The night is like ink and the moon is like a hook.
The cat slept, and so did the daughter.
Xu Li closed the storybook, quietly stood up and closed the curtain beside his daughter's bed. He sat back under the kerosene lamp, opened the old iron lock on the cabinet, and took out an old diary from the deepest part of the cabinet.
The book is very old. It has been read so many times that the corners have become rounded.
The writing on the diary is very delicate, but the blue ink has changed color and looks a bit dirty.
"August 6, 1965. I became Xu Li's bride... I want two children, a son and a daughter. I must give birth to a son, so that my daughter will have an older brother who can protect her with her father. she……"
"March 3, 1967. Today, my first child left me forever because I taught Newton's first law in class... I was so scared, really."
"April 3, 1967. I was bleeding profusely, and the doctor said it would be difficult for me to have children in the future... Perhaps what I lost was the only child that Xu Li and I had in our lives... He was obviously very sad, but he still smiled and comforted me. …”
"May 1, 1967. Xu Li and I divorced. He should leave me. I was already a mess... He got angry with me for the first time and yelled at me very loudly... I don’t feel sad, I just feel sorry for him.”
"January 1, 1968. My body was probably really bad, as was my soul. I wanted to die."
"January 1, 1969. I never wanted to teach again. I wanted to die."
"January 1, 1970. Wanted to die."
"February 3, 1970. I'm pregnant. I'm pregnant!"
"February 4, 1970. I can't believe that I actually had another child! The joy lasted from yesterday to today, and sadness and panic follow me... I'm scared, really scared."
"February 5, 1970. My child, you must be as strong and optimistic as your father. Never imitate me... Please, don't leave me and your father."
"February 6, 1970..."
"August 26, 1970. I hate physics. I hate Newton."
"..."
The diary only ends on August 26th.
Because of the diary entry on August 27, she could no longer write it.
Xu Li rubbed the word "安" on the title page, his heart aching like a knife.
There are thousands of people in this world, 90% of them hope that their children will become dragons and daughters, and the other 10% think that their children will be like dragons and phoenixes among men.
But he is different from thousands of people.
He hoped that Xu Nian'an could be more ordinary, even more ordinary... Even if he was as ordinary as dust, at least he would not be the same as his An, because half of his life was wasted with one sentence and a person he had never met.
'Your father was loyal and brave all his life, but you are a coward. '
'We are working hard to cultivate talents, but you are trapped in a ridiculous face and can't extricate yourself. '
Somehow, Principal Wu's words rang in his mind again.
'Dad, you are my hero. '
He slowly bowed down and buried his face in his hands.
If it were a father, how would he choose...
…
"Trust me, I just need to press a switch and I'll definitely bring her out!"
"Forget it. The last time you pressed a switch, you almost scared a whole yard of people crazy."
"Well... that was an accident. I changed the tape this time..."
"Girl in the melon, your idea is unreliable. You should do as I say. You smash the glass, and I will do it. The battle will be over in half a minute!"
"It is illegal to destroy other people's property. Didn't Brother Feng educate you about the law?"
"Are you two sick? Isn't it illegal to take someone away in a sack?"
"Well... I asked Brother Yun Cheng, but he didn't say anything."
"so?"
"He didn't say no, so that means it's okay."
"..."
In broad daylight, the world is clear.
The three girls openly discussed issues that sounded like torture.
Next to the three of them, a little kid looked up at them for a while, sighed, let go of the hands held by his sisters, put his hands in his trouser pockets, and walked straight into the small courtyard.
"Why……"
Lin Nianhe wanted to call him to stop, but was interrupted by him shaking his head. The meaning was obvious - leave it to him and don't make a sound.
In the small courtyard of the Xu family, Xu Nianan was sitting on a pony doing arithmetic problems, with her breasts nestled at her feet, lazily licking her fur.
"Hello, can you give me some water?"
When Xu Nian'an heard the voice, she looked up and saw a boy about the same age as her, standing about ten meters away from her, looking at herself with a smile.
His accent was a little strange, and he didn't seem to be from the capital.
Xu Nian'an nodded, put down the book and stood up: "Come in, I'll get you some water."
The little girl didn't think too much and went straight to pour a cup of warm water.
"Thank you." He drank the water, wiped the water stains from the corners of his mouth, and said, "Hello, my name is Niu Yuxue."
"Hello," Xu Nian'an didn't understand why a person asking for water had to introduce herself, but the good habit she had developed for a long time made her announce her name without thinking, "My name is Xu Nian'an."
"Is it the Nian'an who 'lives high in the field of Nian, enjoying the bitter heat'?"
"Well……"
Xu Nian'an realized that he had no idea what those two words he said were.
She has never experienced this scene before. She has always been able to do it, but others can't.
Xu Nianan pursed her lips and did not answer.
Classmate Niu Yuxue looked at her for a while, smiled, picked up a branch, and neatly wrote this poem on the ground, and specially circled the words "Nian" and "An".
He asked: "Are these two words?"
Xu Nianan nodded this time, but only once.
"Are you about the same age as me? Didn't your teacher teach you these two lines of poetry?"
But he was reluctant and continued to ask questions based on these two lines of poetry.
Xu Nian'an was a little annoyed, and she began to regret giving this guy water.
She sat back on the pony, picked up her book and continued to do arithmetic problems.
Niu Yuxue did not leave, but actually came over again and started to guide her in a stern manner——
"You can't think about it for so long while doing arithmetic."
"You must have memorized the multiplication tables, right?"
"You can't do nine times ten? Oh...what did your teacher teach you..."
Xu Nian'an was angry.
The little girl hit someone for the first time in her life, and she slapped Niu Yuxue directly on the forehead.
She didn't have much strength, so Niu Yuxue casually wiped his forehead and stepped away: "Okay, okay, I won't say anything... But you really have to tell your dad that it's time to transfer you to another school. You can't even... ahem, Goodbye and thank you for the water."
Before the next slap came, Niu Yuxue turned around and ran away, disappearing in a flash.
Xu Nian'an, the one who beat others, felt more wronged than the one who was beaten. She flattened her mouth and tears fell down.
At this moment, Xu Li came back. When he saw his daughter crying, he immediately panicked, dropped everything in his hands, rushed forward, and took his daughter into his arms with great distress.
"An'an, what's wrong with you?"
"Wow - daddy, daddy!" (End of chapter)
