Lu Yiling and Jiang Nian looked at each other and understood the meaning in her eyes. He and Wang Chuanhu retreated, closed the door, and let Jiang Nian and Xiao Jia be in the same room.
"Bai Momo wants to crush me with her online comments. Her fans are sending me vicious messages all the time, in my comment area, on my video comments, and in my private messages. I I don’t dare to broadcast live. I don’t know if I wrap myself up in the face of these malicious remarks. If I don’t go online, will I not be hurt by these things?”
Xiaojia cried and described what she had experienced for more than a month.
"They found me, those keyboard warriors who claimed to be righteous people. They disguised themselves as takeaways, community property managers, and couriers. They came to knock on my door. As soon as I opened the door, they took pictures of me with their mobile phones, insulted me, and took pictures of me. I don’t know what sprayed me. I tried to call the police, but we are in an old community and surveillance is not very common. Many of the people who have surveillance are old and retired and cannot provide any useful information to the police. I dare not tell you, You have suffered more than me on the Internet, and you have just given birth to a baby. I really feel that it is troublesome for you. Just like today, you came all the way to see me. It is really unnecessary." Xiaojia raised her teary eyes as she spoke. The whirling face looked apologetically at the frowning Jiang Nian.
Jiang Nian can understand her current situation very well. She is also a victim of online public opinion. She does not dare to read those vicious remarks. Some people say that it is better to turn off and not read.
However, people are social animals, and they always care too much about what others think of them. Even if they turn off the channels to read these vicious remarks, they still secretly read them unconsciously.
It's not sad to see it, it's even sadder to see it.
Jiang Nian thought about scolding him back, but this was obviously irrational. She rejected this method of retaliation without even trying.
She could only do the next best thing and ignore these extreme remarks. She did not sit still and looked for clues to refute the false information.
But this process is extremely long. For example, Jiang Nian found the photographer who took the video of Bai Momo kicking her. No matter what she asked for, he was unwilling to mention the video. He had obviously been asked by someone. .
The clues stopped abruptly at this point, and there was nothing she could do now.
"I can't stand it every day. I feel that so many people must have their reasons when they say I'm wrong. I think it's my own problem. If I hadn't sent a love letter to Lu Yiling, and hadn't competed with Bai Momo for the position of leader of the recitation team, I would have been Doesn’t it mean I don’t have to suffer bullying? If I don’t act smart enough to contact you, doesn’t it mean I won’t anger Bai Momo and don’t have to suffer this cyber bullying? I made every mistake, which led to this unbearable situation.”
Jiang Nian tilted his head slightly, his expression unbearable, "You are never wrong, everything is other people's problems."
"But, Jiang Nian, why did God have to catch me and punish me? My family was very happy when I was very young, but because I was a girl and my father didn't like it, my parents began to fight endlessly. During the quarrel, I cried and shouted to them to stop arguing. My dad slapped me and my mom protected me. I thought she would comfort me, but she just dragged me to the bathroom and looked at me viciously. Why am I a girl? Why can't I be a boy? Is my father the only one who won't argue with me if I die?"
Jiang Nian looked at Xiaojia who was chattering endlessly, and suddenly felt how difficult it was for her to live strong until now.
She was brave, but she felt so tired.
"Sometimes I always feel that there are all kinds of people talking in my ears, and each of them is cursing me. I want to break down and scream. When I stop, they will come back again. I seem to have been sick for a long time. This The answer seemed to be heavier. I thought about dying. Wouldn't it be much happier? I bought a ticket for a long trip, thinking that you were the only one in this world who would care about me, so I left you a letter. , comfort you, sorry, I lied to you. I took away the sleeping pills that I had saved for a long time, and used the remaining 50 yuan to rent a small room in a dilapidated and old hotel. I closed the door, and there was With the chatter of people with different accents, I looked at the mottled walls and thought it would be a bit embarrassing if I died here. I thought about it for a long time. Finally, I asked the front desk for a glass of water and poured out all the sleeping pills I had saved. Put it in your mouth." Xiao Jia stopped crying and looked at Jiang Nian, but her eyes were extremely empty, as if she was looking at other people through her.
"I didn't die. I wasted a lot of police and medical resources and survived again. Wang Chuanhu came to me and asked me why I would go so far to commit suicide alone? I felt wronged and I also wanted to ask the question. Why would he do this to me when he was 17 or 18 years old? I know he came here because of your wishes. He helped me a lot. He even cried anxiously when he saw me half dead. I felt that he was very Strange, he actually realized his mistake after Bai Momo broke up with him, and apologized to me every time he bumped into me. We were in the same university as him, and sometimes when we met, his first reaction was to say I apologize. But I just refuse to forgive him. He is a part of the cause of my suffering. I hate him, and sometimes I hate myself. I actually have to rely on a torturer to survive." Xiaojia frowned, showing a hint of self-mockery. smile.
"Sometimes I think he is hateful, but at least he knows that he is on the wrong side. He is much better than those who criticize me indiscriminately on the Internet. Do you think I am not generous enough? Am I too stingy?" Xiao Jiawen Jiang Nian said nothing.
Jiang Nian shook her head, her heart shrinking with sadness. She thought what would happen to her if something like Xiao Jia happened to her. She was already very brave, and sometimes refusing the abuser's forgiveness was also a very brave act.
"Jiang Nian, thank you." Xiao Jia squeezed Jiang Nian's hand and said to herself: "I haven't seen Lu Yiling for a long time. He is much more handsome than he looks on the screen. Sometimes I hate him, but Thinking about it carefully, he just doesn't like to interfere in other people's affairs. I liked him at the time, but in his eyes, I was just an extremely difficult classmate. What does this have to do with him? Sorry, my previous remarks may He also induced you to be biased against Lu Yiling, I am surprised that he came today."
"Thank you for thinking of Lu Yiling so much. I know that his personality is not purely a good person. He is too indifferent. He was a bystander during the school bullying and was undoubtedly a helper. Thank you for thinking of him like this."
Jiang Nian's heart was turbulent, and he had many words of comfort in his heart, but when he came to his mouth, he could only repeat thank you.
