At this moment, Xiao Zhuai turned his head and glanced towards me. When he saw me, he smiled at me.
I walked up to him and asked, knowingly: "You're not sleepy, why don't you go back to sleep?"
He said: "I'm not dozing off. I want to smoke a cigarette here to cool off."
"Is it because Xiaoye doesn't sleep?"
He didn't say anything, but looked at me and smiled, obviously acquiescing.
Because it was inconvenient to chat in the corridor and I was afraid of disturbing Keren next door, I glanced out the window and said, "There is a stone bench in the backyard. Let's go and sit there for a while, just to enjoy the cool air. I am now I just couldn’t sleep either.”
"Let's go."
On the way to the backyard with Little Pigtail, I actually felt quite uneasy. Although I was determined to have a good chat with Little Pigtail, I still don't know exactly how to talk and how to open this conversation.
And I know that once I explain it, Xiaozizi will definitely feel sad, and I don’t know how to face him.
But this day will come sooner or later, and sooner or later I have to make it clear to him that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. In order to prevent him from sinking deeper in the future, I can only bite the bullet now.
"Do you still smoke?" After sitting on the stone bench with Xiaozizi, I took out a cigarette from my pocket and handed him one.
He obviously wanted to relieve his sorrows with a cigarette, so he picked it up and lit it directly.
"Jianjun, tell me the truth, does Xiaoye like you?" What surprised me a little was that Xiaozizi actually took the initiative to raise this topic. Obviously my previous guess was correct, and Xiaozizi did realize that what.
If he had asked me this kind of question before, I would definitely deny it or something. Anyway, I would try my best to remove myself from the "relationship" between him and Xiaoye.
But now, I have to be realistic.
I said: "She hasn't expressed her meaning to me, but judging from my intuition, I think she has a crush on me. I'm sorry that I'm telling you now. I wasn't very sure before, and I didn't So much to say.”
Although Xiaozizi asked me this topic first, when I answered his question and said that Xiaoye might have a crush on me, Xiaozizi still looked a little surprised. He didn’t even reply to my words, but just there I was stunned not knowing what to think.
I didn't know what to say to him. The two of us were silent, and the atmosphere was very strange.
After a long time, he said: "Well, actually I should have thought of this, so when did you find out?"
I said: "Actually, Zhao Hu made a similar joke in front of me before, saying that Xiaoye might have a crush on me or something. I never took it seriously. But this time when she went to Myanmar to learn diving, she told me We talked a lot. Although she didn’t say it clearly, she still had a strong interest in me. She also asked me to talk to you, hoping that you would give up on her. I didn’t know how to talk to you, so I never did. explain."
"Then she probably likes you."
Although Little Braid was asking me, it was more like a statement.
I said I didn't know very well, I was just guessing.
"What about you, you... do you like her?" Xiao Braid continued to smell, and when he asked this question, he stuttered and even cried a little.
I didn't dare to look at him at this time. I knew that as soon as I looked at him, he might burst into tears. This made me feel quite uncomfortable. After all, he is my good brother. I didn't want him to feel uncomfortable because of me. brought to him.
As for his question, I can only answer that I don't like it.
Although I have a bit of a crush on Xiao Ye in my heart, I don’t have the courage to tell Xiao Zhuzi now, and I’m also struggling in my heart. I don’t know how to handle the relationship between Xiao Ye and the short-haired girl, so I can’t make up my mind, and I don’t dare to tell her. Pigtails are a definite answer.
"You should like Ranran, right?" Xiao Zhuzi asked.
I smiled bitterly and said, "To be honest, I don't know what my feelings are for Ranran now. I'm really confused inside and can't answer you."
"Then you..." Xiao braid seemed to want to ask something else, but he stopped as soon as he said the words.
I said you can just ask whatever you want. He just smiled bitterly and said nothing. After taking a puff of cigarette, he sighed deeply and said: "No matter whether Xiaoye likes you or not, and no matter what your feelings are towards her, What kind of relationship will I have with her in the future? She doesn’t like me anyway, that’s for sure.”
"Well, from a brother's point of view, I think you should give up on this idea. You may never be able to do it. If you fall into this trap, it will only make you fall deeper and deeper. In the end, you two will not even be friends. There’s nothing to do, haven’t you noticed, now Xiaoye’s attitude towards a waiter in a hotel or a stranger on the street is better than towards you, and sometimes I feel sorry for you.”
Xiao Zhuizi said it was nothing wrong, he had felt it a long time ago, but he couldn't help it.
I asked half-jokingly: "Then if Xiaoye and I are in love, will you suddenly feel relieved?"
The pigtail smiled, then nodded and said, "Yes, if this is the case, I will definitely feel relieved immediately, and I will bless you, and I will bless you from the bottom of my heart."
"So what are you going to do now?"
The pigtail took another puff of cigarette and said, "If you hadn't talked to me like this today, I think I would still be the same as before, but now I plan to change, and it may be time to give up on Xiao Ye."
"It would definitely be best for you if you can let it go. When you look back, you will definitely be able to meet the woman who truly belongs to you. Then you will understand that the choice you made today is definitely the most correct one."
"Well, thank you, brother, I really appreciate you telling me this today."
"Why are we talking about this between us?"
"It's getting late by then. You can go back to sleep. I'll continue to sit here for a while." Xiao Zhuzi smiled at me and waved his hand, gesturing for me to go back to sleep.
I originally wanted to persuade him to go back to sleep, but I thought that he would definitely not be able to sleep even if he went back. Instead, if he thought about it by himself, he might figure it out, so I just patted him on the shoulder and left.
I went back and lay on the bed. It took me a long time to fall asleep, and my sleep was not very deep. When I got up in the early morning and went to the toilet, I glanced out the window towards the backyard. Pigtail is still there, and there are still a lot of cigarette butts scattered on the ground. It seems that Pigtail didn't go back to the room last night and sat here until dawn.
Pigtail has never been like this before, but this time he seems to be serious about it. I'm actually happy for him, because I think he really wants to let go of Xiaoye.
