, she chose to assist the human army. He threatens his superiors in order not to be harmed by them, and often makes choices that he shouldn't make if he thinks about it rationally.
Therefore, judgments are sometimes made without even thinking.
I don’t want to kill him because he is a “weak person”.
But judging from the current situation, we cannot ignore it.
This mental standard of judgment combined with the complexity of things around him may prevent Theon from making judgments.
