That’s how it turns out…
So that’s it!
I understand, I finally understand!
I understood the whole process of changing myself from a 'human' to a 'demon' and finally to a 'villain'.
My anger is not evil, and my resistance is not a 'result'. It is my anger that prompted me to start resisting, and after forming a habit, I saw the fearful faces of others.
It turns out that even the so-called evil people are afraid of their own lives!
Then why should I be afraid of those evil people?
Can't I just pick up the knife myself?
So, I became a demon.
This is the origin of 'Buddha Fear Cause'.
Next, I continued to grow in the struggle, and began to realize that my "evil" was not enough. There were some powerful people who would not be suppressed by me, so I had no choice but to kill them and completely erase them from this world.
So the devil grew horns.
Later, I began to gain power and began to understand that sometimes hurting others is a way to keep myself safe. In the process of gradually understanding bad people, I also became a bad person.
I became a real devil. I was no longer driven by evil thoughts or the will of fear. I slowly changed from 'I have to' to 'I want to'.
I have a tail.
The Buddha is afraid of causes, not because he is afraid of evil thoughts, but because he is afraid of losing himself.
I lost myself.
Lost... in the rearview mirror of Mengmao's abandoned vehicle.
At this time, I just remembered.
This is also the true meaning of the Buddha's saying, "If there is me in the world, it is not worth laughing; if there is no self in the world, it is not worth crying."
What he is talking about is not whether there is a Buddha in this world, but whether there is me.
When there was still 'I' in this world, I didn't feel like there was anything to be happy about. When there was no 'I' in this world anymore, I was so damn numb.
Wow.
The iron chain in the room rang.
I saw a girl, a girl who had not been beaten very much. She was still wearing clothes. Judging from the meaning, she must have been locked in this office just now, so Lao Lin asked me to pull her out for a meeting.
She is afraid of me.
Huddled in a corner, not daring to look up.
But I came over at this time...
"ah!!!"
"ah!"
"ah!!"
It was as if I heard a train whistle, and the girl's screams kept coming to my ears.
I knelt down in front of her and asked her, "Do you think I still look like a human being?"
In the past, no matter when others said 'You are a good person' or 'Are you a good person?', I always had the answer in my heart. Now that answer is gone, I have to ask someone else.
She didn't dare to speak. In the position where she had no way to hide, she shrank hard against the wall, wishing she could squeeze through a gap.
I asked again: "Am I that terrible?"
She still didn't speak.
It was very similar to the first time I met Lao Qiao, he didn’t even dare to open his mouth.
I understand.
But at this time, I was not sad at all, and I still wanted to reach out to comfort this girl.
But despite her efforts to avoid it, when my palm touched the other person's shoulder, she was shaking and turned sideways hard, trying her best to make my hand miss.
An unknown fire suddenly burst out in my heart, I raised my hand high and cursed: "Shameless!"
At that moment, I knew what reincarnation meant!
I slowly put down my hand, as if I saw the vicious version of myself in the mirror.
Then, when I went to see the girl again, she was gone...
Yes, the woman huddled in the corner is gone, replaced by me when I first arrived in northern Myanmar.
I huddled there in fear, shivering, as if it was my first time staying in a double bed room.
It was as if I had been shot in the back in a village and could only huddle in a corner.
Stretching out my hand again, I said distressedly: "Don't be afraid." I wanted to comfort myself, I wanted to tell myself at that time not to be afraid...
But as soon as he stretched out his hand, the person in front of him changed again.
A girl, a girl with a backpack on her back, squatted there and stared at me. There was no fear on her face, but full of hatred. She glared at me and wanted to eat me. Her body seemed to be burning with fire for that second... …
I recovered immediately!
I no longer felt guilty or afraid, and stared back full of fighting spirit. If you want to do this with me, then let’s see who is more ruthless. Even if I am wrong, I will never let you fool me into loving someone else!
"Master!"
I heard the cry, and when I turned around to look, Lao Lin and Mian Peng appeared at the door of the office.
Lao Lin asked in confusion: "What are you doing squatting there?"
I closed my eyes for a moment.
You don’t even need to look back to know that there must be no one in that corner just now!
If there was someone, I should have seen it right away when I came in. I'm not fucking blind.
"Then what? I was thinking that your office should be renovated. How long has it been since Wenwen, Ada, me, and you?"
Lao Lin glanced at the face paralyzed with doubt.
Because of his facial paralysis, he didn’t respond and just said business: “Sir, the matter is done.”
I watched him do it. Do you know it's done?
But even so, I still have to ask: "How did you say it?"
Lao Lin responded with a smile: "I said I need a few days from you, and you guys can chip in the money."
"Then I suggest that you don't leave the park during this period of collecting money, so as not to make you unhappy."
"That's it, we all set a date of seven days, and after seven days, the money will arrive in our account."
I nodded as I listened and went back to sit behind my desk.
"Master, let me discuss something with you."
I looked up at Lao Lin, waiting for his next words.
"Here, a few people who are good at English came here some time ago. I plan to open an overseas market. Can you give me your opinion?"
Good English?
How can it be that few of us are good at English, but there are actually some good ones here at Lao Lin?
"Where did it come from?"
"A few people who went abroad for graduation trips first failed in Yunding. Later, they heard that there were many small casinos in Southeast Asia that offered unsecured loans, so they came to Myanmar. The key is that they are in regular casinos. Who can provide them with unsecured loans? No, let the 'junket operator' we spread out catch him and take him to Menneng Casino."
"It turns out that these kids only had two hours to work, and one of them owed us dozens of dollars. How dare you borrow, and then we turned around and let the casino deduct it."
"I'm not short of people, so I plan to even out two people from the casino. That's how I got the people here, do you think?"
I asked: "Is it possible? After all, our customs are different from those of foreigners..."
"Try it, otherwise these foreign language skills will be wasted."
I nodded: "Then try, and I can also give you a trick."
"Tomorrow, let these foreign language experts hold a class and let our piglets learn foreign languages collectively. I also told them that I have spoken. As long as they can learn foreign languages well and bring Meiko back, I will really let go this time. People!"
"Master!" Lao Lin was immediately shocked: "That's not possible, then our park will have to be empty!"
I looked at Lao Lin and sneered: "Everyone knows that casinos are gold-selling caves. When have you ever seen a casino empty?"
"Just do as I say. Not only will the park be empty by then, but maybe, someone will come over and ask you if you have the 'five insurances and one housing fund'."
"Hahahahaha."
I suddenly had an idea. If Lao Lin really succeeds in this matter, then there may not only be no shortage of people, but also probably no shortage of talents in the future.
This saves the park from moaning and groaning all day long, like a living hell! (End of chapter)
