How to live happily in life?
This is a question Shu Yajing never thought about before coming to Beijing.
In her opinion, it was a blessing to grow up in a wealthy and aristocratic family without any worries, and live the life as the predecessors did, with good clothes and fine food.
Whether you are happy or not is impossible to tell without comparison.
Until she married her sister into Kyoto.
According to the rules, she was born in a mountain city and raised in a mountain city. She had her own parents at home, so she should not have lived with her sister in the Yongxing Marquis Mansion.
However, the situation in the family is complicated. Although my father is the chief official of the mountain city, he has gained his name because of his reliance on the family, so he is controlled by the family. Even if he has independent opinions on the outside world, whenever his eldest brother, as the patriarch of the clan, asks for anything, he will definitely comply with everything.
In the early years, before the third brother was born, the parents, who were over forty, only had two daughters, so the clan decided to adopt the third uncle's second son as their heir.
A few years later, the third brother was born.
Ordinarily, their brother's situation has been somewhat embarrassing since then.
But I don’t know how the patriarch and third uncle negotiated with her father. Her father insisted on keeping his promise and treating her as his eldest son.
Although he is honest and kind, it is a bit unfair to the third brother.
If this is all, the worst thing is to teach the third brother well, let him be self-reliant, and rise to the top by relying on the imperial examination.
However, the younger brother was ambitious and talented, but he was good at talking sweetly. He made his father think that he was good at business and actually trusted him.
Originally, according to her brother's arrangement, the younger brother came to Kyoto with her eldest sister and took advantage of the power of Shengguogongfu and Yongxinghoufu to study at the Imperial Academy. As for her, she would choose a family from a mountain city family to marry that would be beneficial to the family.
At that time, she was ignorant and did not know the pros and cons, but her sister told her that most of the husbands from the mountain city family were dandy, mediocre and dissolute and unworthy of a good match. She told her not to obey, and then even broke them into pieces to explain their relationship to her parents.
After a lot of hard work, he sent his third brother to his grandfather's house to study, and then took her away from the mountain city to Kyoto.
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Shu Yajing looked at the bright moon outside the window and exhaled softly.
In her heart, it was her sister who tried her best to pull her out of the quagmire of possible turmoil despite the difficulties; therefore, whether she agreed with her sister's idea or not, she could only be grateful.
She remembered that since her third brother was born, her sister had divided their family into two factions. In her sister's heart, the three siblings were the people of this group, and the third brother was the future of this group.
She originally thought that her sister was just angry that her father valued the family more than the small family.
But she doesn't know since when, it became her sister's obsession to be more successful than the entire Shu family.
They are more promising than all other tribesmen. They want the Shu family to look up to their siblings, make the bossy patriarch be obedient, make the younger brother shameless, make the third uncle flatter and flatter, and make their father admit that he is blind. …My sister’s obsession seems to be increasing every year.
She didn't know whether her sister's pressure had doubled due to this, but she felt increasingly out of breath.
In fact, she often had the urge to escape back to the academy in front of her sister.
But every time this impulse arises, she always blames herself and gives up, feeling like a wolf with white eyes.
Such repeatedly intertwined but contradictory emotions often made her feel trapped and confused, and sometimes she felt lifeless.
It wasn't until she opened her eyes and looked squarely at the girl in the Hou's mansion that she realized that a girl could live such a flamboyant life.
Putting aside her prejudice and stubbornness, and seriously exploring the beauty of the other person, she realized that Kyoto was very different from the mountain city, and that girls could also control their own lives.
It turns out that walking out of the backyard like Lang Jun, learning what you want to learn, and doing what you want to do is freedom and happiness.
"Miss, it's time to go to bed." The maid's reminder made Shu Yajing wake up from her thoughts, blinking and feeling the coolness between her nose.
"Okay." Shu Yajing changed from the couch to the bed, but she never let go of the envelope in her hand.
There is a bronze palace lantern in Babu's bed.
This lamp is very interesting. The candle flame is particularly bright under the effect of the lampshade. If you turn it to the left, the light will go out. If you turn it to the right, the light will turn on. If you accidentally knock it over, the candle flame will extinguish itself. The entire palace lantern will also be closed and there will be no gap. .
Under the illumination of this palace lantern, you can close the bed curtain and step inside the bed to read, practice calligraphy and make nvhong.
"Miss, don't read for too long, and watch your eyes carefully." The maid still warned her carefully before putting down the tent. Even if she had to accompany her outside the tent, she would remind her from time to time.
Shu Yajing smiled and said yes.
It wasn't until the bed curtain was put down that her gentle smile turned into sadness.
If you don’t climb it yourself, you don’t know how high the mountain is; if you don’t trek it yourself, you don’t know how far the road is.
It was only after Shu Yajing attended Yunqi Academy that she saw the beauty of each college and the roads a girl could take, that she understood how high the mountain is and how far the road is.
It was precisely because of this knowledge that she felt extremely guilty and ashamed of the mistakes she had made in the past due to her obsession with power.
She believes that with good teachers and friends as her companions, her future life may not be exciting, but it will definitely be fulfilling.
She thought that with the breeze and the bright moon as her companions, her future deeds might not necessarily be great, but they would definitely be valuable.
She thought...she thought that she could submit the recommendation letter generously given by her husband and get a job in the Imperial College that she had never thought about since she was a child, didn't dare to think about it when she came to Beijing, and wanted to try it not long ago.
She thought, she thought... she could live a life without pointing at men or relying on her husband, even if this life was not rich enough.
It's a pity that after an imperial edict came down, she didn't need to be self-righteous.
From then on, her life became determined. Just when she wanted to escape from the life of an ordinary woman, she was blocked by this imperial edict.
This result instantly calmed her heart, which had always been a bit unsteady, but it also gently solidified the colorful picture in front of her that was about to come true.
Shu Yajing thought that she still had to be grateful after all.
If she hadn't followed her sister to the capital, if it hadn't been for the tolerance of Marquis Yongxing and his wife, if it hadn't been for Emperor Jinghe's generosity, she probably wouldn't have had the opportunity she had now.
Shu Yajing thought that she should still be content.
If she had not followed her sister to Beijing, if she had not lived in the Yongxing Marquis Mansion, if she had not entered Yunqi Academy, she probably would not have been able to enjoy the colorful, colorful and free life.
"That's good! Very good! So good!" Shu Yajing finally let go of her hand and carefully and with special care stroked the letter of recommendation that her husband had given her but she had not handed it over.
Gently opening her round box that holds important items, Shu Yajing hesitated for a moment, opened the layer that was least used, put it in reluctantly, and then locked it.
What was imprisoned along with it was the energy she once wanted to chase the clouds, the dream she wanted to explore but failed in the end, a sweet dream that was difficult to shake off, but was enough to comfort her for a lifetime!
(End of chapter)
