She paused again as she spoke, her feet tapping lightly on the sand.
Then she turned to look at me, her eyes were sincere and ambiguous, and she said: "I think now, liking requires a feeling, which is a sudden feeling of heartbeat. I can't tell when I fell in love with you. But now I really want to be with you, and I feel very solid and safe sleeping in your arms at night."
At this time, I still don’t think the girl with short hair really likes me.
I smiled and said, "It's not that you like it, it's actually a kind of dependence. You've only had me by your side these days, and you rely on me for everything like eating, drinking, sleeping, etc. You simply can't live without me, so I've made you feel... This kind of illusion makes you feel that you can't live without me, and you really want to be with me, but this is just dependence, not love. When we get out alive and you return to your city to live a stable life, then think about what you just said. , you will find it ridiculous."
"Ah? Is that so?" she asked me with wide eyes.
I said that’s how I feel anyway.
"Then why do I want to give you my first time?"
"You just want to taste a man before you die."
"I..." She seemed to want to say something else, but she didn't say it in the end.
I was tired after walking all day, so I lay down and planned to take a rest. Then she lay down and naturally got into my arms. After burying her face in my chest, she said: "I don't want to It’s just an illusion, I hope it’s true.”
I didn't pick up her topic, but hugged her waist and said go to sleep.
Of course, I couldn't fall asleep after lying down, and my heartbeat was always very fast.
I even thought that if we went back alive and a beautiful girl with short hair wanted to have sex with me, I would probably be willing, right?
Anyway, she is much stronger than Zhang Yao.
But if you think about it carefully, the short-haired girl has obviously changed in the past few days. This is not her true face. She is the arrogant and hot-tempered person before.
If she comes out alive and returns to her original state, then we will be completely in two different worlds.
Will I be willing then?
I'm afraid that others won't be willing to do it.
Forget it, this kind of life and death situation is not the time to think about love between a man and a woman, so just go to sleep.
When we woke up the next day, the two of us seemed to have forgotten the "special" conversation last night. After getting rid of the only remaining sand top and scorpion, we were left with a bag of urine.
The short-haired woman also seemed to be a lot more anxious. While we were on the way, she kept asking me what I should do if I couldn’t find food and water.
I jokingly said, "If you can't find it, then just do what you said before. Let's give each other the first time and then find a quiet place to lie down and wait for death."
"I don't want it!" The short-haired woman's answer surprised me: "I want to go back alive."
"Didn't you say yesterday that you would give it to me before you die?" I asked with a smile.
"Yesterday was yesterday and now is now. Anyway, I don't care. You have to take me back alive."
I am a bit dumbfounded:
This girl really didn't disappoint me, she changed her attitude so quickly.
It seems that she just said she liked me "on the spur of the moment" yesterday. Today, without food or water, she can no longer rely on me, so she naturally returned to her true self.
But I don’t have any thoughts about her in that regard, so I don’t care.
I said we would look for water and food today. If we couldn't find it, we would drink urine today. Fortunately, we had accumulated a lot in the past few days, and this little urine was enough for us for two days.
She was still disgusted with urine and said she'd better try to find water.
After searching for another day, we still found nothing. By the next morning, I felt that we both couldn't hold on any longer.
Especially the girl with short hair. When I told her to get up and go on the road, she kept shaking her head and said she was dizzy and wanted to continue sleeping.
I saw that her mouth was so dry that the skin was cracked, so I knew she was seriously dehydrated.
I took off the urine bag and handed it to her: "Drink some. If you don't drink, you may not be able to survive today."
She shook her head and said in a weak tone: "You can go find some water again. I want to drink water, but I don't want to drink urine."
"If you don't drink, you will die. Don't be so particular about it." I tried to continue to persuade her.
"No, no, no, go find water quickly..."
I was a little helpless and said, "Just lie down here while I look for water elsewhere."
As a result, before I left, she immediately forced herself to sit up and said, "Don't... don't leave. If you leave, you will definitely leave me alone."
"Then what do you think we should do? I'll carry you on my back to find water?"
She didn't know if she was serious, but she actually asked me: "Then...can you carry it?"
I said you might as well just kill me, and then I said, "Don't worry, I'll be looking for you nearby and I won't leave you alone."
"Then you swear," she said.
I really had no intention of leaving her, so I made an oath.
In fact, what can I say, if her temper remains as unwelcome as before during the past few days I have been with her, maybe I will really abandon her now.
But I have been getting along very well with her these days. In this process of relying on each other, she is a very important partner and friend.
I really can't leave her behind.
Just when I was about to leave, she stopped me again.
She still felt it was risky to let me go alone and she chose to drink urine.
I opened the plastic bag, poured a little urine into another plastic bag, and let her drink it.
She was still very repulsive at first, both physically and mentally. Anyway, it took a long time for her to hold her nose and drink.
After finishing the drink, she retched, and then kept frowning with a disgusted look on her face. She also said that she was already dirty and unclean, and she felt like she might as well be dead.
I waited until she felt a little more comfortable, then helped her up and planned to continue on the way.
"Brother, don't you drink a little?"
she asked after walking for a while.
I said I can still hold it, and I will drink it when I can’t hold it anymore.
"Then you..." As soon as she said this, she suddenly pointed to the side and said, "Oh, what do you think that is?"
I turned my face and looked at the place she pointed at. It was a very high sand dune. There was a small animal on the top of the dune. It looked like a monkey, but it was much smaller than the monkey and its limbs were very thin.
When I saw this thing, I immediately became excited.
The old book in my family records an animal called a two-faced monkey, which probably looks like this.
This kind of monkey lives in the desert, and wherever they appear, there is usually a water source. In ancient times, the camel caravans that often traveled in the desert would use this to find water.
They usually pretend to be dead to attract the two-faced monkeys. When the two-faced monkeys come to people, they will catch them directly, then put salt in their mouths, or keep pouring sand into their mouths to make the two-faced monkeys mouth. Unbearable thirst.
After releasing the two-faced monkey, the two-faced monkey will rush to the water source to drink water. As long as people follow the two-faced monkey, they can drink water.
"Haha, this thing is called a two-faced monkey. Its presence means there is water nearby."
I said with some excitement, and then I quickly lay down on the ground, and asked the short-haired girl to lie down with me.
"Is there a water source? Let's go find it quickly. Why are you lying down?"
"Some water sources in the desert are very hidden. Even if you are sure that there is a water source within a few hundred meters, you may not be able to find it. Besides, we are both so weak. How can we still have the energy to look for it? Let this thing help us. Find it."
"Ah?" The short-haired woman looked even more confused: "Then how do you let him find it? And why are you lying down?"
